Yes some parents or sometimes even the prospective groom is adamant about the kundli matching.

“And to me this is very wrong.”

I suggest you to NOT hold this kind of belief system. Because, it can happen again in a marriage situation or in some other situation. I’m saying about the fact that if something did not happen as per my beliefs then what the other person did is wrong. If you do not break this belief system then another situation would come to do exactly that.

It requires deep compassion and understanding to break that belief.

Meaning – everyone is always right from their level of consciousness. Meaning – if you had the same kind of thoughts, feelings, emotions, upbringing, life situations, parents as those parents then probably you would have done the same. Its a long complicated thing.

“Trust me I have tried my very best to convince them or even him to at least listen and try find out a solution but they didn’t even give me a chance to explain myself.” 

This itself is a proof that you both are not destined together.

“I begged him almost everyday for two months”

I’m sure you know that true love does not require begging.

Do move on, if you are able to. And if not then please do post here and the forum is always able to assist.

tc.

• This reply was modified 5 years, 7 months ago by Ravi.

Hi falvia,

And I don’t know how to be close without both of us being authentic. I don’t know what to do, or if there is something that I can do.

Yes. You can do it energetically without even going in front of your mom.

Practice the half-smile exercise.

What is the Half smile technique:

Half-smile is a technique borrowed from Buddhism, and it’s quick, easy, and free. … Begin to smile with your lips, but stop just when you notice a small amount of tension at the corners of your mouth. If someone were watching you, he/she probably wouldn’t notice any change in your face. It’s a subtle, tiny smile.

The half-smile starts with relaxed lips which turn slightly upward and a loose jaw and the eyes are soft and relaxed. Then half-smile spreads as your scalp and neck relax and your shoulders drop.

HALF-SMILE WHILE CONTEMPLATING THE PERSON YOU HAVE ISSUES WITH
Sit quietly. Breathe and smile a half-smile. Imagine the image of the person who has caused you the most suffering. Regard the features you hate or despise the most or find the most repulsive. Try to examine what makes this person happy and what causes suffering in his or her daily life. Imagine the person’s perceptions; try to see what patterns of thought and reason this person follows. Examine what motivates this person’s hopes and actions. Finally, consider the person’s consciousness. See whether the person’s views and insights are open and free or not, and whether or not the person has been influenced by any prejudices, narrow-mindedness, hatred, or anger. See whether or not the person is master of himself or herself. Continue until you feel compassion rise in your heart like a well filling with fresh water, and your anger and resentment disappear. Practice this exercise many times on the same person.

Source.

You will notice changes in the situation. Either both of you will have cordial relationship over the phone or maybe in person when you visit your mom. Or you may not have the feelings that you have troubled relations with your mother or maybe you may forget everything, or everything would sound/look like normal, or maybe this thing does not bother you anymore.

Hi Ena,

though I am interested if anyone knows about a good book or free course regarding depression?

Maybe you can take a lookup at free resources on the below

i. EFT Tapping for Depression

ii. Donna Eden’s energy healing exercises for depression

Read about them and check out if it suits you.

Hi Deblina,

I want to ask this community that did I do something wrong? Any of this is my fault?

Have read your post…Answer is

NO (have written it in bold and caps).

Yes some parents are strict on kundli matching and the results. By the way have you ever checked that? You can also do it online. Was just curious to know the results as you said they turned back after the matching of kundlis. Maybe one is Manglik. Or maybe very low points needed to proceed further.

If you have found even a little bit of peace with your situation then you do not need to reply back with your results or to go and check the kundlis. Maybe you can just move on. Its good that you have paid back all the money so you are now clear of any financial debts and karmic debts too.

Hi Felix,

Hope you did take a look at my response on your other post about the issues “you think” you have about your height.

Regarding this post,

Really it comes to down everything that @Brandy said. Your fear of rejection, your insecurities about being short and doubts about your family – This girl is not going to fix you (or for you). You definitely will have to be happy with yourself, the way you are or if something is in your control start making changes in your life that will make you happy. Or accept the way about the things that are not in your control (like height). See my other post, you always have the control over your thoughts no matter how worse a situation is.

And yes even if she goes ahead and marries you there is no guarantee that you will be peaceful and in acceptance with yourself. And only if YOU are happy and joyful you will be able to extend that happiness towards her and towards your married life and then in the outside world.

Also @anita has given you two valid options and you have chosen the second one.

But your fears and insecurities are holding grip of you.

You are stuck and on the fence.

And you also do not want to be in “inaction” and lose the girl because of your shyness and other fears.

So then what to do?

“While” you follow the things mentioned in @Brandy’s post about improving yourself, and it is also in line with the action you chose from @anita’s post, I suggest you one more thing-

Do the smallest thing that you will be able to do to get in touch with her. That should be absolutely smallest step. This step (or whatever you do) should be so small that it doesn’t bother you. It should be like “Okay so what if I do this. That’s fine.” It could be just liking her photos. Or maybe just a “clap” smiley. Or maybe just writing one word on her post as “Good” or “Nice”. I will not know what that would be for you about which step will not make you anxious. You would know that. Maybe you are already hitting likes on her pics. Then take the next smallest step.

Your mind is currently thinking of a very large scenario about things that have not even happened. And that is what causes  negative emotions like fear, anxiety or shyness. And this happens to everyone of us.

Taking a very small step deceives our brains’ built-in resistance to new behaviors.

For now keep doing this and do not think of any long conversations or chit-chats that you had planned. But do not look or sound too clingy that you are responding to every single post of hers and liking every photo, etc. Clingyness is not love. Also learn to stay detached yet having the feeling of love. Also keep in mind that along side you are going to work on yourself based on the above post or anything else that you like and makes you happy.

You will soon become comfortable with those single word replies of yours and then its time to take the next smallest step. maybe two words now -“Very nice”.

This technique is the Kaizen way. It may be slow but the results are long term. You can apply this to any other issues too.

There are definite chances that even she may approach talking to you after seeing your responses. Or there may come a time that you are fine or just comfortable enough to start a conversation with her.

Now, because you have also mentioned that she is in another country, you won’t know what’s really going on in her life about things like whether she is seeing somebody or not. So if you think you are making slow progress and that she will slip away from you then in that case it becomes a “do-or-die” situation and you will have to forget everything and muster the courage to speak up to her.

This is all life is about my friend with all of its complications and insecurities, for every one of us

Keep posting your progress.

Thanks.

Hi Giminie,

I will not just “talk” you through your problems but will suggest you some practical tips and techniques.

I will suggest you to do some ‘alternate nostril breathing’, at other times of the day and especially when you have the panic and anxiety. You can lookup how that is done or let me know if you don’t find.

And when you wake up in the middle of the night, for a minute or two do this alternate nostril breathing. Then start counting the numbers 1 to 100 but backwards. Meaning – 100, 99, 98, ….and so on. You will experience that your numbers are going wrong or that you have forgotten which number you are at. If you remember the number, continue with that. If not then come back to 100 and start again. Let the counting draw your attention rather than anything else going on in the head. Do this till you reach the count of 1. Then again start from 100 to 1. You need to do this lying down on the bed as you may fall asleep and the next morning you may not even remember which number you were at :).

Whenever one has anxiety or panic it is almost always due the thoughts associated at that time. You may not be able to recognise the thoughts at that time, but they are there, they are racing. If you are able to recognise and “see” what’s going on in your mind at that time, that is great and you have done half your job, but if you aren’t then this breathing exercise and counting will help you cut through that.

Please do this for a couple of days and post back how it goes.

Regarding your other situation about moving to another place, moving out of the job, etc, you yourself will make a right decision at the right time (maybe when the lockdown is over), or you may even feel better and have no problems with what is going on.

Ravi.

Hi Maria,

I just want to be free of these feelings… What do I have to do?

You can sit right wherever  you are, may not have to even directly talk to your father and do the Ho’oponopono practice.

It’s a very simple practice and works very well in such situations.

You will see things will start to change. Nobody knows what change it will be, but it will be only for your greater good and only the Universe knows what it is.

That change could be anything – either your father will start talking to you properly and have loving feeling towards you, or you may not mind his behaviour towards you, or you may yourself start paying your rent, or you may not feel that heaviness during the conversations, or it could be anything.

Try that…and if you have trouble saying the words “I love you”, you can skip them.

You can lookup and read about what it is and how it is done.

Good luck.