“Serenity comes when you trade expectations for acceptance.” ~Unknown
Yesterday I felt frustrated.
The night before, I’d overheard my boyfriend telling a friend he’d thought I’d be in less pain at that point, a week after my surgery. Suddenly I felt disappointed in myself—that I should be healing more quickly, or somehow doing more.
Of course I know he didn’t intend for me to feel that way, especially since it was a conversation that didn’t involve me, but I created that meaning in my head, probably because I’d also expected that I’d feel better sooner.
I had a bad headache yesterday, and I was somewhat dehydrated, so I ended doing very little beyond listening to a healing meditation, watching TV, and sleeping—translation: I crossed nothing off my to-do list. And it’s getting pretty long.
So I started mining my situation for lessons, and here’s what I remembered:
We are more than we produce. Even if we feel we have a lot to do, sometimes doing nothing is the healthiest choice of all.
We owe it to ourselves to be patient with ourselves. Even if we feel we should be doing more, we’re doing the best we can.
We deserve to be kind to ourselves. Even if we accomplish great things in life, they won’t provide us with satisfaction if we don’t already have our own love and compassion.
We need to remember we have time. Even if we’re using this moment to recharge, we can trust that things will get done—when we’re in a better place to do them.
We have a choice to make in this moment. Even if we feel frustrated, or scared, or confused, we can choose to make peace with the present instead of fighting and resisting it.
We might not feel productive, or engaged, or purposeful, or connected. But this moment is a chance be present in our experience and embrace the lessons and possibilities of the here and now.
We can only grow from right where we stand, but first we have to accept it.
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