It’s not medication, it’s a vitamin that you naturally get through sunlight! Go to the drugstore and get some! Or at least sunbathe!

Kendall,

I too was in a weird, dark place a few years ago, also filled with Kafka-esque existential horror.

I went to the doctor (I never go to the doc, this was out of constant nagging from the fam.) for a routine checkup.

The doc said, “You have the lowest Vitamin D levels I’ve seen in years!! Wow.” (You can get Vit. D from sunlight, and I was a walker, so it really was this weird deficiency).

I was put on a regime on Vitamin D, pills that you can get anywhere. A month later (it takes that long to build up to Normal levels) I felt GREAT!! Sometimes it’s not “You”, it’s your body saying, “Hey, a vitamin/hormone/mineral that I desperately need, even trace amounts, but don’t have, please!”

P.S. Low Vitamin D can bring on depression. I’m not saying yours is as “simple” as that, but at least see where you are physically first.

• This reply was modified 11 years, 5 months ago by Inky.

I don’t know the culture, but in Autobiography of a Yogi, Yogananda leaves for a few days to the mountains after his guru told him it was a bad idea. He has a bad time and comes back, chagrined, afraid Guru would be angry. Guru said, “I have no expectations for any of my students, and only want their happiness. How can I be angry?” For your guru to be angry is a pretty unenlightened response, in my opinion.

It’s hard to transition, or do anything beyond the everyday when your parents are sick. Give yourself a break. You don’t have to leave this red hot minute unless you’re thoroughly miserable.

My old neighbors were a nun and a Brother who found each other and left the church. But your challenge is leaving and not knowing what you’re running towards.

Give yourself a date. Like, I will leave Jan. 1st/ 2015. The Universe will conspire with you to show you your next step once you put your Intention out there.

Good Luck!

First of all, go on a Honeymoon. Two weeks alone with DH in a new setting.

Hey, I hear you about the soul consuming anger.

I had something like this, but to a much lesser extent. Along with the inevitable visits several times a year. Coupled with her trying to cast nagging doubts about me, her and/or DH.

What we did was literally, and unthinkably, get away during the holidays. Yes, the extended family exploded. Yes, hurt feelings were involved. But guess what? When they only see you once a year or every other year, a lot of the momentum is lost. These people move on to other victims.

I would also conveniently send DH on business trips or to his mother’s or sailing with the boys when I knew she would stop by.

Good Luck!

• This reply was modified 11 years, 5 months ago by Inky.

Jasmine, you know me so well!! LOL

I got your meaning ~ and I will try too!!! 🙂

Dear Matt,

The smiley faces were there to cut down on your aggression and to show that I’m not aggressive towards you. I don’t know, it seems everything I write to you is Wrong, somehow. You’re the only one on the forums that seems to think so. We all appreciate your wisdom, just please stop with the analogies.

Not a wolf in sheep’s clothing and not a sheep either!

Peace 2,

Inky