Menu

Loving Yourself When You’re Too Fat, Too Skinny, Too Tall, or Too Short

By

Woman at beach

“It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.” ~Henry David Thoreau

Living in NYC, I have seen some crazy and outrageous things. So, I shouldn’t have been surprised to see an ad in the subway that read, “Overcome Your Bikini Fears. Breast Augmentation Made In NY: $3,900,” or another ad from the same plastic surgery office that showed a picture of a woman looking sad, holding a pair of small tangerines in front of her breasts, and the same woman looking happy holding grapefruits, with the same caption, “Breast Augmentation Made in NY: $3,900.”

Still, I was surprised to see that this plastic surgery office would so overtly play into the insecurities of some women, basically implying, “You’re not good enough as you are; let me make you better.”

I understand that this office is simply trying to make a buck—a big buck, that is—but I couldn’t help but be aghast that this sort of message is allowed to be out there, to be seen on the train by many women, especially young women who might be wracked with a poor self-image already.

The truth is, I get it. I grew up wanting plastic surgery pretty much from third grade into my early twenties.

I was obsessed with looking in the mirror, poking around with my fingers trying to see the “better version” of my face, when it would be somehow reconstructed magically or surgically.

My nose was too flat, my eyes were not big enough or deep-set enough, and my jaw was not defined enough. To top it off, my legs were too short and my torso too long. I was not a girl on a magazine cover.

It broke my heart that I felt ugly and plain, and that I wanted something different from what I was. I actually felt beautiful sometimes, but when I looked at myself in the mirror, it wasn’t a vision of beauty, as I understood it.

The vision of beauty was the girl in a Hollywood movie. The vision of beauty was the girl in a commercial. The vision of beauty had features that I didn’t possess.

I kept wishing that my facial and body features would magically change as I grew up, or that I would one day be able to have plastic surgery. But deep down, I knew that I didn’t want to change my physical appearance in order to feel good about myself.

Over time, through the transformational work I did in the past decade, I was able to dissolve self-hatred and the desire for plastic surgery, and give myself total acceptance for who I am.

Now I feel good in my own skin. I’ve learned that the old adage is true: “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” I had appreciated it as a concept for a long time, but now I get it and know that it’s true.

I used to wish that my face and body would change somehow, but in truth, what needed to change was the way I saw myself and how I felt about myself.

My hope is that every person feels beautiful and good in his or her own skin.

Beauty is not a monopoly that only belongs to Miss Universe and the like. We are all beautiful in our own unique ways.

If you’re struggling with a poor self-image like I did, these tips may help.

1. Stop comparing.

My old boyfriend used to tell me that I was beautiful over and over like a broken record, though I didn’t believe him. He said this to me one time and it stayed with me: You can’t compare a rose to a lily; they’re both beautiful and they’re different.

I was constantly comparing myself to others, and I felt inferior because I didn’t measure up to the conventional ideas of beauty.

Since I stopped comparing, I realize that no part of my body is any less beautiful than someone else’s just because it’s shorter, longer, flatter, or bigger. When I stopped seeing with a specific set of beliefs and ideas, my “short” and “crooked” legs stopped being inferior.

You will always be too fat, too skinny, too tall, too this and that, when you compare yourself to others. You will always be “too something” when you play the comparison game. Know that you are exactly what you’re supposed to be—one of a kind and beautiful.

2. Ideas of beauty differ and change all the time.

If you looked into different cultures at different times, you would see that people had (and still have) different ideas of beauty. Some like curvy, some like skinny, some like tall, and some like short.

A lot of times (or maybe all the time), the definition of beauty as we know it is just the opinion of one person or group of people. It’s just so happened that this opinion got popularized.

If you don’t fit their definition of beauty, does it mean you’re any less beautiful? Absolutely not. Don’t let the ever-changing opinions of others affect how you feel about yourself.

Take Sarah Jessica Parker, for example. Some people think she’s the most gorgeous woman on the whole planet, and some quite the opposite. So, who’s right?

The better question to ask would be: Does it really matter? It really doesn’t matter what other people say or think. What matters is how you see yourself and how you feel about yourself.

3. Change the way you see.

Have you had experiences where people you thought were attractive became unattractive in your eyes, and people you thought were unattractive became attractive? I have many times.

When I was nineteen, I met a guy who I thought was “ugly” at first sight. Then I fell madly in love with him two weeks later, and he became the most handsome guy in the whole wide world to me.

Conversely, I met another guy a few years later that I thought had the most gorgeous face. A few interactions later, his face lost all its appeal to me, as I found him to be rather obnoxious.

I’ve had so many of these experiences over the years, and I’ve realized that beauty entails more than just “pretty” features. Whenever I find something lovely about a person, whether it’s their kindness, generosity, or thoughtfulness, their external features seem to start to sparkle with radiance. It’s not that the person changed—my perception did.

Dr. Wayne Dyer often said, “When you change the way you look at things, things you look at change.” I know this to be true because I often experience this in my life.

When I go on my nature walks, I try to observe things without preconceived notions or ideas. I sometimes stop and look at a fly perched on a leaf of a plant, and when I look at it without my preconceived notion (that it’s ugly or disgusting), I can see the exquisite beauty that it is.

Now, I know that you’re not a fly, but the same principle applies. When you remove the gunk—the gunk of beliefs and ideas—from your eyes, you start to see the magnificent beauty of who you are.

4. Change your thoughts.

Recently, when I was video recording myself, I felt rather disturbed by my appearance. I didn’t want to feel this way, but a barrage of negative self-talk dominated my head, and I wanted to just give up on the whole project.

I went for a walk, and when I came back—with a little more space within myself—I realized I had allowed myself to be taken over by the negative voices in my head. I had been totally immersed in them.

Time, space, and a little bit of deep breathing helped me step back from my own drowning thoughts. Then I was able to embrace the other voices that also existed in my head, which were more affirming and kind. And I continued with my project.

How sad it would be if I allowed those negative voices to stop me from offering what I have to give: my knowledge, ideas, voice, gifts, my love, and more. I would be withholding all of those things from people who might need and benefit from them.

If you find yourself in a similar situation where you’re feeling bad about how you look, take a moment to notice what you’re thinking. Step back and take a few deep breaths so you can observe your thoughts instead of being immersed in them.

And remember, you’re more than your skin. You, too, have so much to give (even if you feel like you don’t): your unique gifts, your experience, courage, ingenuity, creativity, and so much more. Don’t let the negative voices stop you from sharing what you have. The world (your neighbors, your friends, your grandma, or whatever your world may be) needs it.

5. Give yourself total acceptance.

I admit, even with all the realizations I’ve had, there are times when I look at myself in the mirror with dismay.

Some of the old, familiar thoughts crop up in my head, telling me I’m plain and ugly. The difference now is that I catch myself falling into my old belief—that looking a certain way makes me undesirable and unlovable.

For most of us, this is the core of the issue: We believe that we would not be desirable, that we would not be loved, if we didn’t look “good.”

The truth is, there will always be someone or some people who will find me undesirable or unlovable, but the world is also full of people who will feel the opposite.

Ultimately, the deeper truth I had to find within myself was this: If no one loves me, will I love myself?

The answer was yes, I will love myself. I will not forsake me. I will not take my love away from me.

That’s the truth I needed for myself, and what I truly needed in order to feel beautiful and good in my own skin.

In those moments when I don’t like what I see in the mirror, I make a choice. I make a choice to give myself total acceptance and love for all that I am: good, ugly, bad, and all.

And that’s how I love myself when I’m too short, too tall, too fat, and too skinny.

Woman at beach image via Shutterstock

Profile photo of Saya

About Saya

Saya is a life coach, certified yoga teacher (RYT-200), writer, and a creative juggler. She loves to help people feeling stuck dissolve blocks so that they can live their lives with purpose and joy. She is passionate about consciously creating a world that is more sustainable, in harmony, loving, and cooperative. You can download her ebook 5 Easy Ways to Go from Stress to Bliss on iamblissyoga.com.

See a typo, an inaccuracy, or something offensive? Please contact us so we can fix it!
Announcement: Tired of feeling stuck? Learn to let go of the past & create a life you love with the Tiny Buddha course!
  • Misha Shipman

    This was an absolutely inspiring and positive article about systematically acknowledging and embracing a regimen of self love, to dissolve the internalized self hatred so many of us struggle with. Bravo Saya for sharing your luminous wisdom and beautiful spirit!

  • Thank you! Thank you for your kind words, Misha! <3

  • Love this article. What a beautiful headline!

  • Misha Shipman

    You are soo welcome! Thank you for sharing your wisdom and changing my life and so many others! Please keep sharing, your unique voice and insight is desperately needed!

  • Awww, hearing you say that brings so much inspiration to continue sharing my voice. Thank you sincerely.

  • Thank you, Blon!

  • tt

    thanks so much for this, it was truly inspiring and came at the right time for me.

  • Oh, I’m so glad to hear! Thank you for sharing that 🙂

  • Thank you for this article, Saya! This is something I’ve been working on for years. It can take time to undo all the hurt and shame society heaps on us (and we in turn heap on ourselves) but it’s so worth it!

  • Saya, I cannot tell you how much I love this article. It is so liberating to read that everyone struggles with poor body image, yet at the same time it’s devastating. Why is our society so caught up in this beauty chasing rat race?!

    I am going through a phase of transition from anorexic to overweight from bingeing and now back to “normal” (I really hesitated using this word – what is normal anyway?). And I believe this article applies to it so perfectly. It is as simple as: if you don’t love yourself now, why would you love yourself when you’re 10 pounds lighter?! Still, it is a hard change to make mentally – and I think you mentioned the reason for it. Society makes us believe we have to look a certain way to be worthy. On the other hand, we ourselves have to focus on what we can actually change – and this is our behavior, our thoughts and our attitude towards ourselves.

    I really enjoyed reading your article Saya – a good one 🙂
    xx. M

  • It’s so true! It is definitely worth it, and big high 5 to you for working on this for years, my fellow traveler in this journey of self-love! Thank you, Stephanie!

  • Hi Emme, I’m so glad you resonated with this article. And thank you for sharing your own journey you had with poor self-image. Our voices expressing vulnerability really helps us to see the humanity in each other and let us be who we really are without the masks, and brings so much compassion and love for each other in us, too. And it’s so true about “if you don’t love yourself now, why would you love yourself when you’re 10 pounds lighter?!” Such a great point! Also very true about focusing on what we can change!

    Thank you so much for reading and commenting here with your thoughts. So appreciate it, Emme!

  • Anne

    Thank you! I just had a baby and have been really down about my postpartum body.

  • You’re so welcome! And congrats on the baby 🙂

  • Great post Saya. And I love the graphic. Just fantastic.

  • Thank you so much! <3

  • Joy

    I like your article Saya. Love our self would be so easy and so beautiful but often we think is easyer love other people without start loving ourself…thats no possible!!! If we start really love our self than all around will be a big uracan of love for everyone!!!bye Joy Italianmexico

  • TJ

    Good tips! I wish self love translated into love and acceptance from others as easily as people assure me it does. Oh well… at least I’ve stopped wasting time trying to change myself or other people’s opinions.

  • So true!!! Thank you, Joy!

  • I can assure you it actually does, TJ! It may not necessarily come from the people you want to come from but you will attract people who will love and accept you as you are, as you start to love and accept yourself. And receiving love and acceptance from those that don’t give you that, become less important to you as you become secure in your own love and acceptance. It’s a process but you will see! I’ve seen it in my own life 🙂 Thank you, TJ!

  • Nancy1114

    like Carlos responded I cant believe that a single mom can get paid $9540 in a few weeks on the computer . look at this web-site CLCK.RU/9vGvY

    e5rdew56r5t