Hahaha so u mean let them be and pay no attention to them? Rather act on logic/values ?

Would that be it? Me in love? Idk really i am so confused 🙁

Yeah with her in the back riding into the sunset 🙂

I live in Greece, she’s from Cyprus but currently living in Germany for studies.

Haha yeah it was like a drug but how i came off of it was pretty abrupt. For example, RIGHT NOW (5:07) i don’t feel love or that i even want her. But an hour ago i did. How can this happen? 🙁

I like your analogies, anita 🙂

You know it’s very strange, i’ve never experienced such thing before.

It goes like this: I feel hollow, but then i feel sparks for her, then they go away and the doubts start. Then sometimes i cry and it goes away in minutes and i feel like “why did i even cry? What was the issue?”. An hour ago i would watch a youtube video with a motorcycle on beautiful sceneries and i would fantasize about me and her doing that (it’s one of our future plans) and i felt something urgent, i think it was fear. Could it be fear of how much she means to me?

The thing is, i feel relaxed? Or am i not? I dont know really, i feel hollow. The only feelings i get are some sparks here and there for the girl and sadness/ kind of panic in the thought of losing her. Yesterday i was thinking of her and i cried, felt as if she has “tear into me” 🙂

Hey anita

Its 10 days for me and i think i don’t want it anymore 🙁 . It turns me into a zombie, no libido and zero dopamine, completely turned my reward system off. It did give me some clarity on the thoughts though, but i don’t like how it works on the other domains. Life without feelings just sucks!

I think my issue requires psychotherapy rather than chemicals. Because before all this i had no issues with my feelings or any chemical imbalance ever. I wanna try and focus on that part only.

Hey anita

Yes exactly, my feelings/hopes all come and go and it’s weird, never had it happen to me again.

Haha u are paying attention to details i would have never even seen. AI is right, i did panic and analyze/pressure/cried for months. Even the new therapist said that it’s like 2 forces fighting to come out on top (in my head) and that’s what makes me numb. But there are times in the day that i get feelings here and there now. Im trying to work on not pressuring myself but it’s hard. When i do tho, i mentally ‘reward’ myself and i get some “feelings” as a “treat”. Weird way i know haha

Hey guys

Yes that’s correct anita, he did give me escitalopram that treats depression and could calm my overthinking down a bit. I am still on day 8. I returned from the new therapist appointment and tbh she seemed very nice, like she can understand what i’m telling her without much difficulty. I am hopeful i can help myself now yes 🙂

I like your reference thomas. I think i wanna stick to the plan of trying and letting my feelings come back instead of chasing intense infatuation all the time.