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I am numb, zero feelings, not even sadness.. i think it’s the meds because they say it numbs you. I really dont like it and i told the doctor about it but he said that i have to take it for a while and the symptoms will subside.

I saw it and i dont know why it’s happening, i never got to see your posts.

This is what i’ve read too, now im trying to accept it since there is nothing else i can do but i really hope for it..

Yeah but idk if they are running now.. I guess they are because i cant stop thinking about the situation?
Maybe, i have to try this and see where it leads, but i think maybe i need something else to wake my feelings up.

He mentioned things that i experienced (also when i was a child) like he knew what i was talking about.

I am not very optimistic with my situation but we’ll see. Thank you very much 🙂

Hello anita

He did ask me if i hear voices or if i feel like people are talking about me which i told him no. I did have disorganized thinking the first week that happened, i couldn’t easily form sentences and i would forget words/things within seconds.I had some of the number 4 u said and all of number 5. Also, foggy thoughts and feeling mentally overloaded, sometimes lights would feel too bright indeed. Idk how we mean the world is “off” so idk about that.
I did have/still do C/D/E/F.

It seemed weird to me too, but maybe he has experience? I have no idea at this point, but i read that this med he prescribed me with is making you chill/not anxious so your mind can ease off the delirium thoughts. It made me sleepy and heavy when i woke up, it was like my mouth was so heavy that i couldn’t talk easily, but i have no compulsive/delirium thoughts so idk if the meds are correct. I still am anhedonic and numb

I don’t just recognize her positives, she has negatives as well, but she did show me love and her intentions were pure and i liked it very much, was one of the things that made me like her so much.

Well, i returned from the doctor and he diagnosed me within 20 minutes, i was shocked. I told him 3-4 things and he described my situation (and my past behaviors) spot on. He said i went through dissociation/DP/DR and right now i dont just ruminate, i am in the middle of a psychotic episode, not OCD/rOCD, its a delirium of sorts and if i leave it untreated it will only get worse, ending things with the girl won’t help because it’s not the cause, it will just attach on something else. He said it’s good that i spotted it early (because it’s in the beginning stages, but he thinks i’ve always been prone to that). I also told him i relate to many ADHD symptoms and he said that ADHD is in fact kinda in the bipolar spectrum. From what i described to him, he said that i was manic (euphoric) when things were good and then it came to a crash suddenly (the morning i woke up and felt “off”, like i didn’t know who i was talking to), which is now an emotional flatline phase and it i don’t treat it with meds it will only get worse. He also said that talk therapy alone will only make it worse because this has not much to do with attachment styles and traumas the way i was looking at it. He prescribed me 10mg of Lapozan Oro every night and he guaranteed that i will see difference immediately and i will find my feelings again (i’m starting tonight but im kinda anxious). He believes i’m composed and smart so i’m gonna get through this quite quickly. He also suggested that the other psychotherapist isn’t helping because she is focusing on the wrong things (which i was feeling too, since she was focusing on relationship and my issue is general) and she’s too young (she is 26) to be experienced in psychotic situations and maybe i don’t need her. He said i really need meds and perhaps some therapy once or twice a month.

Any of it sounds familiar, anita? 🙂

I think u are right, it might be rocd, i got all the symptoms but i dont wanna self-diagnose. Ive also read about zoloft helping people, i will phone a psychiatrist tomorrow, but it’s not bad at nights idk why (probably dopamine spikes a bit). So idk, it comes and goes but when it comes it definitely does.

Yes exactly, i am numb to the present and i cry for what was, maybe that robs me of joy.

Hello anita, i’m the same as before, just emptier and more tired.. I’ve distanced myself from too much searching (even tho i still use AI)

I hope u’re ok too 🙂