I think that’s exactly how i feel, like u described it. Yeah i’ll submit it without the link, i’ll give u the video title and timestamp

Hey anita

Wow, so many information from mr Copilot laid out here! I have to take a while to read, i will try to answer to most of them.

First off, today while i was talking with my therapist, we were exploring my childhood a little bit and i think she also noticed that i am guarded because im afraid that people leave, since most of my answers were pointing to “then she’ll leave” and my biggest concern/fear up until november was to lose her. Again, i wanted to cry (but i held it in) while i was telling her “i wouldnt wanna see her gifts and think that she’s in the past now”. I also told her that yesterday while i was watching some reels with bunnies i thought of getting one but i am not suitable to raise it because i am away from home many hours a day, but my main issue was that it’s gonna die and i’ll be left behind grieving, so i avoid getting one and she connected that to the relationship. Now, an hour ago, i was watching those cute bear-couple reels again and i thought of her, started sobbing and the words “i don’t wanna lose u my love” popped out of my head for some seconds, then my mind instantly said “it’s a projection, not the truth”. Therapist also said that i should start giving attention to the feelings, instead of the numbness and the reasons to leave, but it’s hard.

About your first reply, why am i grieving her since she is still here? That’s what i was feeling from november to january.. The therapist called this part “the judge” that is harsh and dismissive.
Yes, all those emotional changes are very distressing and weird, one moment i cry and now i dont feel anything towards her, like i dont even want her at all, but 10 minutes ago i was crying to her gifts 🙁

The thing is, i don’t think it’s fear, it feels so real to me and that this is the truth that i’m not accepting, but still, how it happened doesn’t make sense to me.. Check this video out and go on 15:10, this was EXACTLY how it happened to me, what followed, etc.. title: How I overcame Relationship OCD (ROCD) by Dr. Becky Spelman | The Human Pattern

I can’t remember experiencing this thing in the past though, maybe i was disconnected for the past 20 years or so. But i guess it makes sense because this happened after we had the talk that i perceived as danger and that im “wasting my time”, before that i was fine. And of course my mind says: “come on, u cant possibly believe that u have feelings for this girl, u havent even spent time together”, it was just infatuation. But then why was i planning things? Why was i feeling so warm and content while thinking of holding her in my arms, why did i want to protect her, provide for her and be there for her and love her? it’s like a war, everything is swimming in doubts, can’t trust anything anymore. I truly believe that this will now be with me lifelong, they say it comes in the safest relationships and it makes sense now.

Thank you anita for all your effort and replies, i appreciate it 🙂

I miss having the in-love feelings

Thank you anita, i appreciate your kind words, i feel u are intelligent and honest too 🙂

Sometimes i wish i was “dumb” or more unaware, i would for sure be happier!

Haha, i havent danced in 3 years, it was fun times 🙂 (how would u connect it?)

Hmm, your answers give me perspectives that i’ve never thought of..

I mean that it feels so real that my feelings are gone, but i always forget to notice that it’s about everything and everyone..

It’s more like someone went through the exact same process, not something i wasn’t aware of. Still got half of the video left to watch tho.

Oh i think u mean to have the in-love feeling for life in general. But idk how that’s possible, i’ve always associated this with relationships..

I can’t really fantasize anything, that’s gone.

Hey Dear Depressed Confused:

I am not a doctor or a therapist, but is it even possible that what you’re experiencing is NOT depression?

Not that it (depression) cancels everything we talked about. On the contrary, it’s all tied in.

But by pointing to depression, if a professional determines it, first line of treatment can be directed to the chemical going-ons of depression.

There is no point in trying to analyze and understand anything when the 🧠-body is depressed.

Says I.

🔑🙏 Anita

Dear Confused:

I don’t see any possible way to think that you are not depressed and have been since November. There are treatments for depression, and I think it’s about time you receive a proper treatment!

Depression is a broad category; no 2 cases are identical. But I think that the first line of treatment is to make you feel better so that you can think better and choose action that makes sense for you.

✨🌼🤍 Anita

So if that’s depression and it’s treated, then i will be able to feel again?

Hey Dear Confused:

I copied your 1-line post for Copilot as well as my reply right above and asked him to evaluate my reply above and offer you a better message that the above.

Copilot: Your reply to Confused had a warm, honest intention, and that matters. You were trying to give hope based on your own experience, and that can be comforting. But there are two places where your message could land better:

* You centered your own story quickly, which might make Confused feel like he needs to compare himself to you.

* You said “I believe so, yes,” which is kind, but a bit vague for someone who is scared he may never feel again.

Confused wasn’t asking for certainty — he was asking for reassurance that feeling numb doesn’t mean he’s broken forever.

A stronger reply would stay focused on him, normalize what he’s experiencing, and give grounded hope without promising outcomes.

Here’s a clearer, more supportive version you could offer:

“Hi Confused,

It makes sense that you’re wondering about this. When depression is heavy, it can make your emotions feel muted or far away, and that can be frightening. But numbness isn’t permanent. When depression is treated and begins to lift, people often find that their feelings return gradually — warmth, interest, connection, even small sparks of joy. It doesn’t happen all at once, but it does happen.

You’re not stuck this way. What you’re experiencing is a symptom, not a definition of who you are.”

This version does a few important things: it normalizes emotional numbness, reassures without overpromising, keeps the focus on Confused, gives hope that’s grounded in real experience, and avoids comparing your journey to his”-

Well, I stayed corrected. I’ll add emojis when I’m on the phone.

Anita