I’m glad it’s a song 🎵 Thomas and you are relating to. Sometimes I’m slow 🐌 .

Confusion 😕 is not your destiny, Confused.

Maybe it will help you to slowly re-read and take notes of this longest, oldest tiny buddha thread ever, 45 page, longer than a decade thread.

🎵🤍✨️ Anita

Anita,

Sorry for the confusion. I was feeling moody and the songs, … well they help me get by the moment. I read about Confused situation and think back to my time of confusion. Many parallels. So the song came to me. Alone naturally. Not so much the visiting a tower to throw myself off. But, if you continue to listen to the song you find out that life itself isn’t fair. So the only thing one can do is to do their best to get by.

Dear Thomas

Gosh I just read your post gave me a jolt. I am sincerely hoping that Anita & AI are right that it is a quote from a song.
I have lost a granfather & an uncle to suicide, one of my motherlaws was a serial suicidee & its is only by a miracle that a close friend didnt loose their life during a psychotics episode a few years ago.
I hope you are safe & well
Roberta

Oh, my God, Thomas, I am hearing the song 🎵 right now, Alone Naturally, and I realized right away that I must have heard it THOUSADS of times, I grew up on it, for crying out loud.

And yet, I had no memory of the title, the singer or the lyrics, but the melody, the music- that’s so old in me, this particular song. I am nostalgic right now 😢 😢 😭

🎵 😭 🙏 Anita

Yes. ,Confused. July 20th is when Larry posted last. And what he expressed fits a lot with what you did. The similarities are indeed uncanny.

I do hope 🙏 you get “untangled”.

No one is worth you suffering being tangled.

🤍 🙌 Anita

Good morning, Confused:

You wrote yesterday: “I realized we’ve posted in 20+ pages, wow”- actually, we posted in 32 pages (#13-45), WOW.

About Harry, he first posted on June 27, 2024 (page 9). Re-reading his posts this morning, he sounds eerily similar to you, Confused. At times I thought I was reading your words.

There were many similarities, but I’ll mention just one in this post:

Harry: “I’ve never really looked into my past as a child as a reason for how I feel. To be honest with you I can’t name specific times I’ve felt that way. I was kicked out of my house a lot by my mum, I suppose my dad had left the house abruptly a couple times and stayed away. I was bullied pretty badly in school and tried to just brush it off, which worked at the time.”

Confused: “The relationship with my mother was very chaotic, violence and arguing constantly, throwing some awkward affection here and there, then rinse and repeat. I can’t remember if I was dissociating when I was a kid, definitely trying to escape in imaginary worlds and games though… How does my body relate this relationship to the one with my mother? I can’t comprehend that; I saw no similarities there.”

Neither Harry nor you, Confused, connected your respective childhoods to your emotional patterns in adulthood. Both of you minimized and dismissed the impact of your childhoods; neither of you saw it as relevant.

Neither one of you has processed his childhood wounds, including the chaotic history with your respective mothers.

I addressed this point to Harry back in the summer of 2024, and to you, in this thread (eerily, in the summer of 2025).

Anita to Confused: “Your childhood experience is not only relevant but extremely relevant to what you described. You mentioned a childhood of violence, chaos, unpredictable affection and emotional instability- This is the exact environment that creates disorganized attachment, hypervigilance, fear of abandonment and dissociation (emotional shutdown under stress) as a coping mechanism.”

🤍 Anita

Well, Confused, she showed no signs of violence, she is not similar to your mother. I understand this point 👉, and I also understand that a violent, unpredictable childhood experience leads to insecure attachment styles that explain what you’re experiencing.

🤍 Anita