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The loss of money wouldn’t sting so badly, except for I had just purchased a new rifle at the suggestion of law enforcement that came out to about $1,900.00. A nice piece of kit, but yeesh at the combination.
Was also looking at going on a trip, but wound up bailing on that idea, and now looking at something shorter just to get out of town. Perhaps I over-reacted in response to the money thing, who knows. Amusingly, the closest way to get “out-of-town” to any significant city is to go up to Canada. It’s also much cleaner… I miss how this State used to be when I moved up here.
Just not very good at being happy I guess. Have a history of depression. I don’t usually try new things anymore because stuff always seems to be a disappointment. People generally tend to be disappointments as well. Basically, most of that which exists seems to be disappointing. Kind of at a state of apathy.
XenopusTexParticipantHappiness is a concept that has been absent for a long time. The things that I used to at least somewhat enjoy, don’t seem to do much. Annoying things seem to happen more frequently. Everything seems to be more money/trouble than it is worth. My patience with people/things, has pretty much been worn out. Things that have been planned go to hell in a hand basket. People who should be reliable aren’t, and I have come to expect people to be wholly unreliable. Expenses pop up.
Long story short, no, I am not particularly happy. Still trying to figure out what to do with the family issue. It is simply not socially acceptable out here to more or less toss out, so that means if I want separation, I will have to be the one to move. Tired of having the constant prying into what I am doing, etc. just another expense and hassle that I really don’t need. You’d think there would be some respect, but no.
I am not even sure that there is such a thing as happiness anymore. I see folks who look to be happy, but I know that lots of things can be faked. People can put on good shows for others. Hysteria, happiness, sadness, etc. can all be faked to one degree or another depending on skill and how much effort one wants to put in. See that a lot for example with female defendants who get up in front of the court and cry to get sympathy. And, sadly the more happy/polite the person you are dealing with, the more likely it is that they are trying to screw you over.
Long story short, no, the income doesn’t make me happy. I don’t seem to be happy period.
XenopusTexParticipantThe mind is incredibly powerful and can conjure up images even without the help of hallucinogenic substances. The question is, what is real and what is the product of the mind.
XenopusTexParticipantShe lived in what amounted to a cesspool of humanity. Sorry, it is not politically correct to say, but it is the truth.
Not surprising that she would feel that way. Ultimately, she probably didn’t have much choice but to stay the course and continue what she was doing. The one thing about nuns/priests is that they don’t have that many externally marketable skills.
XenopusTexParticipantDo I believe that in the vastness of the universe, there are beings sufficiently advanced that they would appear as gods to us? Absolutely.
Do I believe in a single creator god? No.
Where did such an entity come from? If such an entity is all powerful, why would it take “days” to create the Earth?
If such an entity is all powerful, and created mankind in his image, why are we so biologically flawed? Why do we have no longer necessary vestigial structures such as the appendix? If such an entity is all powerful and is purportedly responsible for the creation of children, how do we get triploid and tetraploid zygotes/offspring?
Further, if such an entity damns people to hell who don’t confess the belief that the entity in their savior, what about those triploid/tetraploid “people” who will either die in utero or shortly thereafter?
There is also the issue of the purported commands to slaughter all enemies, livestock, etc. in god’s name. Doesn’t that sound familiar these days?
We also have the issue of the bible being a product of humankind, with all of the fallibilities that come with it. One that I found was easy to spot is the statement about not eating rabbits because they, among other things, chew their cud. Rabbits can’t, but look like they do because they are always making chewing motions. One would think that the creator of rabbits would know this.
XenopusTexParticipantUnconditional love is an odd thing. It can leave you open to all sorts of abuse and other issues. IMO, it is mostly a construct of society and blind idealism.
XenopusTexParticipantMay have been better to have lost the child in that way than to have carried it to term and then discovered problems.
As far as why did death come to somebody so innocent, death comes for all of us. From the moment the “winning” spermatozoa punches through the other layers of the egg, death comes for that zygote. While the Time and place may be unknown, that zygote will, eventually, die. Guilt, innocence, etc. have nothing to do with it.
You will never get an answer as to why, at least not in a metaphysical sense. People come up with a lot to stories to make themselves feel better, but there is no why.
XenopusTexParticipantCan’t is an interesting choice of words. Unless you are dead, or similarly impaired, can’t probably isn’t a viable option in terms of dating.
While I haven’t done 40 dates, feel your pain. Usually don’t get to a third date. Financially and employment sound, I just don’t flash it around. I prefer long term planning to instant gratification, so my stuff isn’t really flashy.
I have a melancholic personality which probably doesn’t help.
Think about how you approach things and how you wind up looking.
XenopusTexParticipantIn the grand scheme of things, does it matter whether she wanted them destroyed or not? Would it be different if the material was say from an inventor who had come up with life saving technology but wanted it destroyed on death?
September 9, 2016 at 10:47 pm in reply to: stressed out and not being able to fully adapt to positivity #114803XenopusTexParticipantPositivity is a strange thing. I find that there is sometimes a bit of a disconnect between seeing what is going on at times and feeling positive. You find yourself asking why do you feel positive in light of “x.”
XenopusTexParticipantErgh at IHOP. Greasy spoon.
Will let you in on a secret: sometimes the guys/gals who make it look like the have money don’t.
Back when I lived in Florida, observed several different types of wealthy or pseudo-wealthy people. There were the ones who drove the newest fastest cars around, etc: and those who you really couldn’t tell they had money unless you knew them. Guess what, the ones in the first camp didn’t always have the money to back up the show.
Knew a man really well down there who honestly looked like a bum; always wore a white cotton undershirt and what appeared to be swimming trunks. Probably bought everything at Wal-mart from the sale isle. However, he had rediculous amounts of money, as in not asking about item cost levels. If you had not seen him get out of his car, a Mercedes CL 600, you’d probably have no idea that he had money.
Conversely, have met folks who spend way more than they make, and it often time catches up with them. They do it to impress, to feel better about themselves short term, etc.
Simply stated, the outward display of money may mean nothing.
There is also no reason to be intimidated by money. The presence or absence of money doesn’t make the person a jerk. For all practical purposes, there is always going to be somebody richer than you are and somebody poorer than you are. And, at the end of the day, both Bill Gates and a pauper meet the same end.
XenopusTexParticipantI am sorry for not keeping up with this better. Got hit with some massive projects. Used to have time to better examine these issues, now finding that I have less and less time. Haven’t gotten out any last couple of weeks. Trying not to fall back into work being 100% of everything, while getting tasked with more stuff.
Have realized how wrong I have been about relationships, etc. getting hit with massive amounts of anxiety and depression over the whole thing.
XenopusTexParticipantWill see how the trip turns out.
XenopusTexParticipantI usually prefer the high-end model, not the economy one :).
Jealousy really doesn’t help anybody. I know that it can be challenging, but really, what does it gain you?
Why let somebody else’s wealth bother you? If they aren’t complete jerks about things, who cares. I have noticed that there is a fair distribution of jerks at all income levels, with probably more at the bottom levels.
Seriously, the only thing that jealousy does is hurt you. Do you want to believe that similar things are possible for you, or do you want to look upon such things with scorn and disdain?
Also, do you want to have folks realize how jealous you feel toward them? I assure you that is not the way to impress folks.
XenopusTexParticipantWow, been a while. You are right, do have to put in the time. Been getting swamped and trying to dig out. Have two really complex cases queued up before I leave town for a bit.
So far,0 for 2 on the relationship front.
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