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HelcatParticipantYou might want to consider why you feel the need to insult and verbally abuse people that you disagree with while pretending that it’s compassion.
May 21, 2022 at 1:11 am in reply to: I am so scared of being hurt by others I have no one at all. #400877HelcatParticipant*Or was the trigger how she responded?
May 21, 2022 at 1:10 am in reply to: I am so scared of being hurt by others I have no one at all. #400876HelcatParticipantHi Lea
I’m sorry that experience made you feel so bad that you threw up and developed a headache. That tells me exactly how bad it was for you. These symptoms only occur under extreme stress.
It’s very good that you were able to practice self-care and knew exactly how to handle your panic attack. I’m glad that you are feeling a bit better now.
Do you think talking to someone from that time was a trigger for you?
A good rule for sharing intimate information with people is considering, do you trust them? If you trust them they are more likely to respond with empathy. I wouldn’t worry, it sounds like this person didn’t know how to respond to the situation. I’m sure it didn’t trouble the person and they will go about their day as normal.
HelcatParticipantHi everyone!
Had to take a short break from posting because it was a busy and stressful week!
Today’s topic is physical pain so I’m going to reflect on my experience of it.
Muscle tension is painful, yet I use muscle tension to suppress pain as it protects weak or painful areas.
From a physiological perspective pain is related to nerves. Nerve impulses are generated and travel up the spinal cord, to be interpreted by the brain.
Several things adversely affect pain sensitivity, muscle tension, lack of sleep, stomach issues, stress, menstruation etc.
Several things cause physical pain, inflammation, muscle weakness, structural issues, lack of activity, over exertion, cold etc.
When my health was so poor I couldn’t stand or walk I needed a reason to get out of bed. I just wanted to take care of my dogs. This was enough of a reason for me to try and push through the worst pain. Ironically, now my health is under better control I am more pain avoidant. I am afraid of the level of pain that I was in when I couldn’t walk.
It takes me at least a month for my pain levels to adjust to a new activity. It is difficult to face, considering that I will need to do this repeatedly for each new activity. I will have to find a way through this plateau!
Some additional unrelated thoughts. Just as we would manage a healthy diet by being mindful of what we eat. A lot of Buddhist literature encourages us to consider what we allow into our lives and how it affects us. Who we spend time with? What we spend our time doing? More thoughts on this tomorrow!
HelcatParticipantHi everyone!
Had to take a short break from posting because it was a busy and stressful week!
Today’s topic is physical pain so I’m going to reflect on my experience of it.
Muscle tension is painful, yet I use muscle tension to suppress pain as it protects weak or painful areas.
From a physiological perspective pain is related to nerves. Nerve impulses are generated and travel up the spinal cord, to be interpreted by the brain.
Several things adversely affect pain sensitivity, muscle tension, lack of sleep, stomach issues, stress, menstruation etc.
Several things cause physical pain, inflammation, muscle weakness, structural issues, lack of activity, over exertion, cold etc.
When my health was so poor I couldn’t stand or walk I needed a reason to get out of bed. I just wanted to take care of my dogs. This was enough of a reason for me to try and push through the worst pain. Ironically, now my health is under better control I am more pain avoidant. I am afraid of the level of pain that I was in when I couldn’t walk. It takes me at least a month for my pain levels to adjust to a new activity. It is difficult to face, considering that I will need to do this repeatedly for each new activity. I will have to find a way through this plateau!
Some additional unrelated thoughts. Just as we would manage a healthy diet by being mindful of what we eat. A lot of Buddhist literature encourages us to consider what we allow into our lives and how it affects us. Who we spend time with? What we spend our time doing? More thoughts on this tomorrow!
HelcatParticipantHi @Peter
I’m sorry that you were hurt so deeply by religion. I’m glad that you have found your way through that pain.
Not to worry at all! My idea of God has evolved too. Personally, I think organised religion which is very much a human construct is where the very human flaws creep in. Perhaps this is how we as a society have tried to make sense of it?I wonder can we even conceive of something so far outside the human experience?
I believe more generally, in a higher power. I believe that there is something bigger than ourselves.
Thank you for explaining your concept of G_d in more detail. It was beautiful! I am reminded of Buddha nature.
HelcatParticipantHi Deci
Clearly I’ve pushed some buttons. I’ll leave you in peace. It’s a shame that we couldn’t get along amicably. Good luck with your ruthless compassion!
HelcatParticipantHi Deci!
I hope you don’t mind me commenting. I know we have had philosophical differences in the past. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
There is an ancient taoist fable about a sheepherder boy who transcends the requirements of convention (maintenance of worldly concerns akin to duty), by changing the nature of his duty without violating the basis of what constitutes one’s natural relationship with creation.
I would like to learn more about the parable. Does it describe how he achieved these things?
I noticed that a lot of the Buddhist books I’m reading contain descriptions of terminology. that explain these concepts.
Would you be able to include descriptions of terminology for those that are unfamiliar with it? Or perhaps bold or italic key words in the future so we can Google them ourselves?
Being here and now without employing psychological patterns habitually differentiating before and after, self and other, is already the light turned around. The terminology is only words, not the reality. The work of self-refinement is the dissolution of the mental patterns veiling authentic presence.
This is something that I have been learning about and identifying in my own life. It is interesting identifying the thoughts that occur as a result of a psychological trigger. I hope to practice stepping back from them.
One’s partnership with creation is proven by seeing Change. One sees Change by not following its changes unawares. How difficult is that? How difficult is it to not follow thoughts unawares?
Would you say that what I shared above is related to what you shared in this quote?
Delusion and Reality are not different. The real knowledge of inconceivable reality is simply unified awareness as oneself without including or excluding the individual.
My understanding of delusion and reality Is that they are two parts of a whole. Personally, I like the word perspective. We all have our own unique perspectives and interpret the world through a lens of our previous experiences.
Sometimes language can cause misunderstandings as we all interpret it based on our own assumptions. Just as with book reports where we are asked to identify themes. We do this every day. I always hated book reports because I felt that the conclusions we draw from material might not have been intended by the author.
Perhaps reality is a combination of, how we interpret content, how everyone else interprets content and how the original author intended for it to be interpreted? What do you think?
Some people break down the idea of what makes up a human being as the ego and the watcher. Do you agree with this?
I think one difficulty is that sometimes people can attach to their circumstances. I know in the past I have identified with a mental health condition, past experiences or a physical health condition. I have been afraid of change. These are all ego.
It is hard to describe the rest though. Understanding that it is all fluid and subject to change? Having distance from the psychological triggers so they don’t drive decision making?
Thank you once again for sharing your thoughtful insights.
HelcatParticipantHi Mollie!
It is good to hear that you have found some techniques that help you! Thank you for sharing them. These tips are great advice and I’m sure they will be helpful to many people.
HelcatParticipantHi Lea!
That’s very kind of you to say! But I don’t think I’ve overcome it all. Even with some recovery there is still more to healing to do.
I would like to be able to study in a physical classroom one day. I would like to feel comfortable around people of any age and gender. I would like to make friends. I would like to develop confidence. I would like to work part-time. I would like to drive. I would like to physically recover more so I am able to take care of all of my responsibilities and experience less pain. I would like to be able to cope with stress well. I would like to reduce my anxiety even further.
On the plus side, I feel like my life is just beginning and I am hopeful.
HelcatParticipantHi HeartbeatCity!
You have a very engaging way of writing. You come across as quite a romantic soul.
I’m wondering how you feel about Alicia? Also would you like to talk about what happened with Amie?
HelcatParticipantHi Celeste!
I’m glad to hear that you have been taking very good care of your health after your surgery. You have a lot of good ideas about what to do next in your life.
I’m wondering what made you feel stuck in your initial post?
HelcatParticipantHi Lea!
I think these are some big issues prevalent within society. For a long time society has been inherently abusive. Women used to be possessions and denied the opportunity to vote. Slavery existed for a long time and physical abuse was widely accepted. We are all feeling the effects of centuries of abuse. Fortunately there have been some positive changes.
My story is that I was abused as a child. I got therapy, left home, went to college and got my first couple of jobs. As you know in university I was assaulted by another student. My ptsd kicked off and I shut myself away from the world.
I waited for therapy for 2 years. I tried and on the first day my therapist asked me to write about the assault as homework so I quit. After waiting another 2 years I was reassigned to the same therapist. I decided to give her another chance and she was extremely helpful. She apologised for pushing me too quickly too soon. I had schema therapy and prolonged exposure therapy under her care and withdrew from the anxiety medication because it was interfering with therapy.
Then I developed health issues. I was so ill that I couldn’t walk for 6 months. It has been painful and challenging slowly making progress to regain strength and stamina.
At the same time, I had to relearn how to function emotionally because I had been on some strong medication for 6 years. Without it I didn’t know how to relax. Needless to say, I had a breakdown.
Slowly, I started learning to better manage my health and anxiety. Adapting to my new lifestyle.
I met my future husband. I started volunteering to develop skills at jobs that would help me work with health issues. I started doing easy distance learning courses to build my confidence. Now I’m doing a bachelors remotely.
You’re right. These things do affect our lives for a long time. I’m not going to lie. For a time I did compare my life to people my own age. But perhaps it’s more appropriate to compare my life to people who have had similar struggles. For me, that helped me to be less self-critical, develop patience and empathy for myself.
HelcatParticipantHi Anita
I think that is practicing good self care at the moment. I hope that when you are feeling better you will finish reading it.
May 19, 2022 at 1:32 am in reply to: I am so scared of being hurt by others I have no one at all. #400667HelcatParticipantHi Lea!
You can do this because despite your anxiety you have done it time and time again and maintained excellent grades. The anxious thoughts are ultimately mean lies your mind is telling you.
Some people like to imagine those words being said in a silly voice by a small and or something that they don’t respect.
I would suggest starting with the least stressful item of school work.
Please consider all of the times you overcame your anxiety and ultimately succeeded. How did you achieve this before? I have faith that your same inner strength will help you once again.
You have all of the skills necessary to achieve this. It will not be easy or comfortable but nothing worth doing ever is.
You are going to become a talented vet!
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