Oh, I was referring to the first order of things as a possibility. I vote for the 2nd, the one starting with “future plans talk”.

“I don’t like me”- 😞 Tell me more?

Maybe because your relationship with her meant so much to your whole being. Remember you said that you were quite flat, emotionally before you met her and then you felt so wonderful with her. So, when you lost that wonderful (in your whole being), it was devastating.

Being at war with yourself is never a good idea. Even if part of you win, the whole of your being loses.

Confused lol-ed. Angry and upset 😡 for no reason?

Okay, let me put together what I understand from what we talked about since Dec 19 (4 months & 4 days ago- 4 & 4):

You grew up in a violent home, with a.. well, a crazy mother. To survive her, you normalized the situation best you could, like, ‘no big deal’: You turned the volume down on your emotions.

That turning down the volume became a pattern.

Fast forward, you’re in a LDR, it feels relatively safe (she’s a distance away), so the emotional volume goes up.

Next, you’re talking about meeting IRL for the first time, and maybe you moving to her country so to live together, and you get scared, and the volume of your emotions is turned down, real down.

😡 🌙 🦉 Anita

Wait, “hangry”? A mispelling or hungry-angry?

How you can prevent the turning the emotional volume down?

It takes relaxing, really relaxing.

😡 🐔 🙏 Anita

So, hangry it is.

Oh, I understand not feeling relaxed. I am very much a beginner at relaxing. But truly, the answer is right there- in relaxing, somehow.

😌 Anita

Dear Hangry Confused:

Trying to solve problems strictly from ‘the head’ (thinking, analyzing)- doesn’t work because the heart needs to be heard deeper than the noise of thinking-thinking-thinking.

🤍 💙 💕 Anita