Peppermint: Spent a good part of the day doing moving and office stuff (still fixing what was left behind), so didn’t get back too quickly. Ideally, I’d like to be out of the office before 6:00 PM. Due to the timing of some drug/alcohol testing programs at the jail, if I don’t get out before about 6:30 or so, best to stay until about 8:30. I am not well liked amongst that set, and have been hassled by a few of them. For the next ~3 months or so, will get dark very early, so no outside light for activities in the evening. Would like to keep work in the 50-55 hour range, and am trying to be more efficient at things.

Have my hunting gear ready to go. Got invited out by my boss’s husband today, but was moving stuff for a mutual acquaintance.
Surprising how expensive that stuff can be, yikes.

Anita, not exactly feeling much better, but figured that I probably should treat you folks with more respect.

Will type more later, on cellphone at office. At least I am listening to an organ transcription of the soundtrack to Conan the Barbarian 🙂

Peppermint, I don’t think that therapists are for lunatics.

The Western part of my state has been devoid of a lot of things for several years. The closest thing I can think of that we have in town is someone that I work with, who supposedly “fixes” addiction issues for defendants.

Closest town of any significance is ~120 miles away to the East and/or to the South (smaller than the one I live in). Closest town of any significance (depending on how you define significance) to the West is ~200-250 miles away. Closest town of significance to the North is ~140 miles away in Canada.

I think that the colleague was surprised. My time at the office has been up this week; hit 40 hours before this afternoon. Got assigned to help solve some problems, the previous person who was supposed to do so is the guy who is dating one of the women I had been interested in. Unsurprisingly, he was gone by about 5:30 every day this week.

Have given some serious thought to changing jobs.

Seaisland is correct in many regards. I do have a tendency to ignore suggestions, especially the more upset I am. Perhaps it ties in with the history of input being that I was wrong for doing what I was doing no matter what I was doing.

Kath is correct that I do tend to have a lot of resentment. A good part of that comes from winding up covering for other people while they are more interested in doing other things. Now, eight years later, I don’t have many relationships. Angry at myself for putting so much time/effort into stuff when it ultimately does not appear to matter.

Anita, was not feeling well today, digestive system issues. Supposed to help an acquaintance with moving… and got a call about office stuff.

Will type more later.

Anita, what I meant was that I did not miss the irony of the fact that I probably contributed to his ability to have a relationship with the woman I wanted to. Hurts to see her look at him the way she used to look at me. I got a file that he was supposed to handle plopped back on my desk as something he didn’t want to address.

Kath mentioned resentfulness. A big part of it is that after a while, it it gets old being the go-to guy all the time when various promises were made about spreading out workload. At first, it felt good being sought after; now I am seeing how much of my life got wasted while others were out doing what they wanted to.

Have started to take steps to improve the time in office issue. For the first time in a long time, I told folks that I didn’t have time to meet with them today.

There is one woman who does show interest in me. She is from a law enforcement family and does analytical chemistry.