Dear Seaturtle:

“I miss you both and wish there was a way I could text you guys more frequently with less depth“- at one point I offered you to communicate with me privately (email, phone), but you rejected my offer, saying maybe at another time.

I hope you find the time to respond further. Hope you are well.

anita

Dear David:

It’s good to read that you feel  really happy and very excited and enthusiastic!

(I am adding the boldface to the following): “We both agreed that the love had never gone but I have to admit it made it so hard for her to love me when I had no love for myself at the time”-

– Both love and respect are crucial in a marriage. Love fosters a deep emotional bond and connection between partners, creating a sense of belonging and intimacy. It involves caring for each other’s well-being and supporting one another through life’s challenges.

Respect ensures that both partners feel valued and treated as equals, which is fundamental for a healthy relationship. It builds trust and a sense of safety, as both partners honor each other. Respectful communication helps in resolving conflicts constructively, without belittling or hurting each other.

In essence, love without respect can lead to a relationship where one or both partners feel undervalued and disrespected. Conversely, respect without love can make the relationship feel cold and distant. Ideally, a strong marriage should have a balance of both love and respect, as they complement and reinforce each other.

I am looking forward to your next update, Dave. Wishing you and your family well!

anita

Dear Arie:

A short walk on memory lane: the first time we communicated was in your first thread, on Feb 16, 2022, and the last time was on Aug 2, 2024. I think that the first time you mentioned your two sons was on Jan 5, 2023: “My son ended up in the hospital but is doing well now.  He lives with his dad and brother.  They are both older and in college“.

June 4, 2023 (9 months into your current, 2nd marriage): “I am planning on a second vacation with my 2 sons from my previous marriage. My sons are older. College age.  They absolutely love my husband and he loves them“.

May 21, 2024:  “My husband and I divorced 3 years ago.  I am now re-married and my ex husband is re-married also“, Nov 10, 2024:

June 29, 2024: ” My sister n law invited me and my 2 grown boys who are 20 and 24 over to swim and to have a cook out a week ago… I had arrived with my youngest son and my oldest arrived a little later… Her sister’s bf started to be very obnoxious and loud.  Lots of profanity… He directed that conversation to my youngest son who is 20… My son can’t stand this guy at all. ..My son mumbled f-you to the bf several times.   I had told my son to be quiet, but he doesn’t care.  He is like me in so many ways… My oldest son and youngest son had left because they had plans with their friends later on that day… For someone to tell me and my kids to f off, that’s telling my whole family to f off and I will never in my life forgive someone like that“.

My understanding: you have two boys from a long-term marriage (more than 20 years), divorced in 2020, and remarried in Sept 2023. You live with your current husband, and your two adult sons live/ lived with their father and his live- in fiancée. You are involved in their lives and seems like you are closer to your younger son (20) who takes after you standing up to offending people, as he took your side during that pool party. The two of you are protective of each other.

And now, to your current thread, which is about your younger son: when you got divorced from his father (2020), he “had a hard time dealing with the divorce to the point where he needed therapy. He even had thoughts of suicide“. You and his father helped him through that difficult time, and he adjusted to the divorce. At first, he lived with his father (and from one point on, with his father’s fiancée as well), and older brother, and currently, he lives in a dorm he shares with roommates while attending college.

“He and I are very close. Every week I take him to dinner and we  talk about school and then go visit my parents or go do some shopping.  He is very open about everything.  He is also the type where he takes no crap from anyone and will tell you how it is. Two days ago… He said ‘mom…I will just tell you. I am bi…  I think I like guys more. I didn’t get upset or angry at him.  I said… awe honey… its ok.  I just want you to be happy…. I dropped him off at his dorm and hugged him and told him I am always here for him and that I love him no matter what because he is my son. I came home and told my husband.  I broke down and sobbed. ..It just hurts because his dad and I did not bring him up like this to be bi.  I keep thinking that maybe this is just a phase since he is in college… Deep down I keep hoping that this is a phase, but I don’t know. I just feel so sad and I am struggling to come to terms with this.“-

– first, C o N g R a T u L a T i O n S  for putting your feelings aside and telling him just what he needed to hear: that you love him unconditionally. It seems to me that he’s been very open with you about everything, including about his sexual orientation because he trusted that you love him unconditionally. Reads to me that you have been a good, supportive and loving mother all along.

Here is what I read online (Copilot) in regard to the topics and concerns you brought up in this thread: “While some individuals may experience shifts in their attractions or identities, others may have a more consistent sexual orientation throughout their lives… Some studies have found that women may report more fluidity in their sexual orientation compared to men. However, this does not mean that all women will experience changes in their orientation, nor does it imply that men’s orientations are fixed…

“College may provide a more supportive environment for exploration, which can lead to changes in how individuals identify… Sexual orientation is generally considered to be a stable aspect of a person’s identity. While some individuals might explore and better understand their sexual orientation during college, it’s not common for someone to change their orientation after coming out as gay or bi… Everyone’s journey with their sexual orientation is unique. Some people might experience fluidity in their attractions over time, but this doesn’t mean their orientation changes fundamentally. It’s more about gaining a deeper understanding of oneself.

“When a son comes out as gay or bi, a mother’s response can significantly impact his emotional well-being and the strength of their relationship. Here are some supportive ways to respond: 1. Listen and Validate: Give him your full attention and listen without interrupting. Validate his feelings and experiences by acknowledging his courage in sharing this part of his identity.

“2. Express Love and Acceptance: Reassure him that your love and support are unconditional. Let him know that his sexual orientation does not change your feelings for him.

“3. Ask How You Can Support: Ask him how you can best support him during this time. This shows that you respect his needs and are willing to be there for him in the way he needs.

“4. Educate Yourself: Take the initiative to learn more about LGBTQ+ issues and experiences. This can help you better understand his perspective and provide informed support.

“5. Respect His Privacy: Allow him to decide who else to tell and when. Respect his privacy and avoid sharing his news with others without his consent.

“6. Be Patient: Understand that this might be a process for both of you. Be patient with yourself as you navigate your feelings and any questions you might have.

“7. Seek Support: If you need support or have questions, consider reaching out to LGBTQ+ support groups or resources. They can provide valuable information and a community of understanding.

“8. Celebrate His Authenticity: Celebrate his courage to be true to himself. Acknowledge the importance of living authentically and the strength it takes to come out”.

Is this helpful?

Back in March 7, 2022, you wrote: “I am an over thinker and think the worst“- remember that this is your tendency, and that therefore, when things appear to be bad, they are likely not as bad as you think and feel, and maybe not bad at all. Try to look at situations from different angles and see the bigger picture. For example, in this situation, because your son takes after you and stands up to offending people (the pool party situation), he is not likely to engage in an abusive relationship, be it with a man or a woman: this is an encouraging, promising angle, isn’t it?

anita

Dear freddo:

Thank you for organizing your update so well, so it’s easy to read. Ex moved to France 5 years ago, the two of you get along so well, and you share custody of the kids- good thing that she didn’t go back to Argentina with your kids!

“The boys seem to be adjusting well to the situation. There’s a lot of trust and mutual respect between us”- Trust and mutual Respect.. these are major. I had experienced neither growing up.

“My ex met someone new, and I’m genuinely fine with it. Honestly, I’d rather see her happy here than feeling miserable and wanting to go back to Argentina“- On Oct 26, 2018, I wrote to you: “If she found an interest in a man in France, that would be best, if she switched her attachment from the man in Argentina to someone in France”, and it happened, good thing!

“Whenever I do have time, I spend it with my kids—and I’m not looking for anyone to come in and disrupt that“- I am handing you The Best Father Award.

“Ever since I was a child, and even as an adult, I’ve always wanted to run a free circus for underprivileged or troubled kids… I’ve traveled to Moldova, Romania, Poland, and Ukraine twice, and I just returned from Armenia. I’ve performed over 200 magic shows, bringing smiles and laughter to thousands of children… And it’s not easy because I have no support. I pay for all of my trips and take on my vocation. But it’s priceless“- this is amazing! I didn’t read this part until a few moments ago,

WOW !!!

“I used to think that letting go meant suppressing my feelings so they wouldn’t overwhelm me. But now, for me, letting go is like being in the ocean: rather than desperately trying to reach the shore, it’s about floating, gazing at the horizon, and trusting that, eventually, you’ll reach safer ground“-  I am going to take this thought with me today wherever I go, and let it sink in, thank you!

“I hope my story can help anyone feeling low. I know that sometimes it feels like your world is shattering, but life is stronger, and so are we… believe it or not. -‘The best is yet to come!’ Love“- thank you for this uplifting update, freddo. Thank you for choosing ❤️ for your children, for their mother, for all the children you entertain!

anita

Dear freddo:

Welcome back five years (in 20 days) since you last posted! I will read and reply Sat (it’s Fri afternoon here).

anita

Dear bozo: No worries- no harsh response, no hate response from me. I’ll be back to you on about 11 hours from now.

anita

Dear me:

This is a difficult time for you and for your father. I hope that he is made to feel as comfortable as possible by the medical team that is treating him. I know that your relationship with him wasn’t easy, and this is a painful and challenging time for you. It’s okay to feel whatever it is that you are feeling. Grief can be really complicated. If you need to talk more, to express yourself, please do, anytime.

I am thinking of you and hoping that you find some peace and comfort. You are a good, worthy person who cares for and  helps other people. You deserve peace of mind at this time, and at any other time.

anita

Dear Brian:

How are you? Last you posted was a reply to me on May 8 this year, almost six months ago (on your Is Life Itself Divine? thread). There you shared that you haven’t given up on connecting with people, that you still have a couple friends that you meet with regularly, and (in regard to your concern about people being ingenuous), you wrote: “I try to remind myself to focus on the intent of what people say rather than specific words. Most people aren’t trying to be disingenuous and use certain phrases out of habit.“-

– an excellent point. For example, when a person asks in a friendly way, upon coming across another person, How are you? while not having thought about the person at all before the meeting, or when a person says to a stranger: it was great talking to you! (while it wasn’t good or bad), these are phrases/ wordings said out of habit, common social niceties that help maintain politeness and smooth interactions. Even though they are not genuine, the are positive because of the intent behind them, a positive intent. And because these phrases do work when it comes to maintaining smooth interactions between people.

Dear Panditdevsharma:

I need your positive thinking post today, the day after (U.S.) elections day, so thank you: “Keeping hope through challenges is about looking for solutions, finding joy in small moments… (it) fosters growth, resilience, and strong relationships… It’s a powerful choice.”

I like what you posted Oct 9: “ Love often shines through in our connections with others. Acts of kindness, compassion, and support among friends and family can be seen as expressions of God’s love.“,

Sept 11: “In order to do what you love with joy, it’s important to align your actions with your passions and values… Focus on the process rather than the outcome, and approach each task with a mindset of gratitude and curiosity. Set small, achievable goals that inspire progress and celebrate every step forward“,

Aug 28: “Spiritual awakening often involves significant personal growth and transformation, but it can also bring emotional and sometimes physical pain. This pain occurs because awakening challenges your old beliefs, patterns, and attachments. As you let go of these old ways, you might experience discomfort, confusion, or sadness, which can be overwhelming.”

Jan 22 (the following can apply to a political disagreement) : ” 1. Stay Calm:... 2. Educate: Share information… calmly and respectfully to dispel misconceptions. 3. Express Boundaries: … request respectful discussions. 4. Focus on Common Ground: Emphasize shared values and similarities rather than differences. 5. Lead by Example: Demonstrate the principles of compassion and understanding… 6. Seek Dialogue: Encourage open-minded conversations to foster mutual understanding. 7. Surround Yourself: Connect with like-minded individuals who respect diversity to create a supportive environment.”

I hope to read more and more from you, Panditdevsharma!

anita