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  • in reply to: try to stay positive, but things keep going wrong #236575
    Peter
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    if I go through life always trying to do the right thing, why do I keep getting all this stuff back?

    I’ve always struggled with the idea behind the theology of reward and punishment which as you ask is a belief that if I do all the ‘right things’ obey all the rules I will be rewarded. Such notions do not exist in nature where the rain falls on the “good”  and the “bad”.

    Then there is the idea of “the Secret” where like attracts like, so if I’m positive, positive things will happen to me. The rub being that I must to my very core be “positive” which requires that I do the work to “”Know my Self” which requires embracing the negative and the positive within our selves. Misunderstood  we end up putting on the face of positively pretending all is well when we are hurting.

    Or Karma mistakenly  associated with Justice. Good things must happen to good people bad things to bad people as that only fair. If I desire that “karma” will punish those that have harmed me… what karma am I putting into play?

    I think it should be enough to do what is right because you feel it is right and that that is who you are. There are no mistakes other then those we don’t learn from. Learn better, do better what more can you ask of yourself?

    Positivity is great however if your suppressing your feelings in order to do so that is not positivity.

    One day the farmer’s horse ran away. His neighbor hears of his bad news and comes over to commiserate.
    “I hear that you lost your horse. That is bad news and bad luck.” “Well, who knows?” said the farmer, “Maybe it is and maybe it isn’t.”

    Well, the next day the farmer’s horse returns to his stable, but it has brought along a drove of wild horses
    it has befriended and who make themselves at home. The neighbor across the way can’t believe what he hears about his friend. He decides to come over and congratulate him. “This is such goodness,” he says. “Well, who knows,” said the farmer, “Maybe it is and maybe it isn’t.”

    The next day the farmer’s son decided to ride one of the new wild horses, to break it in. As luck would have it, the son was thrown from the horse and broke his leg. Of course, upon hearing this sad news, their neighbor came over to offer condolences. “This is such sad thing,” he said. “Your son has broken his leg. This is bad news.” “Well, who knows,” said the farmer. “Maybe it is and maybe it isn’t.”

    On the following day soldiers came by commandeering and army. They took sons from most of the surrounding farms, but because the farmer’s son had a broken leg, he could not go and was spared. And well, maybe it was good news and maybe it wasn’t. Who knows what is good and what is not.

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    in reply to: I need a game plan #236347
    Peter
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    I’m tired of passively sitting by waiting for something to happen. I want to go out there and *make* it happen

    Hi Alia

    I definitely relate. Loosing a job can really do a number on our sense of self. I’ve heard that most people can expect to have three or more such transitions in a life time. I’m on my fourth as it concerns work only one of which I initiated.

    Reading your post the above line caught my eye. There is a art to “passively wait” that is very active. In the practice of zazen one sits, seemingly doing nothing, while observing ones flow of thoughts. The intention is not to have no thoughts but avoiding attaching to the thoughts and in this why allow them to flow.

    When we point  our consciousness at a thought, memory, fear… and attach to it we crate a continuous line of associated thoughts, memories, fear usually leading down the rabbit hole, anxiety, depression…  As we learn not to attach our consciousness/focus to our thoughts and allow them to flow our mind “quiets” allowing us to see more clearly.  This Zen, doing by not doing, requires eyes wide open and engaging in life as it shows up.

    Intuitively you know what you need to do. To get out there and “make” something happen. In other words engage in life as it shows up while at the same time “sitting” without attaching focus to your thoughts, fears…. in this way you will be better able to respond spontaneously to what shows up and in this way your path will become clear.

     

    in reply to: I'm Lost #236171
    Peter
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    Paul

    help me find a meaning and purpose to my life

    Which come first the chicken or the egg, the fever or the cold, the depression or search for meaning?

    It kind of ironic however its possible that it is the search for meaning and purpose is feeding into your depression instead of engaging you to life

    The issue with meaning and purpose is that people think they know what they want when they use those words. The problem is that the search itself can be the very thing keeping us from experiencing the very thing we are searching for.

    Meaning and Purpose do not exist in the natural world. Not in the way that we tend to think about those words. A flowers purpose and meaning be a flower. Growing is not the meaning or purpose, being is, the flower itself, as it is, is purpose and meaning. In becoming the flower gives meaning to Life, Life does not give meaning to the flower. And that is a big difference of perspective.

    You, as you are, all your struggles and accomplishments give Life meaning and purpose. You are meaning and purpose. All that you do and are is done with purpose and meaning even taking out the garbage.

    Reading your post, I don’t think the search of meaning and purpose is troubling you as much as being lonely and in a kind of rut. The experience of meaning and purpose are often tied to the experience of being in relation to others.  When we are witnessed by others it is more likely (easier) that we can accept ourselves as meaning and purpose.

    My Advice for what its worth, is to let go of your “search” for meaning and instead engage in Life as it presents it self to you. Opportunities to engage with others will present themselves to you. Say Yes

     

    in reply to: How do I stop blaming myself for not being more successful #235833
    Peter
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    How do I stop blaming myself for not being more successful

    Take time to detach yourself from the need to measure being successful and judging yourself.  Its likely your definition of success hasn’t been fully made conscious and as a result is some general idea you will never live up to.

    If you have goals work toward them. If you struggle adjust. As long as your learning and engaged in life your successful. This ‘blaming’ will only help you if your doing it to learn how you might do/be better other wise its just a excuse to keep you stuck

     

    in reply to: My mom dreamed my ex #235375
    Peter
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    In a dream, the dreamer is the creator, as such everything in the dreams, object and subject is the dreamer. At this level of consciousness the dreamer is both object and subject (the second vibration of Om)

    In other words the dream is about your mother, not you and not your ex. If there is meaning in the dream your mother would have to dig into it.

    in reply to: How can I define myself. #235367
    Peter
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    how do I define myself without what I am and my possessions?

    You are not the shirt you put on, you are not your pants, socks, underwear… There are many reasons that you dress yourself in the mourning. Perhaps you notice that its cold outside so you put on a coat. The coat serves a purpose but you are not the coat, you are not the cold either.

    Language is tricky. when we speak of experiences we differentiate experiences using words like, me, mine, our, I…. We forget that words are symbols that point towards the experiences. I see a tree,  the word tree is not a tree. What am I look at now, the word tree or tree in the window? What is the difference? The word I is not ‘I’

    If there is no “I” in this universe, what can i call my own,what do I hold to be grateful of?

    Life, you are grateful of life… As it is! the darkness and the light.

     

    in reply to: Do not know what makes me happy #235179
    Peter
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    Dear Udayachandru:

    A search for Happiness is a sure way never to find it. The problem is that such a search tends to require us to ‘measure’ each moment and we suck at measuring our experiences. One we tend to focus on the negative. For example during a day four events might stand out, one we measure as bad and 2 measure as  Good and one measured as Great. Then when it comes to the question of am I happy we tend to focus on the bad event and so we measure ourselves unhappy or numb.

    You might also find nothing ends the experience of being happy quicker then labeling it.  Oh look at me I’m happy,,, dang it where did it go, why can’t I hold on to the moment, how can I re-create it again… why am I so unhappy….

    I assume as your on a Buddhist site, even though a tiny one 🙂 , that your willing to engage in practice. This practice might include noticing your attached to this idea of happiness, notice and then detach your ego consciousness from it. In this way you may learn to enter into the flow of life and spontaneity. I think you will discover that more often then not you will discover moments in which you are surprised by joy, grateful for the moment as you enter into the next.

     

    in reply to: A Quick Introduction and Small Favor #234801
    Peter
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    Sorry I was abrupt and didn’t have time to address the questions. To be candied I think most people have a bad relationship to the words like Purpose, meaning, happiness, forgiveness… even love.  We think we know what these things are and that they can be measured, touched, held, grasped… Because of this for many people words like purpose, meaning end up creating dissatisfaction with Life and more often then not when we name this something purpose and measure it we lose it.

    I like what Campbel has to say on the matter of purpose

    “We’re so engaged in doing things to achieve purposes of outer value that we forget the inner value, the rapture that is associated with being alive, is what it is all about.” ― Joseph Campbel

    “People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life (what is my purpose) . I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” ― Joseph Campbell

    “Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning (purpose) and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer.” ― Joseph Campbell

    You are already the answer! everything you do or don’t do is purpose and meaning

    in reply to: A Quick Introduction and Small Favor #234583
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Tara

    With regrades to the question:  What do you think would be the most helpful as you are learning about being mindful and actively seeking your life’s purpose? And How could I be the best instructor possible?

    Let go of this idea of Purpose which is completely subjective and honorably misunderstood.

     

     

    in reply to: I am always the bad guy with my mom #234501
    Peter
    Participant

    Your concerns and feelings are valid and you (and your family ) need to respect that.

    You’re in a difficult situation which will require honest conversations. Unfortunately, as you noted a few times you don’t feel safe having those conversations. Some of the necessary steps in engaging in a Crucial Conversations (recommend that book) is to be honest with your self and your needs. That requires a lot of skill so my recommendation is to find a therapist or some such person that can help you and your family address these issues.

    A 7-step primer on managing crucial conversations (Crucial Conversations: Tools for Talking When Stakes are High’ by Kerry Patterson)

    1. Start with heart. Ask yourself what you really want and what’s at stake.

    2. Learn to look. Always be asking yourself whether the conversation is defensive or a dialogue. If you or the other party strays into defensiveness, simply say “I think we’ve moved away from dialogue” or “I’m sorry, I’ve been trying to force my ideas on you.”

    3. Make it safe. Another way to deal with defensiveness in difficult conversations is to create a comfortable situation by apologizing, asking a question that shows interest in others’ views or even taking a time out.

    4. Master your story. Focus on what happened that made you feel a certain way. Think through your emotions and then choose the appropriate way to respond.

    5. State your path. Share your facts and conclusions so that the other party can see where you are coming from.

    6. Explore others’ paths. Find out what the other person is thinking. Make sure that you understand each other and look for areas of agreement.

    7. Move to action. Come to a consensus about what will happen. Document who will do what by when and settle on a way to follow up.

    in reply to: Ex angry because I don’t want to be friends #234401
    Peter
    Participant

    He has a new partner, a good life. Why does he insists on being friends?

    Its possible that at a sub-conscious level your a safety net and or its a power thing. (I think its a power thing) Regardless he isn’t respecting your needs so no your not being selfish… he is. I suspect your angry because deep down you know this – its him… not you, no matter what he tells you.

    Some doors are best left closed. If you keep It open, even just a crack he’s is going to try to open it.

     

    in reply to: From a parent's point of view #234399
    Peter
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    All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair. ― Mitch Albom

    Do everything right, do everything wrong, regardless which, some children will thrive and some falter.

    One of the tasks of individuation is coming to terms with the mother/father complex.  It is true indeed that our relationship to our parents tends to be complex. Anyway, as we become adults we must learn to nurture and discipline ourselves, essentially become our own ‘mother’ and ‘father’. This tend to happen by detaching the mother and father archetypes from our parents. And we do this by recognizing our parents as individuals with their own needs, fears, hopes, failings…  By learning to relate to our parents as people and not *only* as mother and father (just as we are not *only* son/daughter) we open the way to reconnect to the archetype/energy of mother/father within ourselves.

    in reply to: Why am I so shallow and uncaring? #233057
    Peter
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    One of the purposes of relationships is to heal our past so we tend to be attracted to partners that will trigger our “past” hurts hoping that because the love us they will be able to react/respond in such away to change our expectation of being hurt.  This more often then not happens subconsciously. The goal then is to make the process as conscious as possible

    For example, if you have abandonment and trust issues because your father left you or some such and subconsciously you blame yourself for it you will ‘test’ your partner in that regard. Creating scenes to push your partner away with the subconscious expectation that he will leave you, (like everyone leaves you because your such a bad person…) but hope that your partner won’t leave and in this way heal your past. Unfortunately, we tend to replay the scene until we either we get it or our partner, for there own health leaves. Of course, you might pick a partner who issue is sticking around in unhealthy relationships so leaving would be the healing thing to do… but more likely you would be stuck in a codependent relationship where you are always pushing your partner away and your partner staying no matter what, and no one is happy or learns anything.

    The way out of these tangled webs is ‘To know thy Self”, “Master your stories”, “Wake to your authentic self”….. Pick any wisdom tradition and the words and practices they suggest may be different but point to the same thing. Only by noticing when your setting up a scene in your story to play out and understanding why your doing it will you stop.

    in reply to: GUILT AND PAIN AFTER MOTHERS DEATH #227795
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Nichole:

    Sorry for your loss and that you experience with your mother was so complicated. Its understandable that your having issues coming to terms with all the emotions and contradictions of the relationship. (Role reversals and the like)

    When it comes our relationship to our mothers and fathers its indeed complex. Jung felt that one of the tasks of individuation and becoming an adult is to come to terms with the Mother/Father Complex. Often this is forced on us when we lose a parent.

    The task is to take ownership of our ability to nurture and protect ourselves – in a symbolic way become our own mother and father. The difficulty is that our ability to nurture and protect ourselves has been greatly influenced by our relationship to our mother and father and sometimes we can’t separate the experience from our own abilities nurture and protect ourselves.

    We take ownership by becoming conscious of our experience of our mother and our inner mother – Symbolically if we may have to overcome the ‘evil step mother’ the problem of overcoming the negative self judgment and internal dialog we might have. But even the To Good Mother must be dealt with as in this case we may have to over come a tendency to be overly trusting, naïve or the expectation that others will always nurture and take care of us.

    The book ‘The Wild’ by Cheryl Strayed is a good example of coming to terms with the mother complex. Cheryl life spirals out of control when her to good mother (her idealization of her mother) died. With the loss of her mother Cheryl loss the ability to nurture herself in a positive way. It was only after Cheryl was able to see her mother as an individual, the good the bad and the ugly and not only “Mother” that she was able to connect to the positive inner mother and begin to be able to nurture herself.

    Don’t be to hard on yourself as you work you way through this experience.

     

    in reply to: The Sheer Bullshittery of Spirituality #227665
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Tannhouser

    I don’t know anything about the statistics between depression, spirituality and atheism however there is indeed a lot of nonsense when it comes to talk about G_d, Religion, spiritually, humanism, even atheism… there is a lot of nonsense in the world.

    Their is a fable, sorry can’t remember the details only that the lesson was to be careful about the questions you ask. There are some questions better left not being asked as once they are asked you can often find yourself falling down a “rabbit hole”

    Good for you for understanding what helps and does not help you.

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