Thats what i said yesterday and i felt better, but the emptiness and sorrow returned. Will take space and see how this turns out, i hope my feelings come back 🙁

I tried listening to any kind of music but it does nothing sadly. Mostly sad music ellicits sad feelings in me, nothing else.
Its kinda hard to do when the first thought in the morning is “am i feeling today?” 🙁

Perhaps my feelings where never there to begin with?

Yes if our interaction isn’t heavy with feelings-focused talk and we have fun i enjoy it, or when it’s some explicit talk (aka sexting) yeah i get very engaged. But the next day i feel like i have no feelings again. I am very torn if it was infatuation or maybe i lost interest because we took too much time to meet? But if that’s the case, why do i cry in the thought of losing her forever?

But it wasn’t like that in the beginning.It never got sexual, it was just deep and intellectual talks/bonding, the type i long for.
The thing is, i pulled back when the meeting was about to happen, so i think that means something.
Because i value her and i like her a lot as a person, her character is special and i wouldn’t like to lose her. I think of her voice, her humour, her craziness, all of those.

Hmm, could u elaborate on this?

I “feel” it in the cognitive sense, because i know i did before, i remember it, but now i can’t feel anything. But i admire/respect her and i do have many laughs with her, which is pretty much the only thing i can feel now, besides sorrow. Idk how you “feel” about someone that u value. As for the liking part, well, i find her pretty, smart and hot. It’s just that i can’t feel those things now.