Hi Kkasxo,

I agree with shelby. Congrats on going and getting involved. I can related to seeing couples being all couply whilst your stood there and then the emotions just hit you like a tidal wave. That happened when I went on a night out around two weeks ago now (although the last two weeks have felt like two years) and it didnt ruin my night but lead me to have a little cry before deciding it was the best time to go to bed and id stopped having fun.

It will get easier, cocktails may have been a contributed to it suddenly feeling overwhelming.

You are strong and you can do this! What are the plans for tomorrow? Is it the day they exchange vows? (I have little experience with weddings). Although with my ex his cousin proposed to his girlfriend of 6 months or a year and all I could think was why isnt that us? am I not good enough? Idk if that’s relate-able, anyway, sending hugs and encouragement that you’ll get through it and feel stronger for it ,

V

Shelby,

No don’t do it aha Believe me you’ll just miss him more (speaking from experience). I am currently getting upset over the fact that I have a blue peter badge that I won 8 years ago and I’ve just found out I could have used it to get in to attractions for free…but now I might not be able to use it 🙁 I’m finding little things make me irrationally upset at the moment haha

Have you tried any funny animal videos? I distracted myself with those two nights ago because I was thinking about him too much.

At the moment I am realising how many things I want to do and how they include doing them with another person. *sigh*

Is that instagram accoun nikki..something? I think I heard about it and I haven’t even watched it haha

Well done on your willpower (:

Shelby,

ah yes! I saw her on Good Morning Britain or something like that, I will check her out at some point.

I agree, and its so easy to find a reason. I did the other day but when he replied I was like “hang on why did I want to speak to him again” turns out I just wanted some validation but it has made the urge to contact/try again worse.

That was lovely of your brother (: My own, hasn’t reached out or answered any of my calls 🙁 it really sucks when you don’t have your family’s support. The only person who’s contacted me is my mum but that doesn’t really help because I know deep down shes gloating, I need genuine interest and concern rn.

I know that the urge is only there because I’m tired so maybe I might go to bed. I’m waiting for my appetite to come back as I haven’t been eating the best diet which isn’t helping.

I’m currently aimlessly browsing at stuff on groupon and finding coupons. Its not very interesting but its stopping me messaging him.

– V

Kkasxo,

breath, stay strong, it’ll be ok you’ll be back at home and in bed soon enough! I don’t what I can say except same, my bf and I had an open relationship but when I thought of him sleeping with someone else I too felt physically sick at that thought.

If its near your anniversary no wonder you are feeling like you aren’t making progress. You are, but its also important for you to allow yourself to be sad and recognise that it may be a few painful days but you WILL survive it.

Sending my best wishes

Hi Shelby,

I feel you, I may have done the same thing and I too haven’t got a reply. The problem is now we’ve contacted them we want them to reply just so we know they got the message.

One thing I was thinking about, because I regret messaging him last night and I am annoyed at myself because he updated a social media site I forgot even had a relationship status on it, so it kind of threw me.

Only because you have messaged though doesnt mean it’ll be a massive set-back, you could just be set-back for a day. I would carry on with your day as if you havent messaged your ex and if they message deal with it, if not just try to keep distracted.

– V