Haha we dont know for sure until we try

Yeah that’s what she said, she will look for tickets in 3 days for May, but i get so anxious 🙁

Coincidentally, therapist today asked me about the SSRIs i was taking (tepram) and i told her i only used them for 9-10 days and i stopped, but she said i have to use them for at least 1.5 months to see any difference and if i wanna try again i should ask a doctor. But then a video of Ali Greymond (check her out on YT, she’s OCD specialist) popped up about SSRIs and she said that it rarely helps people, maybe a bit to do ERP but other than that, nothing. I dont really wanna take meds but idk, im conflicted..But my therapist said i should really try and seperate my thoughts and focus on the experience (like Copilot AI said), but its really tough.

Today we’re texting and sending each other some funny reels with the context of jealousy and stuff and i laugh a lot, i love how she plays jealous and her reactions is exactly what i want in my girlfriend, how we tease each other, it’s wonderful. But then something lurks in the back of my mind, the thought of not wanting her, and then i can’t enjoy her 🙁