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    Nala1234
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    I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years. We have grown together so much in this time. We are not perfect, but we are strong, and we have a very healthy relationship. We have always felt like we could get through anything together, because we have been through a lot together. We are kind, loving, supportive, and we cherish our relationship. We have lived together for about a year and a half and have built the most beautiful life together in a really beautiful place that feels like home. It has been one of the happiest times in my life. I haven’t ever felt so loved, so close to another human, and just so grateful to be in this life and to be this lucky. I have always suffered from mild anxiety and self esteem issues. I have had my fair share of family relationship issues as well, but nothing that is crazy or super “traumatic”.  About a month ago, out of the blue, I started having extremely intrusive thoughts about ending our relationship. It causes me to feel the lowest I have ever felt in my life. I have breakdowns, panic attacks, and cannot function properly. It is truly consuming my life and making me feel depressed and hopeless. In my head I picture telling him that I don’t love him anymore (which hurts the most). I picture getting on a plane and leaving my whole life here with him. It makes it hard to stay present, my mind is constantly drifting to future events and telling myself that I will just be an anxious mess, I won’t enjoy anything so might as well just leave now.  It truly makes me question myself, like I cannot trust myself, like I don’t know the difference between an anxious thought and how I truly feel. It has scared me so bad that I have started therapy. Unfortunately, my therapist is focusing more on my childhood and family issues right now, I imagine because she is trying to get to the root cause of why I am feeling this way… but she is not helping me stop these thoughts and feelings. My boyfriend knows that I have been feeling this way and he has battled with his own anxieties and is extremely supportive. He knows I am working on trying to heal and get a handle on these anxieties. This has been by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and it is really really bringing me down. I am looking for advice, thoughts, ways you have coped with relationship anxiety. I just really feel like I need help. I need to know that this somewhat normal or common, that I am not just going crazy or falling out of love for absolutely no reason and causing myself so so so much pain, because I do love him so so so incredibly much.

    #408028

    In reply to: Does he like me?

    Katrine Nielsen
    Participant

    Uhh I don’t know if I’m brave enough to be that direct. I’m terrified, I’ve never done this before.

     

    I was thinking about apologizing for my behaviour (shut ting down) and then tell him that that only happened because i like him so much so i shut down to protect myself. (letting him know i ignored him because i liked not because i didn’t care and also showing him that i too am afraid of letting someone close) then tell him how much i apreciate his effort with the yoga and how thought ful he was, and at the end maybe wrap it up with the turkish restaurant he thinks i should try. Then he has a chance to join me if he wants to.

     

    I really want to emphasize that my rude behaviour over the past months was because of my anxiety and that i like him so much.

     

    anita
    Participant

    Dear miyoid:

    I wish you didn’t feel selfish for writing here, not more than I feel selfish for writing here (I don’t): you are an asset here, not a burden!

    Something got into me. If I would have beliefs, I would say that the evil eye did it or something… .. Even when I overshare or share the normal amount of information about myself, I started to feel like they could harm me or their thoughts even, can harm me. I must never let anybody get jealous of me, my job, or my relationship or get the wrong thoughts about me“-

    – I studied the Evil Eye belief this morning: it is the belief that someone can purposely give you bad luck by simply wishing it on you or by giving you an angry look. The idea is that if you experience any success, of if you are happy or if your positive attributes show (beauty, intelligence, etc.), someone will feel envy and give you the evil eye, and your happiness, positive attributes and success will be undone. Therefore, many people hide their positive attributes and success and make sure they look unhappy so… to avoid the evil eye.

    It is true that people feel envy: from an early age, if a child has a toy that another child doesn’t, the one without the toy may get angry and snatch the toy away! But notice, the envious child does not snatch the toy away with his thoughts or with an angry look. He/ she snatches the toy away with his hands and arms! Similarly, there are adult crimes in real-life that are motivated by envy.. but again, the crimes are done not by thoughts or an angry look, but with hands and weapons. In regard to crime, I can’t recall a single violent crime reported in the news that was motivated by envy: crime is often motivated by other powerful emotions and by a crime mentality involved in criminal endeavors, such as extortion.

    No one’s thoughts, or the way they look at you can hurt you… unless you believe that it can: if you believe that a person’s thoughts or the way the person looks at you can undo your success, you get very anxious as a result of this belief. Next thing, you are driving anxiously, inattentively and you get into an accident. It is not bad luck or a curse that caused the accident: it is the anxiety that is responsible for the accident. In other words, it is the belief in the evil eye concept that is the problem, not the concept itself. If you didn’t believe in it… it would have no power over you.

    bbc. com/ the strange power of the evil eye: “In essence, the curse of the evil eye is not a complicated concept; it stems from the belief that someone who achieves great success or recognition also attracts the envy of those around them. That envy in turn manifests itself as a curse that will undo their good fortune”- lots and lots of people who achieved great success and recognition are successful and recognized decades after their initial success… not because no one was envious of them.

    life science. com/ evil eye: “The evil eye is well known throughout history. It is mentioned in ancient Greek and Roman texts, as well as in many famous literary works, including the Bible… The evil eye is essentially a specific type of magical curse, and has its roots in magical thinking and superstition. Let’s say that a person experiences bad luck, ill health, accident, or some unexplained calamity — perhaps a drought or an infectious disease. Before science could explain weather patterns and germ theory, any bad event for which there was not an obvious cause might be blamed on a curse… Curses, including the evil eye, are an answer to the age-old question of why bad things happen to good people…

    “It is tempting to view the evil eye as an ancient, discredited belief that plays no role in our 21st-century world. Instead, as folklorist Dundes notes, we ‘should keep in mind that the evil eye is not some old-fashioned superstitious belief of interest solely to antiquarians. The evil eye continues to be a powerful factor affecting the behavior of countless millions of people throughout the world” –

    – miyoid, I hope that you will no longer be one of the countless of millions of people in the world who are harmed by believing in this untrue belief!

    I even thought this contamination of mine could’ve happened because I told an old friend about my work permit application earlier yesterday before I got that bad. It was like, she had the wrong thoughts and that contaminated my mind“- the belief that the friend’s thoughts or the way she looked at you could give you bad luck is.. untrue, but the belief itself causes you a lot of distress and suffering.

    Yesterday, after working well for a couple of hours, I felt exhausted… and the thoughts were all attacking… and I was suffering… I was too tired to control my mind, self-sabotaging thoughts… I even wanted to cease to exist, cause it was painful to be there, be anywhere“- if you removed from your brain the belief in the evil eye, bad luck and curses, you will have way fewer thoughts attacking and sabotaging you.

    I also realized something yesterday, I am skeptical about everyone and everything. I feel good with my BF cause he is honest and he doesn’t exaggerate stuff. But when I listen to somebody, I always know that they might add, omit and exaggerate the stuff they’re telling. I guess this is tiring“- good to read that you can trust your boyfriend to be honest. On the other hand, many people do add, omit and exaggerate, and it can be very helpful to be aware of this fact and to remain aware. Try to limit your distress in regard to this topic by thinking: how can this particular person’s adding/omitting/exaggerating hurt me? If a person is trying to sell you something for a lot of money, better consider all the ways he/ she may be adding, omitting and exaggerating. If on the other hand, the adding/ omitting/ exaggerating person is just talking to you, on a train ride, let’s say, it is a matter of no consequence to you, no use stressing over it. You can excuse yourself and.. sit elsewhere, if you have that option.

    anita

    #407928
    Christiandad
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    | aspired| calculated| contemplated| designed| intended| looked| meant| meditated| planned| proposed| purported| purposed” data-def12=”to have enough money for|afforded| swung” data-def13=”to turn out as planned or desired|came off| clicked| delivered| panned out| succeeded| went over| worked out” data-similarity0=”0.36462247|0.898751|0.84795296|0.54517573|0.61896276|0.41978693|0.6306659|0.64230245|0.73289096|0.3801712|0.59981084|0.49345326|1.0|1.0″ data-similarity1=”0.5814914|0.69737375|0.5873944|0.35568404″ data-similarity2=”0.4206109|0.56532115|0.50492114|0.6449608|0.7387449|0.4867643|0.6320413|0.53187084|0.64961374|0.681274|0.6029614|0.517187|0.49066052|0.58108485|0.5895526|0.35898903″ data-similarity3=”0.2021164|0.45164952|0.4863932|0.71296173|0.5364942|0.8161594″ data-similarity4=”0.7557094|0.898751|0.6060306|0.8158444|0.8161594|0.72643703|0.52667755″ data-similarity5=”0.47822794|0.5034208|0.6728895|0.54689866|0.5616872|0.50594926|0.49012333|0.6371599|1.0|0.38157496″ data-similarity6=”0.509088″ data-similarity7=”0.5272271|0.5846074|0.569625|0.71332264|0.6072409|0.60856557|0.5565778|0.58915204|0.6362477|0.63716424|0.62577903|0.5284823|0.5274681″ data-similarity8=”0.56434363|0.44702864|0.55243284|0.43732637|0.51146495″ data-similarity9=”0.8161594|0.6468971|0.32514957″ data-similarity10=”0.3760242|0.5255827|0.5192535|0.6035534|0.4846424|0.55927867|0.5304476″ data-similarity11=”0.3922288|0.3690924|0.33052105|0.4580906|0.513882|0.36442608|0.36335102|0.8092906|0.46992427|0.6842098|0.43290895|0.50742656|0.5117919|0.45762438″ data-similarity12=”0.45024148|0.5052634″ data-similarity13=”0.8362844|0.39725164|0.5107224|0.6282489|0.5262954|1.0|0.7129731″>went</span> against your <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”as in respects, regards|egards|respects|amenities|civilities|pleasantries|ave|hail|greeting|hello|salutation|salute|welcome|adieu|bon voyage|congé” data-def1=”as in requests, desires|desires|requests|wants|claims|demands|duns|importunities|requisitions|ultimatums |drives|needs|requirements|stipulations|basics|essentials|musts|impositions|conditions|provisions” data-similarity0=”0.46249276|0.6288656|0.54470575|0.5651647|0.48976165|0.038468722|-0.012799436|0.18574294|-0.021154294|0.09143471|-0.0043252786|0.06259922|0.057040244|-0.062870815|0.106878914″ data-similarity1=”0.4042004|0.5982349|0.65328336|0.6622906|0.7037716|0.6398632|0.4822676|0.32480246|0.48592734|0.5863759|0.7215687|0.43877977|0.362062|0.42410606|0.50905144|0.48347357|0.52592677|0.52068675|0.4925143″>wishes</span>. <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”for this or that reason|accordingly| consequently| ergo| hence| therefore| thereupon| thus| wherefore” data-def1=”in like manner|alike| also| correspondingly| ditto| likewise| similarly” data-similarity0=”0.5227524|0.56753814|0.19003975|0.5596427|0.4193968|0.541756|0.47389334|0.2547647″ data-similarity1=”0.4149025|0.46640915|0.40297717|0.3117766|0.41421068|0.4890144″>So</span> you might <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|command| enjoy| hold| own| possess| retain” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accept| take” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|bear| birth
    | deliver| drop| mother| produce” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allow| green-light| permit| suffer” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bribe| buy| corrupt| pay off| square” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bear| cherish| entertain| harbor| hold| nurse” data-similarity0=”0.37033293|0.63254654|0.4846794|0.49477968|0.48502964|0.4689027″ data-similarity1=”0.5757953|0.67496127″ data-similarity2=”0.51549786|0.33179203|0.628725|0.47881454|0.06469364|0.6538373″ data-similarity3=”0.5467805|0.12624112|0.5109205|0.6489529|0.54828876|0.577937|0.48586315|0.49280608|0.25963894|0.6593666|0.18551242″ data-similarity4=”0.73469186|0.116330236|0.4359961|0.48586315″ data-similarity5=”0.47803396|0.52414054|0.40294537|0.3568967|0.23286778″ data-similarity6=”0.51549786|0.48792073|0.50952613|0.52208257|0.4846794|0.27373222″>have</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to use up all the physical energy of|broken| burned out | washed out| wearied| worn out” data-def1=”to damage or diminish by continued friction|abraded| chafed| corraded| eroded| frayed| frazzled| fretted| galled| rasped| rubbed” data-similarity0=”0.74203146|0.6282189|0.5675668|0.6241794|1.0″ data-similarity1=”0.70125586|0.67139626|0.7435217|0.6441731|0.6644323|0.78338003|0.73610306|0.7196461|0.60094565|0.7465671″>worn</span> a <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a cover or partial cover for the face used to disguise oneself|vizard” data-def1=”something that covers or conceals like a piece of cloth|blanket| cloak| cope| cover| cover-up| covering| coverture| curtain| hood| mantle| pall| penumbra| robe| shroud| veil| wraps” data-similarity0=”0.5012465″ data-similarity1=”0.64818966|0.5499103|0.6439168|0.7419718|0.5321935|0.36614397|0.5911237|0.5740812|0.3744025|0.54275066|0.56782526|0.49242914|0.6717825|0.45602676|0.5303821|0.29938275″>mask</span> of “ <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”an act of kind assistance|benevolence| boon| courtesy| favor| grace| indulgence| mercy| service| turn” data-def1=”the capacity for feeling for another’s unhappiness or misfortune|bigheartedness| charity| commiseration| compassion| feeling| good-heartedness| heart| humanity| kindheartedness| kindliness| largeheartedness| mercy| pity| ruth| softheartedness| sympathy| warmheartedness” data-def2=”sympathetic concern for the well-being of others|beneficence| benevolence| benignancy| benignity| compassionateness| good-heartedness| humaneness| kindheartedness| kindliness| softheartedness| tenderheartedness| tenderness| warmheartedness” data-similarity0=”0.71696174|0.4980373|0.47141463|0.5552608|0.46887463|0.63594455|0.6530116|0.67466843|0.45642355″ data-similarity1=”0.5408696|0.6682494|0.5847122|0.66706|0.35724255|0.25971705|0.64590853|0.75603366|0.6777455|0.702297|0.514369|0.6530116|0.5372827|0.51046133|0.52268064|0.647505|0.5660613″ data-similarity2=”0.6049724|0.71696174|0.6049024|0.62348306|0.7454225|0.25971705|0.68778086|0.6777455|0.702297|0.52268064|0.607661|0.5935031|0.5660613″>kindness</span> ”, <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to express (a thought or emotion) in words|articulating| bringing out| enunciating| passing| speaking| stating| talking| telling| uttering| verbalizing| vocalizing” data-def1=”to convey in appropriate or telling terms|articulating| clothing| couching| expressing| formulating| phrasing| putting| stating| wording” data-def2=”to give from memory|reciting| reeling off| repeating” data-def3=”to take as true or as a fact without actual proof|assuming| hypothecating| hypothesizing| postulating| premising| presuming| presupposing| supposing” data-similarity0=”0.67961174|0.659076|0.7631656|0.65129507|0.82327557|0.84841233|0.7899671|0.6779044|0.6963901|0.7262002|0.7485577″ data-similarity1=”0.67961174|0.5605135|0.7145108|0.7481895|0.62654024|0.65035045|0.7350811|0.84841233|0.71558267″ data-similarity2=”0.7489063|0.6280928|0.72591037″ data-similarity3=”0.75723726|0.7092409|0.6831814|0.7306114|0.77576035|0.6761926|0.7412919|0.74874747″>saying</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”transportable items that one owns|belongings| chattels| duds| effects| gear| goods| holdings| movables | paraphernalia| personal effects| personal property| personalty| plunder
    | possession| stuff” data-similarity0=”0.6560508|0.6384519|0.61921954|0.7674586|0.14864025|0.64468986|0.7504602|0.7187195|0.34972897|0.0698157|0.11773881|0.36750844|0.042405043|0.31095842|0.42147812″>effects</span> like “ <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”having or showing a mind free from doubt|assured| certain| clear| cocksure| confident| doubtless| implicit| positive| sanguine” data-def1=”impossible to avoid or evade|certain| ineluctable| ineludible| inescapable| inevitable| necessary| unavoidable| unescapable” data-def2=”worthy of one’s trust|calculable| dependable| good| reliable| responsible| safe| secure| solid| steady| tried| tried-and-true| true| trustable| trustworthy| trusty” data-def3=”not capable of being challenged or proved wrong|accomplished| certain| inarguable| incontestable| incontrovertible| indisputable| indubitable| irrefragable| irrefutable| positive| unanswerable| unarguable| unchallengeable| undeniable| unquestionable” data-similarity0=”0.33132204|0.60877657|0.6463997|0.43189287|0.69986767|0.6337072|0.5624332|0.51457626|0.54311126″ data-similarity1=”0.60877657|0.6960053|0.6754721|0.59213406|0.6886699|0.60342205|0.5810743|0.5810933″ data-similarity2=”0.53355753|0.59631073|0.7013723|0.56249684|0.578177|0.6174488|0.64588505|0.5431133|0.55920243|0.20908235|0.048419286|0.7440173|0.53383064|0.51959026|0.5369887″ data-similarity3=”0.33923224|0.60877657|0.6011126|0.4276254|0.7292924|0.52159935|0.5578912|0.5214506|0.5806655|0.51457626|0.69049954|0.64340574|0.72467846|0.70557904|0.5273709″>sure</span>, no <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”something that requires thought and skill for resolution|case| challenge| knot| matter| nut| trouble” data-def1=”an interrogative expression often used to test knowledge|interrogative| question” data-similarity0=”0.62396586|0.5022594|0.5068999|0.4281642|0.5595992|0.5966106″ data-similarity1=”0.31367514|0.5068018″>problem</span>, I ’ll <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to be fitting or proper|befit| beseem
    | go| serve| suit” data-def1=”to be enough|serve| suffice” data-def2=”to carry through (as a process) to completion|accomplish| achieve| bring off| carry off| carry out| commit| compass| execute| follow through | make| negotiate| perform| perpetrate| prosecute| pull off| put through” data-def3=”to make more attractive by adding something that is beautiful or becoming|adorn| array| beautify| bedeck| bedizen| blazon| caparison| deck| decorate| do up| doll up| drape| dress| embellish| emblaze| emboss| enrich| fancify| fancy up| festoon| garnish| glitz | trim” data-def4=”to meet one’s day-to-day needs|cope| fare| get along| get by| get on| make out| manage| shift” data-def5=”to be the cause of (a situation, action, or state of mind)|beget| breed| bring| bring about| bring on| catalyze| cause| create| draw on| effect| effectuate| engender| generate| induce| invoke| make| occasion| produce| prompt| result | work| yield” data-def6=”to copy or exaggerate (someone or something) in order to make fun of|burlesque| caricature| imitate| mimic| mock| parody| send up| spoof| travesty” data-def7=”to move forward along a course|advance| come| come along| fare| forge| get along| get on| go| go along| go off| march| pace| proceed| progress” data-def8=”to present a portrayal or performance of|act| impersonate| interpret| perform| play| portray” data-def9=”to take place|be| befall| betide| chance| come| come about| come down| come off| cook| go down
    | go on| hap| happen| occur| pass| transpire” data-similarity0=”0.38400272|0.520447|0.5814946|0.66821307|0.39357644″ data-similarity1=”0.66821307|0.42278188″ data-similarity2=”0.5191267|0.6558709|0.37919605|0.53812766|0.57164747|0.5948747|0.63797265|0.48175707|0.47414473|0.67886806|0.55420256|0.5336671|0.55492973|0.6593306|0.4969009|0.27759388″ data-similarity3=”0.52808666|0.54473686|0.45084238|0.57453996|0.30714938|0.5812327|0.4521851|0.50846785|0.5428703|0.6365022|0.55479074|0.48730808|0.5744616|0.44925475|0.40325898|0.53693753|0.33809716|0.6299537|0.3488135|0.43591657|0.59262234|0.4236248|0.60569054″ data-similarity4=”0.6432458|0.58371955|0.5322118|0.56253177|0.5402832|0.5413181|0.6729022|0.56538075″ data-similarity5=”0.48877847|0.46240485|0.565021|0.38071817|0.38872564|0.22158882|0.5043816|0.579187|0.53166395|0.52093357|0.5887051|0.45042777|0.6711738|0.6194677|0.4408525|0.67886806|0.52647513|0.5831231|0.5664144|0.5782221|0.51632243|0.6160038″ data-similarity6=”0.39272627|0.57250434|0.6195468|0.46287745|0.46131092|0.47843295|0.45156112|0.51263094|0.55912966″ data-similarity7=”0.4259214|0.53434837|0.40136573|0.58371955|0.5489924|0.5322118|0.5402832|0.5814946|0.46834967|0.43262216|0.4834537|0.5860146|0.5648395|0.51193386″ data-similarity8=”0.6507939|0.537422|0.5737449|0.5336671|0.5254782|0.57637316″ data-similarity9=”0.48308843|0.63803095|0.51008195|0.47627297|0.53434837|0.35922316|0.43686053|0.4040523|0.50209624|0.48625323|0.46804896|0.53695|0.68021476|0.70792735|0.6209847|0.60279745″>do</span> it ”, but underneath you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have a vague awareness of|perceived| saw| scented| sensed| smelled | tasted” data-def1=”to come into bodily contact with (something) so as to perceive a slight pressure on the skin|touched” data-def2=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endured| experienced| had| knew| passed| saw| suffered| sustained| tasted| underwent| witnessed” data-def3=”to have as an opinion|allowed
    | supposed| thought” data-def4=”to search for something blindly or uncertainly|fished| fumbled| groped| scrabbled” data-def5=”to give the impression of being|acted| appeared| came across | looked| made| seemed| sounded” data-similarity0=”0.5363818|0.46088126|0.38553622|0.4813598|0.61078215|0.49666163″ data-similarity1=”0.41825035″ data-similarity2=”0.53269935|0.5114751|0.39965886|0.47284758|0.47854602|0.46088126|0.5211019|0.51055884|0.49666163|0.48574063|0.44856527″ data-similarity3=”0.49929944|0.49007222|0.4543116″ data-similarity4=”0.38011083|0.39703143|0.59698313|0.45634097″ data-similarity5=”0.47246704|0.5070115|0.46432835|0.56330055|0.45495632|0.4782449|0.4695544″>felt</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”deserving of one’s pity|heartbreaking| heartrending| pathetic| piteous| pitiable| pitiful| poor| rueful| sorry| wretched” data-def1=”deserving pitying scorn (as for inadequacy)|contemptible| despicable| pathetic| pitiable| pitiful| sad| sorry| wretched” data-similarity0=”0.4690324|0.37327042|0.6802387|0.71858656|0.70533997|0.6030054|0.6369511|0.6179771|0.6297498|0.47370622″ data-similarity1=”0.7474944|0.7887075|0.6802387|0.70533997|0.6030054|0.7055819|0.6297498|0.47370622″>miserable</span> and <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”by reasonable assumption|assumably| doubtless| likely| presumably” data-similarity0=”0.8509014|0.60343367|0.653|0.8632285″>presumably</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”having or showing deep-seated resentment|acrid| acrimonious| bitter| embittered| hard| rancorous| sore” data-def1=”having or showing mean resentment of another’s possessions or advantages|covetous| envious| green-eyed| invidious| jaundiced| jealous” data-similarity0=”0.5462649|0.56353|0.67339015|0.49948132|0.64907295|0.7808396|0.69066566″ data-similarity1=”0.63230485|0.6130434|0.46948683|0.7296065|0.4599976|0.7043575″>resentful</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”beyond a normal or acceptable limit|devilishly| excessively| exorbitantly| inordinately| intolerably| monstrously| overly| overmuch| unacceptably| unduly” data-def1=”in addition to what has been said|additionally| again| also| besides| either| further| furthermore| likewise| more| moreover| then| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.6392829|0.68541425|0.586605|0.6069033|0.6298892|0.57968366|0.63297254|0.35429117|0.6328591|0.5731004″ data-similarity1=”0.5927575|0.64994323|0.6040419|0.3253775|0.39215052|0.4861497|0.65663177|0.6694324|0.39750895|0.7190585|0.57641375|0.08593325|0.68732834″>too</span>?

    <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”in spite of that|even so| howbeit| nevertheless| nonetheless| notwithstanding| still| still and all| though| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.5125049|0.07859503|0.60866797|0.56116045|0.405099|0.6210963|0.52419037|0.3257692|0.08830813|0.6000367″>still</span>, you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to move suddenly and sharply (as in surprise)|bolted| jumped| startled” data-def1=”to be responsible for the creation and early operation or use of|began| constituted| established| founded| inaugurated| initiated| innovated| instituted| introduced| launched| pioneered| planted| set up” data-def2=”to cause to function|activated| actuated| cranked | set off| sparked| touched off| triggered| turned on” data-def3=”to come into existence|actualized| appeared| arose| began| broke| commenced| dawned| engendered| formed| materialized| originated| set in| sprang” data-def4=”to extend outward beyond a usual point|bagged| ballooned| beetled| bellied| billowed| bulged| bunched| jutted| overhung| poked| pooched
    | pouched| pouted| projected| protruded| stood out| stuck out| swelled” data-def5=”to take the first step in (a process or course of action)|began| commenced| embarked” data-similarity0=”0.6147024|0.77103555|0.5886647″ data-similarity1=”0.7814009|0.6552808|0.49027464|0.715717|0.5818599|0.6754306|0.7326913|0.6618042|0.64597744|0.63163537|0.7470724|0.7724625|0.44535422″ data-similarity2=”0.6269256|0.6000929|0.55810964|0.4683472|0.67364085|0.63574415|0.6221466|0.63403153″ data-similarity3=”0.6787193|0.7693409|0.69995904|0.7814009|0.6538637|0.6146014|0.62388295|0.68186975|0.6516914|0.72206527|0.60328805|0.47695714|0.6752016″ data-similarity4=”0.64643735|0.6569801|0.7165783|0.54187363|0.70570856|0.6127576|0.6291301|0.57202554|0.5763712|0.69555384|0.681742|0.683219|0.75285816|0.7232033|0.67648566|0.70901704|0.5267852|0.81645626″ data-similarity5=”0.7814009|0.6146014|0.6917763″>started</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to reach for and take hold of by embracing with the fingers or arms|clasping| grasping| gripping| holding” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accepting| having” data-def2=”to become affected with (a disease or disorder)|catching| coming down” data-def3=”to decide to accept (someone or something) from a group of possibilities|cherry-picking| choosing| culling| electing| handpicking| naming| opting | tagging” data-def4=”to get possession of (something) by giving money in exchange for|buying| copping
    | picking up| purchasing” data-def5=”to have as a requirement|bearing| challenging| claiming| demanding| necessitating| needing| requiring| wanting| warranting” data-def6=”to make or have room for|accommodating| fitting| holding” data-def7=”to produce a desired effect|acting| operating| performing| working” data-def8=”to regard as right or true|accepting| believing| buying| crediting| swallowing| trusting” data-def9=”to deal with (something) usually skillfully or efficiently|addressing| contending | hacking| handling| managing| maneuvering| manipulating| negotiating| playing| swinging| treating” data-def10=”to offer entrance (as to a place, school, or privilege) to|admitting| entering| receiving” data-def11=”to deprive of life|carrying off| claiming| croaking
    | destroying| dispatching| doing in| felling| killing| slaying” data-similarity0=”0.74900883|0.78103995|0.6907437|0.7973595″ data-similarity1=”0.8208536|0.7186558″ data-similarity2=”0.73991895|0.6767496″ data-similarity3=”0.30479094|0.67698544|0.67917544|0.7807931|0.7183933|0.7085484|0.7081969|0.7387654″ data-similarity4=”0.7551104|0.73190314|0.6742842|0.7496109″ data-similarity5=”0.69104093|0.7112793|0.7501712|0.73408777|0.63403594|0.7086233|0.8270347|0.7030635|0.67637205″ data-similarity6=”0.7654083|0.6175081|0.7973595″ data-similarity7=”0.72301126|0.7212985|0.8359154|0.70224047″ data-similarity8=”0.8208536|0.77509916|0.7551104|0.7069912|0.80644476|0.83472246″ data-similarity9=”0.78449655|0.77905256|0.70915985|0.6990915|0.7421679|0.7155028|0.8136577|0.70442843|0.7503786|0.7327628|0.78899246″ data-similarity10=”0.77997375|0.7907632|0.79839504″ data-similarity11=”0.70871806|0.7501712|0.75076723|0.7783275|0.75012374|0.72419167|0.7500726|0.75882506|0.68848217″>taking </span>anti-depressants about 14 <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times alone</span><span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”earlier than the present time|agone” data-similarity0=”0.29198888″> </span>( one <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generation, cycle|cycle|generation|age|day|epoch|era|period|time|bit|space|span|spell|stretch|while|date|vintage” data-similarity0=”0.52389926|0.70527714|0.61575216|0.71349174|0.5275204|0.5105376|0.6613584|0.7476366|0.43119344|0.7288566|0.39079142|0.49470636|0.51791555|0.2590466|0.7109819|0.37221578″>time</span> into your <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”the fact or state of having something in common|affinity| association| bearing| connection| kinship| liaison| linkage| relation” data-def1=”the state of having shared interests or efforts (as in social or business matters)|affiliation| alliance| association| collaboration| confederation| connection| cooperation| hookup| liaison| linkup| partnership| relation| tie-up| union” data-similarity0=”0.57084465|0.581176|0.512904|0.599954|0.518404|0.5432837|0.57888496|0.49010655″ data-similarity1=”0.6636762|0.6148388|0.581176|0.6102982|0.5931701|0.599954|0.62234944|0.5048746|0.5432837|0.37866727|0.718756|0.49010655|0.42266637|0.51315314″>relationship</span> with your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span>), and you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|command| enjoy| hold| own| possess| retain” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accept| take” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|bear| birth
    | deliver| drop| mother| produce” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allow| green-light| permit| suffer” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bribe| buy| corrupt| pay off| square” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bear| cherish| entertain| harbor| hold| nurse” data-similarity0=”0.37033293|0.63254654|0.4846794|0.49477968|0.48502964|0.4689027″ data-similarity1=”0.5757953|0.67496127″ data-similarity2=”0.51549786|0.33179203|0.628725|0.47881454|0.06469364|0.6538373″ data-similarity3=”0.5467805|0.12624112|0.5109205|0.6489529|0.54828876|0.577937|0.48586315|0.49280608|0.25963894|0.6593666|0.18551242″ data-similarity4=”0.73469186|0.116330236|0.4359961|0.48586315″ data-similarity5=”0.47803396|0.52414054|0.40294537|0.3568967|0.23286778″ data-similarity6=”0.51549786|0.48792073|0.50952613|0.52208257|0.4846794|0.27373222″>have</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have life|breathed| existed| lived| subsisted” data-def1=”to occupy a place or location|borne | lain| sat| stood” data-def2=”to take or have a certain position within a group arranged in vertical classes|graded| placed| ranked| rated| stood” data-def3=”to take place|befallen| betided| chanced| come| come about| come down| come off| cooked| done| gone down
    | gone on| happed| happened| occurred| passed| transpired” data-similarity0=”0.36918086|0.44408607|0.28795847|0.4359974″ data-similarity1=”0.62735707|0.2089454|0.3066861|0.2343404″ data-similarity2=”0.18483609|0.3608744|0.34129244|0.54395396|0.2343404″ data-similarity3=”0.29652056|0.43721026|0.22858074|0.4518893|0.28689396|0.2627106|0.22724268|0.46535096|0.60187584|0.52829117|0.4888734|0.3545877|0.32232141|0.3031711|0.4713584|0.2836464″>been</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to reach for and take hold of by embracing with the fingers or arms|clasping| grasping| gripping| holding” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accepting| having” data-def2=”to become affected with (a disease or disorder)|catching| coming down” data-def3=”to decide to accept (someone or something) from a group of possibilities|cherry-picking| choosing| culling| electing| handpicking| naming| opting | tagging” data-def4=”to get possession of (something) by giving money in exchange for|buying| copping
    | picking up| purchasing” data-def5=”to have as a requirement|bearing| challenging| claiming| demanding| necessitating| needing| requiring| wanting| warranting” data-def6=”to make or have room for|accommodating| fitting| holding” data-def7=”to produce a desired effect|acting| operating| performing| working” data-def8=”to regard as right or true|accepting| believing| buying| crediting| swallowing| trusting” data-def9=”to deal with (something) usually skillfully or efficiently|addressing| contending | hacking| handling| managing| maneuvering| manipulating| negotiating| playing| swinging| treating” data-def10=”to offer entrance (as to a place, school, or privilege) to|admitting| entering| receiving” data-def11=”to deprive of life|carrying off| claiming| croaking
    | destroying| dispatching| doing in| felling| killing| slaying” data-similarity0=”0.74900883|0.78103995|0.6907437|0.7973595″ data-similarity1=”0.8208536|0.7186558″ data-similarity2=”0.73991895|0.6767496″ data-similarity3=”0.30479094|0.67698544|0.67917544|0.7807931|0.7183933|0.7085484|0.7081969|0.7387654″ data-similarity4=”0.7551104|0.73190314|0.6742842|0.7496109″ data-similarity5=”0.69104093|0.7112793|0.7501712|0.73408777|0.63403594|0.7086233|0.8270347|0.7030635|0.67637205″ data-similarity6=”0.7654083|0.6175081|0.7973595″ data-similarity7=”0.72301126|0.7212985|0.8359154|0.70224047″ data-similarity8=”0.8208536|0.77509916|0.7551104|0.7069912|0.80644476|0.83472246″ data-similarity9=”0.78449655|0.77905256|0.70915985|0.6990915|0.7421679|0.7155028|0.8136577|0.70442843|0.7503786|0.7327628|0.78899246″ data-similarity10=”0.77997375|0.7907632|0.79839504″ data-similarity11=”0.70871806|0.7501712|0.75076723|0.7783275|0.75012374|0.72419167|0.7500726|0.75882506|0.68848217″>taking</span> them for 12 <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span>, If I’m <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to find the sum of (a collection of things) by noting each one as it is being added|enumerating| numbering| telling” data-def1=”to be of importance|importing| mattering| meaning| signifying| weighing” data-def2=”to place reliance or trust|calculating| depending| leaning| reckoning| relying” data-def3=”to think of in a particular way|accounting| calling| considering| esteeming| holding| looking | rating| reckoning| regarding| setting down| viewing” data-similarity0=”0.6924711|0.67755705|0.69797003″ data-similarity1=”0.7935918|0.811294|0.8441773|0.74930876|0.7320776″ data-similarity2=”0.8207376|0.8068908|0.77643245|0.6807563|0.81733555″ data-similarity3=”0.747496|0.8036267|0.8006646|0.8357681|0.76088196|0.7561638|0.7369917|0.6807563|0.7405745|0.68739134|0.8128545″>counting</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”as stated or indicated without the slightest difference|due| exactly| full| just| precisely| sharp| smack-dab| squarely” data-def1=”in a direct line or course|dead| direct| directly| due| plumb| plump| straight| straightway” data-def2=”without delay|bang| directly| forthwith| headlong| immediately| incontinently| instantaneously| instanter| instantly| now| PDQ| plumb| presently| promptly| pronto| right away| right now| right off| straight off| straightaway| straightway” data-def3=”in a manner suitable for the occasion or purpose|appositely| appropriately| congruously| correctly| duly| fittingly| happily| meetly| properly| rightly| suitably” data-similarity0=”0.5255744|0.6210365|0.52191806|0.5473339|0.43494126|0.60882735|0.36320275|0.46135″ data-similarity1=”0.58576256|0.5580898|0.47187135|0.5255744|0.22573586|0.34964052|0.8492868|0.5558369″ data-similarity2=”0.09300965|0.47187135|0.16757031|0.6040687|0.57862|0.5460985|0.45078868|0.38151088|0.50516576|0.5152251|0.49203172|0.22573586|0.4606567|0.55429643|0.38235164|1.0|1.0|1.0|0.58518577|0.45971948|0.5558369″ data-similarity3=”0.5325501|0.43919364|0.53069884|0.54398096|0.5764374|0.4206937|0.5864523|0.36657768|0.49454272|0.49198008|0.53088117″>right</span>. In the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”following all others of the same kind in order or time|bottommost| closing| concluding| final| hindmost| lag| latest| latter| rearmost| terminal| terminating| ultimate” data-def1=”serving to put an end to all debate or questioning|absolute| clear| conclusive| deciding| decisive| definitive” data-def2=”of the greatest or highest degree or quantity|consummate| max| maximum| most| nth| outside| paramount| supreme| top| ultimate| utmost| uttermost” data-similarity0=”0.30129626|0.22896709|0.25016823|0.5892545|0.34036502|0.15662327|0.35671252|0.5284853|0.27721205|0.5213991|0.26312977|0.56164443″ data-similarity1=”0.5739681|0.6043051|0.6548682|0.13763209|0.5719341|0.6160517″ data-similarity2=”0.328443|0.13612486|0.5132775|0.22114745|0.424154|0.4642904|0.38633454|0.2299754|0.53162014|0.56164443|0.33119106|0.30257118″>last</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a small number|few| handful| scatter| scattering| smatter| smattering| sprinkle| sprinkling” data-def1=”two things of the same or similar kind that match or are considered together|brace| couplet| duo| dyad| pair| twain| twosome” data-similarity0=”0.4588556|0.53524965|0.4904677|0.5735298|0.59580755|0.48278612|0.43600845|0.51715446″ data-similarity1=”0.5112476|0.44821942|0.37594917|0.18331604|0.60717624|0.5051752|0.54302126″>couple</span> of <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span> you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|command| enjoy| hold| own| possess| retain” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accept| take” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|bear| birth
    | deliver| drop| mother| produce” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allow| green-light| permit| suffer” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bribe| buy| corrupt| pay off| square” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bear| cherish| entertain| harbor| hold| nurse” data-similarity0=”0.37033293|0.63254654|0.4846794|0.49477968|0.48502964|0.4689027″ data-similarity1=”0.5757953|0.67496127″ data-similarity2=”0.51549786|0.33179203|0.628725|0.47881454|0.06469364|0.6538373″ data-similarity3=”0.5467805|0.12624112|0.5109205|0.6489529|0.54828876|0.577937|0.48586315|0.49280608|0.25963894|0.6593666|0.18551242″ data-similarity4=”0.73469186|0.116330236|0.4359961|0.48586315″ data-similarity5=”0.47803396|0.52414054|0.40294537|0.3568967|0.23286778″ data-similarity6=”0.51549786|0.48792073|0.50952613|0.52208257|0.4846794|0.27373222″>have</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have life|breathed| existed| lived| subsisted” data-def1=”to occupy a place or location|borne | lain| sat| stood” data-def2=”to take or have a certain position within a group arranged in vertical classes|graded| placed| ranked| rated| stood” data-def3=”to take place|befallen| betided| chanced| come| come about| come down| come off| cooked| done| gone down
    | gone on| happed| happened| occurred| passed| transpired” data-similarity0=”0.36918086|0.44408607|0.28795847|0.4359974″ data-similarity1=”0.62735707|0.2089454|0.3066861|0.2343404″ data-similarity2=”0.18483609|0.3608744|0.34129244|0.54395396|0.2343404″ data-similarity3=”0.29652056|0.43721026|0.22858074|0.4518893|0.28689396|0.2627106|0.22724268|0.46535096|0.60187584|0.52829117|0.4888734|0.3545877|0.32232141|0.3031711|0.4713584|0.2836464″>been</span> weening off anti-depressants. This has caused <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”something that requires thought and skill for resolution|cases| challenges| knots| matters| nuts| troubles” data-def1=”an interrogative expression often used to test knowledge|interrogatives| questions” data-similarity0=”0.77937716|0.72098994|0.7432171|0.74220496|0.60287225|0.72150975″ data-similarity1=”0.6376294|0.7458705″>problems</span> in your <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a union representing a special kind of social and legal partnership between two people|conjugality| connubiality| match| matrimony| wedlock” data-def1=”a ceremony in which two people are united in matrimony|bridal| espousal| nuptial| wedding” data-similarity0=”0.5709605|0.5342815|0.5380236|0.5323778|0.40675426″ data-similarity1=”0.4773414|0.4643184|0.3013111|0.5231601″>marriage</span>, since you could n’t <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have a vague awareness of|perceive| scent| see| sense| smell| taste” data-def1=”to come into bodily contact with (something) so as to perceive a slight pressure on the skin|touch” data-def2=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| have| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def3=”to have as an opinion|allow
    | suppose| think” data-def4=”to search for something blindly or uncertainly|fish| fumble| grope| scrabble” data-def5=”to give the impression of being|act| appear| come across | look| make| seem| sound” data-similarity0=”0.39226034|0.20077631|0.4395999|0.42348745|0.24373348|0.26331496″ data-similarity1=”0.4534431″ data-similarity2=”0.58983386|0.3492471|0.5109205|0.54957783|0.46671292|0.4395999|0.5006732|0.53707093|0.26331496|0.48390222|0.24367726″ data-similarity3=”0.5323315|0.59271103|0.5880623″ data-similarity4=”0.30215886|0.2801043|0.35543332|0.33669582″ data-similarity5=”0.4597203|0.63469076|0.42263883|0.54204696|0.62348217|0.5387457|0.44665143″>feel</span> anything for anyone, <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have as part of a whole|carrying| comprehending| containing| embracing| encompassing| entailing| involving| numbering| subsuming| taking in” data-def1=”to close or shut in by or as if by barriers|boxing” data-similarity0=”0.7387416|0.68568546|0.7893709|0.65312976|0.7916409|0.7951722|0.86960244|0.52996755|0.6251206|0.6770205″ data-similarity1=”0.55425656″>including</span> your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span>. You <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”in like manner|alike| correspondingly| ditto| likewise| similarly| so” data-def1=”in addition to what has been said|additionally| again| besides| either| further| furthermore| likewise| more| moreover| then| too| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.52060735|0.61172634|0.06183403|0.57750356|0.6542806|0.5884269″ data-similarity1=”0.7258473|0.66463274|0.5195196|0.45960793|0.52125484|0.65516776|0.57750356|0.13984124|0.58813477|0.80898887|0.577774|0.11101177|0.60087377″>also</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|commanded| enjoyed| held| owned| possessed| retained” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accepted| took” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|birthed
    | bore| delivered| dropped| mothered| produced” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endured| experienced| felt| knew| passed| saw| suffered| sustained| tasted| underwent| witnessed” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allowed| green-lighted| permitted| suffered” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bought| bribed| corrupted| paid off| squared” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bore| cherished| entertained| harbored| held| nursed” data-similarity0=”0.5061153|0.4037662|0.41890258|0.40262425|0.45359161|0.35464668″ data-similarity1=”0.42591614|0.6918939″ data-similarity2=”0.43034056|0.5049443|0.39112064|0.6026897|0.4292973|0.528803″ data-similarity3=”0.47024918|0.4271314|0.5826796|0.52255416|0.59199715|0.5583188|0.43524513|0.42014974|0.4243604|0.5001563|0.45930684″ data-similarity4=”0.46321544|0.09826958|0.50472164|0.43524513″ data-similarity5=”0.5614424|0.430261|0.29208624|0.5235604|0.3882587″ data-similarity6=”0.5049443|0.44600633|0.4406932|0.25328964|0.41890258|0.43270123″>had</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to make markedly greater in measure or degree|accentuated| amped | boosted| consolidated| deepened| enhanced| intensified| magnified| redoubled| stepped up| strengthened” data-def1=”to move from a lower to a higher place or position|boosted| craned| elevated| heaved | picked up| raised| took up| upheld| uplifted| upped| upraised” data-similarity0=”0.70682544|0.6861872|0.76582164|0.7829024|0.7057138|0.6012031|0.76880324|0.77685386|0.6867681|0.53399795|0.7531324″ data-similarity1=”0.76582164|0.7719609|0.7315651|0.7379256|0.6528255|0.76803786|0.49139884|0.70576715|0.56078917|0.5055231|0.6133753″>heightened</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”an uneasy state of mind usually over the possibility of an anticipated misfortune or trouble|agita| agitation| anxiousness| apprehension| apprehensiveness| care| concern| concernment| disquiet| disquietude| fear| nervosity| nervousness| perturbation| solicitude| sweat| unease| uneasiness| worry” data-def1=”the emotion experienced in the presence or threat of danger|alarm | dread| fear| fearfulness| fright| horror| panic| scare| terror| trepidation” data-similarity0=”0.5505432|0.6308293|0.36417937|0.6490139|0.44981977|0.66583145|0.6902176|0.5277482|0.5338902|0.4053758|0.62994075|0.6726672|0.44181156|0.82466453|0.4473924|0.48240027|0.5269374|0.5946007|0.63215196″ data-similarity1=”0.5610645|0.53947693|0.62994075|0.717483|0.38296852|0.44545773|0.6601014|0.57500124|0.65739673|0.6776147″>anxiety</span>. You <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”at the present time|anymore| currently| nowadays| presently| right now| today” data-def1=”not long ago|freshly| just| late| lately| new| newly| only| recently” data-def2=”on some occasions|here and there| now and then| occasionally| sometimes” data-def3=”without delay|bang| directly| forthwith| headlong| immediately| incontinently| instantaneously| instanter| instantly| PDQ| plumb| presently| promptly| pronto| right| right away| right now| right off| straight off| straightaway| straightway” data-similarity0=”0.65492624|0.55951405|0.6758058|0.68887347|0.4209319|0.04372648″ data-similarity1=”0.71749574|0.70176685|0.48377764|0.6689839|0.31579673|0.609196|0.68712246|0.61407816″ data-similarity2=”0.67850477|1.0|0.7086681|0.70129466″ data-similarity3=”0.084057406|0.7301406|0.12133361|0.4576367|0.70274|0.67665726|0.4386271|0.29383293|0.71017367|0.35609007|0.038434263|0.68887347|0.6665674|0.42094183|0.5152251|0.4072388|0.4209319|0.42953715|0.45093688|0.19767316|0.4516114″>now</span> can <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have a vague awareness of|perceive| scent| see| sense| smell| taste” data-def1=”to come into bodily contact with (something) so as to perceive a slight pressure on the skin|touch” data-def2=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| have| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def3=”to have as an opinion|allow
    | suppose| think” data-def4=”to search for something blindly or uncertainly|fish| fumble| grope| scrabble” data-def5=”to give the impression of being|act| appear| come across | look| make| seem| sound” data-similarity0=”0.39226034|0.20077631|0.4395999|0.42348745|0.24373348|0.26331496″ data-similarity1=”0.4534431″ data-similarity2=”0.58983386|0.3492471|0.5109205|0.54957783|0.46671292|0.4395999|0.5006732|0.53707093|0.26331496|0.48390222|0.24367726″ data-similarity3=”0.5323315|0.59271103|0.5880623″ data-similarity4=”0.30215886|0.2801043|0.35543332|0.33669582″ data-similarity5=”0.4597203|0.63469076|0.42263883|0.54204696|0.62348217|0.5387457|0.44665143″>feel</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”yet another time|afresh| anew| de novo| over” data-def1=”in addition to what has been said|additionally| also| besides| either| further| furthermore| likewise| more| moreover| then| too| withal| yet” data-def2=”just the opposite being true|contrarily| contrariwise| conversely” data-similarity0=”0.4018543|0.5696282|0.048691683|0.44144776″ data-similarity1=”0.7599815|0.69492114|0.45228124|0.48698735|0.47938082|0.5650961|0.6089787|0.06177156|0.5808852|0.7367311|0.7788297|0.18182263|0.73035747″ data-similarity2=”0.47823343|0.27254227|0.67893535″>again</span> and the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a piece of conveyed information|dispatch| message” data-def1=”the state or fact of being able to exchange information regarding one’s current situation|contact| hold| touch” data-similarity0=”0.578987|0.7290549″ data-similarity1=”0.60021657|0.52266663|0.5515744″>communication</span> with your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span> has <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to make better|ameliorated| amended| bettered| enhanced| enriched| helped| meliorated| perfected| refined| upgraded” data-similarity0=”0.76308525|0.64383954|0.7903446|0.69685954|0.5941892|0.58540547|0.7571736|0.767609|0.6925297|0.6258326″>bettered</span> in the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”following all others of the same kind in order or time|bottommost| closing| concluding| final| hindmost| lag| latest| latter| rearmost| terminal| terminating| ultimate” data-def1=”serving to put an end to all debate or questioning|absolute| clear| conclusive| deciding| decisive| definitive” data-def2=”of the greatest or highest degree or quantity|consummate| max| maximum| most| nth| outside| paramount| supreme| top| ultimate| utmost| uttermost” data-similarity0=”0.30129626|0.22896709|0.25016823|0.5892545|0.34036502|0.15662327|0.35671252|0.5284853|0.27721205|0.5213991|0.26312977|0.56164443″ data-similarity1=”0.5739681|0.6043051|0.6548682|0.13763209|0.5719341|0.6160517″ data-similarity2=”0.328443|0.13612486|0.5132775|0.22114745|0.424154|0.4642904|0.38633454|0.2299754|0.53162014|0.56164443|0.33119106|0.30257118″>last</span> 3- 4 months.
    You <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|command| enjoy| hold| own| possess| retain” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accept| take” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|bear| birth
    | deliver| drop| mother| produce” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allow| green-light| permit| suffer” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bribe| buy| corrupt| pay off| square” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bear| cherish| entertain| harbor| hold| nurse” data-similarity0=”0.37033293|0.63254654|0.4846794|0.49477968|0.48502964|0.4689027″ data-similarity1=”0.5757953|0.67496127″ data-similarity2=”0.51549786|0.33179203|0.628725|0.47881454|0.06469364|0.6538373″ data-similarity3=”0.5467805|0.12624112|0.5109205|0.6489529|0.54828876|0.577937|0.48586315|0.49280608|0.25963894|0.6593666|0.18551242″ data-similarity4=”0.73469186|0.116330236|0.4359961|0.48586315″ data-similarity5=”0.47803396|0.52414054|0.40294537|0.3568967|0.23286778″ data-similarity6=”0.51549786|0.48792073|0.50952613|0.52208257|0.4846794|0.27373222″>have</span> n’t <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to give an oral or written account of in some detail|charted| chronicled| described| narrated| recited| recounted| rehearsed| related| reported” data-def1=”to express (a thought or emotion) in words|articulated| brought out| enunciated| passed| said| spoke| stated| talked| uttered| verbalized| vocalized” data-def2=”to find the sum of (a collection of things) by noting each one as it is being added|counted| enumerated| numbered” data-def3=”to give information to|acquainted| advised| apprised| briefed| caught up| cleared| clued” data-def4=”to issue orders to (someone) by right of authority|adjured| bade | charged| commanded| directed| enjoined| instructed| ordered” data-def5=”to make known (as information previously kept secret)|bared| disclosed| discovered| divulged| exposed| let on | unbosomed| uncloaked| uncovered| unmasked| unveiled” data-similarity0=”0.6686102|0.6120703|0.78322834|0.7224447|0.6509871|0.8566067|0.70465523|0.37224993|0.8379319″ data-similarity1=”0.5744355|0.6325181|0.75522715|0.7076497|0.7022747|0.7465185|0.82104576|0.6157486|0.58828855|0.7519822|0.64015406″ data-similarity2=”0.784958|0.71387887|0.6400919″ data-similarity3=”0.55282253|0.8512803|0.82522565|0.69179994|0.5235055|0.6764033|0.699055″ data-similarity4=”0.7992389|0.3264867|0.7671103|0.8435309|0.7079344|0.716291|0.71457297|0.82832426″ data-similarity5=”0.38225582|0.8605377|0.7523169|0.66347647|0.7358398|0.4504891|0.35481265|0.46942326|0.7131158|0.46468055|0.7254787″>told</span> your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span> that you were weening offanti-depressants, which you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”at the present time|anymore| currently| nowadays| presently| right now| today” data-def1=”not long ago|freshly| just| late| lately| new| newly| only| recently” data-def2=”on some occasions|here and there| now and then| occasionally| sometimes” data-def3=”without delay|bang| directly| forthwith| headlong| immediately| incontinently| instantaneously| instanter| instantly| PDQ| plumb| presently| promptly| pronto| right| right away| right now| right off| straight off| straightaway| straightway” data-similarity0=”0.65492624|0.55951405|0.6758058|0.68887347|0.4209319|0.04372648″ data-similarity1=”0.71749574|0.70176685|0.48377764|0.6689839|0.31579673|0.609196|0.68712246|0.61407816″ data-similarity2=”0.67850477|1.0|0.7086681|0.70129466″ data-similarity3=”0.084057406|0.7301406|0.12133361|0.4576367|0.70274|0.67665726|0.4386271|0.29383293|0.71017367|0.35609007|0.038434263|0.68887347|0.6665674|0.42094183|0.5152251|0.4072388|0.4209319|0.42953715|0.45093688|0.19767316|0.4516114″>now</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| have| know| pass| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def1=”to come to an awareness of|ascertain| catch on” data-def2=”to have a vague awareness of|feel| perceive| scent| sense| smell| taste” data-def3=”to make note of (something) through the use of one’s eyes|behold| catch| descry| discern| distinguish| espy| eye| look | note| notice| observe| perceive| regard| remark| sight| spot| spy| view| witness” data-def4=”to make a social call upon|call | visit” data-def5=”to go along with in order to provide assistance, protection, or companionship|accompany| attend| chaperone | companion| company| convoy| escort| squire” data-def6=”to form a mental picture of|conceit
    | conceive| conjure | dream| envisage| envision| fancy| fantasize| fantasy| feature| ideate| image| imagine| picture| vision| visualize” data-similarity0=”0.48355895|0.29975724|0.42646462|0.41937733|0.660116|0.4268855|0.46845844|0.4548357|0.41701803|0.52114314|0.15594782″ data-similarity1=”0.31677216|0.30832416″ data-similarity2=”0.42646462|0.35392034|0.1985379|0.35987347|0.34532288|0.41701803″ data-similarity3=”0.37400782|0.488031|0.5178358|0.38106537|0.51163924|0.39697155|0.28114134|0.55636847|0.47811848|0.43863952|0.5071057|0.35392034|0.26942867|0.3269459|0.21293971|0.4361116|0.38047844|0.3702355|0.15594782″ data-similarity4=”0.47683236|0.3706494″ data-similarity5=”0.32441992|0.52607536|0.3807812|0.18129909|0.26470488|0.17311661|0.27452487|0.3825907″ data-similarity6=”0.4248775|0.5280431|0.36874843|0.39396623|0.27229372|0.2710661|0.2857224|0.39750442|0.30024424|0.3671539|0.37948725|0.31599608|0.573284|0.4597878|0.2509445|0.43941593″>see</span> as a <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”having great meaning or lasting effect|consequential| earth-shattering| earthshaking| eventful| historic| important| major| material| meaningful| momentous| monumental| much| significant| substantial| tectonic| weighty” data-def1=”of a size greater than average of its kind|biggish| boxcar| bulky| considerable| goodly| grand| great| handsome| hefty| hulking| husky| large| largish| outsize | substantial| tidy| voluminous” data-def2=”having, characterized by, or arising from a dignified and generous nature|chivalrous| elevated| gallant| great| greathearted| high| high-minded| lofty| lordly| magnanimous| natural| noble| sublime” data-def3=”having an abundance of some characteristic quality (as flavor)|concentrated| full| full-bodied| heady| lusty| muscular| plush| potent| rich| robust| strong” data-def4=”enjoying widespread favor or approval|crowd-pleasing| du jour| faddish| faddy| fashionable| favorite| happening| hot| in| large| modish| pop| popular| popularized| red-hot| vogue| voguish” data-def5=”containing unborn young within the body|caught| enceinte| expectant| expecting| gone| gravid| heavy| pregnant| quick” data-similarity0=”0.703222|0.44156823|0.41008484|0.6163448|0.68209225|0.7771931|0.7252088|0.4914619|0.60676754|0.6906275|0.81914663|0.700369|0.69360316|0.76613027|0.6752326|0.6478683″ data-similarity1=”0.6165575|0.44678336|0.5364184|0.64323854|0.66940504|0.71842|0.76541615|0.7086036|0.70764565|0.45400015|0.6875622|0.6904022|0.5785803|0.40877402|0.76613027|0.61666524|0.6920398″ data-similarity2=”0.6730689|0.5934734|0.73746836|0.76541615|0.36868703|0.77650356|0.5569669|0.551971|0.60129344|0.74812335|0.67451954|0.7201599|0.68488747″ data-similarity3=”0.5146911|0.67294884|0.5101514|0.6675172|0.6701427|0.7052598|0.65342855|0.71804214|0.773966|0.63282996|0.70071495″ data-similarity4=”0.3944235|0.18528931|0.6331483|0.50388575|0.673794|0.7328479|0.36623177|0.8028325|0.25102854|0.6904022|0.55346686|0.38999164|0.7172362|0.439457|0.52688766|0.3114023|0.5290677″ data-similarity5=”0.39401332|0.62166846|0.5951377|0.30227557|0.2692148|0.58452755|0.7815907|0.5560574|0.70677644″>big</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a wrong judgment|misapprehension| miscalculation| misjudging| misjudgment| misstep| slip| slipup” data-def1=”an unintentional departure from truth or accuracy|blunder| bobble| boo-boo| boob
    | clinker| error| fault| flub| fluff| fumble| gaff| gaffe| goof| inaccuracy| lapse| miscue| misstep| oversight| screwup| slip| slipup| stumble| trip” data-similarity0=”0.6207063|0.42742643|0.35566828|0.5217695|0.6073469|0.5193042|0.47267216″ data-similarity1=”0.65295917|0.5225255|0.36139053|0.57392514|0.56758696|0.5598826|0.6321719|0.58477354|0.5066593|0.2669503|0.45269105|0.5790404|0.6005706|0.61378807|0.4213279|0.6599845|0.6073469|0.443777|0.53309906|0.5193042|0.47267216|0.55708885|0.63147205″>mistake</span> because it would <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to keep, control, or experience as one’s own|command| enjoy| hold| own| possess| retain” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accept| take” data-def2=”to bring forth from the womb|bear| birth
    | deliver| drop| mother| produce” data-def3=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def4=”to give permission for or to approve of|allow| green-light| permit| suffer” data-def5=”to influence someone with a bribe|bribe| buy| corrupt| pay off| square” data-def6=”to keep in one’s mind or heart|bear| cherish| entertain| harbor| hold| nurse” data-similarity0=”0.37033293|0.63254654|0.4846794|0.49477968|0.48502964|0.4689027″ data-similarity1=”0.5757953|0.67496127″ data-similarity2=”0.51549786|0.33179203|0.628725|0.47881454|0.06469364|0.6538373″ data-similarity3=”0.5467805|0.12624112|0.5109205|0.6489529|0.54828876|0.577937|0.48586315|0.49280608|0.25963894|0.6593666|0.18551242″ data-similarity4=”0.73469186|0.116330236|0.4359961|0.48586315″ data-similarity5=”0.47803396|0.52414054|0.40294537|0.3568967|0.23286778″ data-similarity6=”0.51549786|0.48792073|0.50952613|0.52208257|0.4846794|0.27373222″>have</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to make plain or understandable|clarified| cleared | construed| demonstrated| demystified| elucidated| explicated| expounded| got across| illuminated| illustrated| interpreted| simplified| spelled out| unriddled” data-def1=”to give the reason for or cause of|accounted | attributed| explained away| rationalized” data-similarity0=”0.73388493|0.76633495|0.7452873|0.7370873|0.69644254|0.76351744|0.7559546|0.70366603|0.61886376|0.8001649|0.6884975|0.74920195|0.6964953|0.70563364|0.56525654″ data-similarity1=”0.79223245|0.77925897|1.0|0.6986607″>explained</span> your <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”lacking money or material possessions|beggared| beggarly| broke| destitute| dirt-poor| down-and-out| famished| hard up| impecunious| impoverished| indigent| necessitous| needful| needy| pauperized| penniless| penurious| poverty-stricken| skint
    | threadbare” data-def1=”producing inferior or only a small amount of vegetation|barren| bony | dead| desolate| hardscrabble| impoverished| infertile| stark| unfertile| unproductive| waste” data-def2=”less plentiful than what is normal, necessary, or desirable|exiguous| hand-to-mouth| light| meager | niggardly| scant| scanty| scarce| skimp| skimpy| slender| slim| spare| sparing| sparse| stingy” data-def3=”falling short of a standard|bad| bastard| bush| bush-league| crummy | deficient| dissatisfactory| ill| inferior| lame| lousy| off| paltry| punk| sour| suboptimal| subpar| substandard| unacceptable| unsatisfactory| wack
    | wanting| wretched| wrong” data-def4=”deserving of one’s pity|heartbreaking| heartrending| miserable| pathetic| piteous| pitiable| pitiful| rueful| sorry| wretched” data-similarity0=”0.48589137|0.5598203|0.4281267|0.4161352|0.31883654|0.39929923|0.5888886|0.54833984|0.68586135|0.5088288|0.60681975|0.72656083|0.7084585|0.40831706|0.28463027|0.66268605|0.76329607|0.34030452|0.40154094|0.25127757″ data-similarity1=”0.45617265|0.36646506|0.65998006|0.64793724|0.72146887|0.5088288|0.63012636|0.56359494|0.47949106|0.63965875|0.3816863″ data-similarity2=”0.5883769|0.3003195|0.5971391|0.60145044|0.5567544|0.48402148|0.4083759|0.5563753|0.5383144|0.55548257|0.3720679|0.60920554|0.58000535|0.21596739|0.51328254|0.51848376″ data-similarity3=”0.6807979|0.5441861|0.39438054|0.3245706|0.33262736|0.67981464|0.5328671|0.51754606|0.6396019|0.5111446|0.5451816|0.36644655|0.5110357|0.4087092|0.6287721|0.57601166|0.21857814|0.5677265|0.64828616|0.60223913|0.53617644|0.24428184|0.49207273|0.6541685″ data-similarity4=”0.34745723|0.23077337|0.6369511|0.67333764|0.6742434|0.6633147|0.61573076|0.63602346|0.58183604|0.49207273″>poor</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”the way or manner in which one conducts oneself|actions| address| bearing| comportment| conduct| demeanor| deportment| geste” data-similarity0=”0.26262766|0.67878234|0.51132643|0.5327273|0.60122186|0.61104715|0.62756616|0.7399966″>geste </span>. Does your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”at the present time|anymore| currently| nowadays| presently| right now| today” data-def1=”not long ago|freshly| just| late| lately| new| newly| only| recently” data-def2=”on some occasions|here and there| now and then| occasionally| sometimes” data-def3=”without delay|bang| directly| forthwith| headlong| immediately| incontinently| instantaneously| instanter| instantly| PDQ| plumb| presently| promptly| pronto| right| right away| right now| right off| straight off| straightaway| straightway” data-similarity0=”0.65492624|0.55951405|0.6758058|0.68887347|0.4209319|0.04372648″ data-similarity1=”0.71749574|0.70176685|0.48377764|0.6689839|0.31579673|0.609196|0.68712246|0.61407816″ data-similarity2=”0.67850477|1.0|0.7086681|0.70129466″ data-similarity3=”0.084057406|0.7301406|0.12133361|0.4576367|0.70274|0.67665726|0.4386271|0.29383293|0.71017367|0.35609007|0.038434263|0.68887347|0.6665674|0.42094183|0.5152251|0.4072388|0.4209319|0.42953715|0.45093688|0.19767316|0.4516114″>now</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| feel| have| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def1=”to have a practical understanding of|comprehend| grasp| understand” data-similarity0=”0.62951833|0.3788832|0.54957783|0.6489529|0.4861386|0.756625|0.5174065|0.53686345|0.48782966|0.63918626|0.24185036″ data-similarity1=”0.7042502|0.59524995|0.7224185″>know</span> that you ’re <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”not in any degree, way, or under any condition|never| none| nothing| noway | nowise” data-def1=”certainly not|hardly| ill| none| noway | scarcely” data-similarity0=”0.40312245|0.3698212|0.2689344|0.49885228|0.26593068″ data-similarity1=”0.35497198|0.21685322|0.3698212|0.49885228|0.15443972″>no</span> longer <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to reach for and take hold of by embracing with the fingers or arms|clasping| grasping| gripping| holding” data-def1=”to agree to receive whether willingly or reluctantly|accepting| having” data-def2=”to become affected with (a disease or disorder)|catching| coming down” data-def3=”to decide to accept (someone or something) from a group of possibilities|cherry-picking| choosing| culling| electing| handpicking| naming| opting | tagging” data-def4=”to get possession of (something) by giving money in exchange for|buying| copping
    | picking up| purchasing” data-def5=”to have as a requirement|bearing| challenging| claiming| demanding| necessitating| needing| requiring| wanting| warranting” data-def6=”to make or have room for|accommodating| fitting| holding” data-def7=”to produce a desired effect|acting| operating| performing| working” data-def8=”to regard as right or true|accepting| believing| buying| crediting| swallowing| trusting” data-def9=”to deal with (something) usually skillfully or efficiently|addressing| contending | hacking| handling| managing| maneuvering| manipulating| negotiating| playing| swinging| treating” data-def10=”to offer entrance (as to a place, school, or privilege) to|admitting| entering| receiving” data-def11=”to deprive of life|carrying off| claiming| croaking
    | destroying| dispatching| doing in| felling| killing| slaying” data-similarity0=”0.74900883|0.78103995|0.6907437|0.7973595″ data-similarity1=”0.8208536|0.7186558″ data-similarity2=”0.73991895|0.6767496″ data-similarity3=”0.30479094|0.67698544|0.67917544|0.7807931|0.7183933|0.7085484|0.7081969|0.7387654″ data-similarity4=”0.7551104|0.73190314|0.6742842|0.7496109″ data-similarity5=”0.69104093|0.7112793|0.7501712|0.73408777|0.63403594|0.7086233|0.8270347|0.7030635|0.67637205″ data-similarity6=”0.7654083|0.6175081|0.7973595″ data-similarity7=”0.72301126|0.7212985|0.8359154|0.70224047″ data-similarity8=”0.8208536|0.77509916|0.7551104|0.7069912|0.80644476|0.83472246″ data-similarity9=”0.78449655|0.77905256|0.70915985|0.6990915|0.7421679|0.7155028|0.8136577|0.70442843|0.7503786|0.7327628|0.78899246″ data-similarity10=”0.77997375|0.7907632|0.79839504″ data-similarity11=”0.70871806|0.7501712|0.75076723|0.7783275|0.75012374|0.72419167|0.7500726|0.75882506|0.68848217″>taking</span>anti-depressants? Does he <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to promote the interests or cause of|advocate| back| champion| endorse” data-def1=”to pay the living expenses of|keep| maintain| provide” data-def2=”to hold up or serve as a foundation for|bear| bolster| brace| buttress| carry| prop | stay| sustain| undergird| underpin| uphold” data-def3=”to provide evidence or information for (as a claim or idea)|back| bolster| buttress| corroborate| reinforce | substantiate” data-def4=”to continue to declare to be true or proper despite opposition or objections|defend| justify| maintain| uphold” data-def5=”to give evidence or testimony to the truth or factualness of|argue| attest| authenticate| bear out| certify| confirm| corroborate| substantiate| validate| verify| vindicate” data-def6=”to provide (someone) with what is useful or necessary to achieve an end|abet| aid| assist| back| backstop| help| prop” data-def7=”to put up with (something painful or difficult)|abide| absorb| accept| bear| bide” data-similarity0=”0.473746|0.29049087|0.534038|0.44799864″ data-similarity1=”0.3145593|0.45127907|0.41440976″ data-similarity2=”0.5375596|0.4827395|0.71427274|0.6198862|0.48446405|0.590312|0.35000807|0.6303577|0.30539575|0.40699175|0.39718562″ data-similarity3=”0.29049087|0.4827395|0.6198862|0.50400275|0.56544095|0.3515233″ data-similarity4=”0.58381796|0.43798736|0.45127907|0.39718562″ data-similarity5=”0.5038984|0.3690828|0.43565112|0.40100288|0.5738698|0.29347804|0.50400275|0.3515233|0.48966384|0.43421575|0.47926486″ data-similarity6=”0.29334956|0.6056891|0.51386136|0.29049087|0.54679215|0.67694163|0.590312″ data-similarity7=”0.5720978|0.59589654|0.46025628|0.5375596|0.29731137″>support</span> you in that <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a position arrived at after consideration|award| call| conclusion| deliverance| determination| diagnosis| judgment | opinion| resolution| verdict” data-def1=”firm or unwavering adherence to one’s purpose|decidedness| decisiveness| determination| determinedness| firmness| granite| purposefulness| resoluteness| resolution| resolve| stick-to-itiveness” data-similarity0=”0.5833034|0.5123848|0.7493279|0.7447008|0.7126183|0.60883147|0.6198468|0.7201242|0.75535554|0.6167468″ data-similarity1=”0.46753955|0.6297461|0.7126183|0.43822902|0.47192338|0.52235866|0.49132195|0.68868405|0.75535554|0.47025567|0.5350794″>decision</span>?

    You <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”without motion|motionlessly| quiet| quietly” data-def1=”in spite of that|even so| howbeit| however| nevertheless| nonetheless| notwithstanding| still and all| though| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.5646021|0.15819858|0.69678384″ data-similarity1=”0.57004786|0.14677101|0.6321039|0.6035392|0.56300193|0.34111476|0.70165724|0.23014233|0.13944037|0.59393317″>still</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to utter one’s distinctive animal sound|call| sing” data-def1=”to speak so as to be heard at a distance|bawl| bay| bellow| call| holler| hollo | roar| shout| sound off| thunder| vociferate| yell” data-def2=”to shed tears often while making meaningless sounds as a sign of pain or distress|bawl| blub
    | blubber| sob| weep” data-similarity0=”0.43975326|0.4973243″ data-similarity1=”0.49558708|0.6477886|0.326227|0.43975326|0.52591616|0.58820474|0.5596003|0.5176277|0.29962188|0.5834836|0.44651386|0.41141063″ data-similarity2=”0.49558708|0.4990891|0.51703084|0.66611886|0.47707084″>cry</span> when <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to have as an opinion|allowing|supposing” data-similarity0=”0.7195947|0.65894526″>allowing</span> about your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a female human parent|ma| mama | mammy| mater
    | mom| mommy| old lady” data-similarity0=”0.35531166|0.5720654|0.31048292|0.3417664|0.5179735|0.38908067|0.21158738″>mama </span>, <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”not merely this but also|indeed| nay| truly| verily| yea” data-similarity0=”0.6150611|0.026889095|0.59825575|0.47090036|0.0057739606″>indeed</span> if she <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to stop functioning|broke| broke down| conked | crashed| cut out| failed| gave out| stalled” data-similarity0=”0.6660293|0.6026645|0.80481744|0.78056103|0.43247485|0.82411325|0.6953871|0.70319885″>failed</span> 20 <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”earlier than the present time|agone” data-similarity0=”0.29198888″>alone </span>. This tells me that the <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in injury|injury|abrasion|score|scrape|scratch|crack|fracture|rupture|snag|gash|incision|laceration|rent|rip|slash|slit|tear” data-similarity0=”0.33109853|0.3228943|0.62507135|0.5643171|0.46615836|0.7069326|0.6884269|0.3607093|0.2920725|0.4363454|0.272434|0.26068738|0.6410846|0.57467514|0.6603403|0.6733437|0.53304815″>crack</span> is <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”without motion|motionlessly| quiet| quietly” data-def1=”in spite of that|even so| howbeit| however| nevertheless| nonetheless| notwithstanding| still and all| though| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.5646021|0.15819858|0.69678384″ data-similarity1=”0.57004786|0.14677101|0.6321039|0.6035392|0.56300193|0.34111476|0.70165724|0.23014233|0.13944037|0.59393317″>still</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”not cooked|uncooked” data-def1=”being such as found in nature and not altered by processing or refining|crude| native| natural| rude| undressed| unprocessed| unrefined| untreated” data-def2=”lacking in adult experience or maturity|adolescent| callow| green| immature| inexperienced| juvenile| puerile| unfledged| unformed| unripe| unripened” data-def3=”marked by wet and windy conditions|bleak| dirty| foul| inclement| nasty| rough| squally| stormy| tempestuous| turbulent” data-def4=”uncomfortably cool|bitter| bleak| chill| chilling| chilly| nipping| nippy| sharp” data-def5=”causing intense discomfort to one’s skin|biting| bitter| cutting| keen| penetrating| piercing| sharp| shrewd| smarting| stinging” data-def6=”showing no signs of being under control|abandoned| intemperate| rampant| runaway| unbounded| unbridled| unchecked| uncontrolled| unhampered| unhindered| unrestrained” data-def7=”lacking or shed of clothing|au naturel| bare| bottomless| disrobed| mother-naked| naked| nude| starkers
    | stripped| unclad| unclothed| undressed” data-similarity0=”0.59532225″ data-similarity1=”0.74598736|0.7113424|0.68766195|0.66551757|0.6372668|0.5021745|0.55278355|0.65885365″ data-similarity2=”0.64426893|0.54290503|0.68230206|0.57241255|0.59641886|0.61916834|0.66209334|0.670024|0.73633|0.69849384|0.6391222″ data-similarity3=”0.55232745|0.6810844|0.6108256|0.6833035|0.73562825|0.7025513|0.17248724|0.6556174|0.7899859|0.5045449″ data-similarity4=”0.72450686|0.55232745|0.49582925|0.4926122|0.58898926|0.46830767|0.57087064|0.6765476″ data-similarity5=”0.4601421|0.72450686|0.44435284|0.57357657|0.38317809|0.46504292|0.6765476|0.5795753|0.4266392|0.5492409″ data-similarity6=”0.36133784|0.48895046|0.60562974|0.6118364|0.6198906|0.59824574|0.5950918|0.5690245|0.49084124|0.74790007|0.6003652″ data-similarity7=”0.18505162|0.6062665|0.6618204|0.5913333|0.2733397|0.69227344|0.7239795|0.43641132|0.360481|0.29803312|0.55319744|0.6372668″>raw</span>. I <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to have as an opinion|allow
    | suppose” data-similarity0=”0.7393266|0.89816475″>suppose</span> it’s because a <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”something belonging to, due to, or contributed by an individual member of a group|allotment| allowance| cut| end| piece| portion| proportion| quota| share| slice| take” data-def1=”the action for which a person or thing is specially fitted or used or for which a thing exists|business| capacity| function| job| place| position| purpose| role | task| work” data-def2=”a broad geographical area|belt| corridor| land| neck| region| tract| zone” data-def3=”one of the pieces from which something is designed to be assembled|member| partition| portion| section| segment” data-similarity0=”0.53086793|0.53549373|0.412574|0.5016577|0.46229717|0.7531288|0.6419783|0.5751777|0.5101819|0.44487053|0.25396353″ data-similarity1=”0.5459352|0.6010444|0.6010851|0.49085444|0.64678353|0.7121576|0.53294796|0.7211738|0.51994944|0.43303597″ data-similarity2=”0.6337371|0.50683576|0.61606437|0.596163|0.5998862|0.56296676|0.67160606″ data-similarity3=”0.35882965|0.6950427|0.7531288|0.5665426|0.5314479″>part</span> of you( the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a young person who is between infancy and adulthood|bairn
    | chick| cub| juvenile| kid| kiddie | kiddo| moppet| sprat| sprout| squirt| whelp| youngling| youngster| youth” data-def1=”a recently born person|babe| baby| bambino| infant| neonate| newborn” data-def2=”a condition or occurrence traceable to a cause|aftereffect| aftermath| backwash| conclusion| consequence| corollary| development| effect| fate| fruit| issue| outcome| outgrowth| precipitate| product| result| resultant| sequel| sequence| upshot” data-similarity0=”0.43252853|0.50956887|0.44693485|0.5128454|0.5847733|0.36599523|0.49532968|0.5857062|0.66907644|0.2561565|0.40761873|0.56253755|0.4044612|0.6115145|0.6305262″ data-similarity1=”0.3892419|0.58642846|0.5398486|0.61034334|0.5368389|0.19795316″ data-similarity2=”0.57148176|0.45102322|0.3368393|0.58148795|0.5818181|0.38527685|0.59977657|0.6758338|0.5777768|0.59907293|0.5944288|0.55953854|0.49587852|0.4551569|0.6479239|0.56208354|0.4616717|0.5937824|0.71100974|0.6048051″>child</span> and teenager that you were) <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”without motion|motionlessly| quiet| quietly” data-def1=”in spite of that|even so| howbeit| however| nevertheless| nonetheless| notwithstanding| still and all| though| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.5646021|0.15819858|0.69678384″ data-similarity1=”0.57004786|0.14677101|0.6321039|0.6035392|0.56300193|0.34111476|0.70165724|0.23014233|0.13944037|0.59393317″>still</span> feels <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”lacking protection from danger or resistance against attack|defenseless| exposed| susceptible| undefended| unguarded| unprotected| unresistant| vulnerable” data-def1=”unable to act or achieve one’s purpose|hamstrung| handcuffed| high and dry| hog-tied| impotent| impuissant| paralyzed| powerless| weak” data-similarity0=”0.76462984|0.19877946|0.62316006|0.52338165|0.2856483|0.4634458|0.6576812|0.7021562″ data-similarity1=”0.59256333|0.40354735|0.59945357|0.27148002|0.595161|0.69016|0.35447302|0.71484274|0.6301692″>helpless</span> and <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”filled with fear or dread|affrighted| afraid| aghast| alarmed| fearful| frightened| horror-struck| hysterical | scared| scary| shocked| spooked| terrified| terrorized” data-similarity0=”0.8088771|0.5767427|0.3502314|0.718|0.54646105|0.73166996|0.13600104|0.5664819|0.67817|0.43499655|0.5994298|0.7073103|0.7265523|0.7557407″>affrighted</span> at the <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a careful weighing of the reasons for or against something|account| advisement| consideration| debate| deliberation| reflection| study” data-similarity0=”0.23026367|0.178916|0.1805091|0.22983469|0.23912789|0.3288103|0.36425218″>study</span> of <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have a home|abiding| dwelling| residing” data-def1=”to have life|being| breathing| existing| subsisting” data-similarity0=”0.74893415|0.67541754|0.69294107″ data-similarity1=”0.721548|0.718781|0.66679454|0.54235125″>living</span> without your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a female human parent|ma| mama | mammy| mater
    | mom| mommy| old lady” data-similarity0=”0.35531166|0.5720654|0.31048292|0.3417664|0.5179735|0.38908067|0.21158738″>mama </span>’s <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”means or method of defending|aegis | ammunition| armor| buckler| cover| defense| guard| safeguard| screen| security| shield| wall| ward” data-def1=”someone that protects|custodian| defender| guard| guardian| guardian angel| protector” data-def2=”the state of not being exposed to danger|safeness| safety| security” data-similarity0=”0.35028228|0.56084585|0.44400302|0.40482193|0.49279693|0.5974475|0.42096016|0.3942393|0.53279185|0.59956175|0.4986831|0.5210203|0.32074776″ data-similarity1=”0.37570137|0.4628423|0.42096016|0.5320757|0.34904373|0.5708002″ data-similarity2=”0.48507512|0.5482907|0.59956175″>protection</span>, <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”not being in the company of others|lone| lonely| lonesome| single| solitary| solo| unaccompanied” data-def1=”being the one or ones of a class with no other members|lone| one| one-off| only| singular| sole| solitary| special| sui generis| unique” data-similarity0=”0.5160343|0.5716744|0.3496107|0.5203377|0.3635018|0.29059023|0.51188123″ data-similarity1=”0.5160343|0.237178|-0.029656714|0.6585655|0.4379266|0.50544274|0.3635018|0.51432157|0.07999135|0.58119315″>alone</span> with your <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a male human parent|dad| daddy| old man| pa| papa | pater
    | pop| sire” data-def1=”a person who establishes a whole new field of endeavor|author| begetter| creator| establisher| founder| founding father| generator| inaugurator| initiator| instituter | originator| sire” data-def2=”a person who is several generations earlier in an individual’s line of descent|ancestor| forebear | forebearer| forefather| grandfather| primogenitor| progenitor” data-def3=”the being worshipped as the creator and ruler of the universe|Allah| Almighty| Author| Creator| deity| Divinity| Eternal| Everlasting| God| Godhead| Jehovah| King| Lord| Maker| Providence| Supreme Being| Yahweh” data-similarity0=”0.584694|0.3309921|0.30615914|0.58318895|0.47337148|0.43697843|0.4745528|0.5702369″ data-similarity1=”0.464334|0.36670154|0.588825|0.44942424|0.545214|0.266337|0.62135524|0.48728487|0.53622884|0.46342555|0.5117163|0.5702369″ data-similarity2=”0.55211425|0.5986125|0.3387145|0.5930223|0.5788563|0.5698593|0.42595133″ data-similarity3=”0.6821052|0.5923812|0.6243043|0.6916262|0.56466085|0.73463523|0.52483255|0.5656044|0.6716653|0.43925712|0.595379|0.7280974|0.73472965|0.6646199|0.73165923|0.64936805|0.70832187″>father</span>, in an <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”the circumstances, conditions, or objects by which one is surrounded|ambient| atmosphere| climate| clime| context| contexture| environs| medium| milieu| mise-en-scène| setting| surround| surroundings| terrain” data-similarity0=”0.5097579|0.5437314|0.6721303|0.5927589|0.56976205|0.69259393|0.34592324|0.6182967|0.6326462|0.330804|0.54560256|0.5908221|0.38054758|0.7326477″>terrain</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”containing or seeming to contain the greatest quantity or number possible|brimful| brimming| bursting| chockablock| chock-full | crammed| crowded| fat| filled| jammed| jam-packed| loaded| packed| stuffed” data-def1=”of the highest degree|greatest| maximum| top| topmost| utmost| utter” data-def2=”having one’s appetite completely satisfied|replete| sated| satiate| satiated| stuffed| surfeited” data-def3=”having an abundance of some characteristic quality (as flavor)|big| concentrated| full-bodied| heady| lusty| muscular| plush| potent| rich| robust| strong” data-def4=”having an excess of body fat|blubbery| chubby| corpulent| fat| fleshy| gross| lardy| obese| overweight| plump| podgy
    | portly| pudgy| replete| roly-poly| rotund| round| tubby” data-def5=”including many small descriptive features|blow-by-blow| circumstantial| detailed| elaborate| minute| particular| particularized| thorough” data-def6=”not lacking any part or member that properly belongs to it|compleat| complete| comprehensive| entire| grand| intact| integral| perfect| plenary| total| whole” data-similarity0=”0.62473804|0.20150426|0.3009535|0.34815186|0.35705405|0.4763375|0.49238536|0.5057863|0.499864|0.39557394|0.3080165|0.46475238|0.34979522|0.24968214″ data-similarity1=”0.22572468|0.54265404|0.5011722|0.32079408|0.42478824|0.5667262″ data-similarity2=”0.57650405|0.4410017|0.260504|0.35815373|0.24968214|0.3525517″ data-similarity3=”0.67294884|0.46720076|1.0|0.46644002|0.48761827|0.56420517|0.517721|0.5286638|0.6931983|0.63334507|0.6843323″ data-similarity4=”0.4064071|0.38224456|0.51536703|0.5057863|0.41778094|0.67019016|0.5043684|0.5715713|0.5755601|0.5232478|0.42624515|0.50783956|0.43946695|0.57650405|0.3039739|0.5705181|0.5655832|0.33302638″ data-similarity5=”0.28441155|0.5950673|0.49183002|0.46960384|0.33977416|0.59627146|0.3476338|0.4418813″ data-similarity6=”0.19996245|0.6151001|0.61191905|0.6572865|0.5419777|0.63480365|0.6263701|0.66720754|0.6328074|0.5076134|0.4992812″>full</span> of <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a very strong dislike|abhorrence| abomination| detestation| execration| hate| loathing” data-similarity0=”0.48847634|0.6073686|0.48558402|0.5961093|0.45288345|0.37557587″>abomination</span> and <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”disposition to willfully inflict pain and suffering on others|atrociousness| atrocity| barbarity| barbarousness| brutality| cruelness| fiendishness| heartlessness| inhumanity| inhumanness| sadism| savageness| savagery| truculence| viciousness| wantonness” data-similarity0=”0.5099826|0.63695335|0.43460718|0.58954257|0.56881326|0.54078525|0.42424202|0.4231295|0.5127191|0.5258444|0.5428617|0.53892493|0.39954373|0.4646837|0.4327128|0.49551284″>atrocity</span>. A <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”something belonging to, due to, or contributed by an individual member of a group|allotment| allowance| cut| end| piece| portion| proportion| quota| share| slice| take” data-def1=”the action for which a person or thing is specially fitted or used or for which a thing exists|business| capacity| function| job| place| position| purpose| role | task| work” data-def2=”a broad geographical area|belt| corridor| land| neck| region| tract| zone” data-def3=”one of the pieces from which something is designed to be assembled|member| partition| portion| section| segment” data-similarity0=”0.53086793|0.53549373|0.412574|0.5016577|0.46229717|0.7531288|0.6419783|0.5751777|0.5101819|0.44487053|0.25396353″ data-similarity1=”0.5459352|0.6010444|0.6010851|0.49085444|0.64678353|0.7121576|0.53294796|0.7211738|0.51994944|0.43303597″ data-similarity2=”0.6337371|0.50683576|0.61606437|0.596163|0.5998862|0.56296676|0.67160606″ data-similarity3=”0.35882965|0.6950427|0.7531288|0.5665426|0.5314479″>part</span> of you is <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”without motion|motionlessly| quiet| quietly” data-def1=”in spite of that|even so| howbeit| however| nevertheless| nonetheless| notwithstanding| still and all| though| withal| yet” data-similarity0=”0.5646021|0.15819858|0.69678384″ data-similarity1=”0.57004786|0.14677101|0.6321039|0.6035392|0.56300193|0.34111476|0.70165724|0.23014233|0.13944037|0.59393317″>still</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to hold to something firmly as if by adhesion|adhered| cleaved | clung| hewed” data-def1=”to arrange something in a certain spot or position|deposed| deposited| disposed| emplaced| fixed| laid| placed| positioned| put| set| set up| situated” data-def2=”to penetrate or hold (something) with a pointed object|gored| harpooned| impaled| jabbed| lanced| pecked| picked| pierced| pinked| punctured| ran through| skewered| speared| spiked| spitted| stabbed| transfixed| transpierced” data-similarity0=”0.7629529|0.6816|0.4539393|0.56958145″ data-similarity1=”0.648582|0.68141276|0.7264991|0.69596773|0.6642873|0.7767657|0.6900687|0.687629|0.50279105|0.49123108|0.4094968|0.6155099″ data-similarity2=”0.66916|0.7600633|0.44358996|0.3707713|0.6663666|0.70697576|0.67222667|0.50975996|0.61661285|0.7159819|0.3546389|0.6504555|0.6179567|0.68453074|0.70385116|0.6135076|0.6169272|0.51290095″>stuck</span> in the <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”the events or experience of former times|auld lang syne| history| yesterday| yesteryear| yore” data-similarity0=”0.11817019|0.40983215|0.3416466|0.30727485|0.25802585″>history</span>, and this is <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”by reasonable assumption|assumably| doubtless| likely| presumably” data-similarity0=”0.8509014|0.60343367|0.653|0.8632285″>presumably</span> the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”something belonging to, due to, or contributed by an individual member of a group|allotment| allowance| cut| end| piece| portion| proportion| quota| share| slice| take” data-def1=”the action for which a person or thing is specially fitted or used or for which a thing exists|business| capacity| function| job| place| position| purpose| role | task| work” data-def2=”a broad geographical area|belt| corridor| land| neck| region| tract| zone” data-def3=”one of the pieces from which something is designed to be assembled|member| partition| portion| section| segment” data-similarity0=”0.53086793|0.53549373|0.412574|0.5016577|0.46229717|0.7531288|0.6419783|0.5751777|0.5101819|0.44487053|0.25396353″ data-similarity1=”0.5459352|0.6010444|0.6010851|0.49085444|0.64678353|0.7121576|0.53294796|0.7211738|0.51994944|0.43303597″ data-similarity2=”0.6337371|0.50683576|0.61606437|0.596163|0.5998862|0.56296676|0.67160606″ data-similarity3=”0.35882965|0.6950427|0.7531288|0.5665426|0.5314479″>part</span> that needs <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to restore to a healthy condition|curing| fixing| mending| rehabbing| rehabilitating| setting up” data-def1=”to become healthy and strong again after illness or weakness|coming back| convalescing| gaining| mending| pulling round
    | rallying| recouping| recovering| recuperating| snapping back” data-def2=”to bring about recovery from|curing| mending| remedying” data-similarity0=”0.6798406|0.6710317|0.6686675|0.691066|0.668028|0.6284775″ data-similarity1=”0.42604965|0.64126945|0.6718116|0.6686675|0.5283473|0.74987406|0.65040845|0.6866173|0.7044102|0.49560732″ data-similarity2=”0.6798406|0.6686675|0.6539554″>healing</span> the most.
    It’s <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”having or showing exceptional knowledge, experience, or skill in a field of endeavor|accomplished| ace| adept| compleat| complete| consummate| crack| crackerjack| educated| experienced| expert| good| master| masterful| masterly| practiced | professed| proficient| skilled| skillful| versed| veteran| virtuoso” data-def1=”having, characterized by, or arising from a dignified and generous nature|big| chivalrous| elevated| gallant| greathearted| high| high-minded| lofty| lordly| magnanimous| natural| noble| sublime” data-def2=”lasting for a considerable time|extended| far| lengthy| long| long-drawn-out | long-lived| long-term| marathon” data-def3=”of a size greater than average of its kind|big| biggish| boxcar| bulky| considerable| goodly| grand| handsome| hefty| hulking| husky| large| largish| outsize | substantial| tidy| voluminous” data-def4=”of high birth, rank, or station|aristocratic| blue-blooded| genteel| gentle| grand| highborn| highbred| noble| patrician| silk-stocking| upper-class| upper-crust| wellborn” data-similarity0=”0.3916807|0.41916758|0.40952358|0.38034487|0.62597364|0.39866236|0.23033728|0.5528438|0.33483663|0.4181555|0.55247986|0.6352176|0.22920105|0.5327245|0.5442702|0.113666475|0.3944496|0.51264036|0.43715128|0.61174905|0.25550097|0.3198909|0.4362301″ data-similarity1=”0.68777263|0.5044475|0.3327033|0.5518138|0.20967923|0.65501535|0.43931788|0.44495383|0.53901553|0.50514466|0.58303046|0.5918372|0.6110094″ data-similarity2=”0.42675433|0.5223889|0.41311118|0.77210325|0.48137867|0.50601923|0.48455283|0.370356″ data-similarity3=”0.68777263|0.3807167|0.355952|0.38322333|0.4682556|0.5923542|0.610965|0.53408664|0.6668|0.4008198|0.49697292|0.57236904|0.39313978|0.21684252|0.6590651|0.4175405|0.54744315″ data-similarity4=”0.5674736|0.36710984|0.5063803|0.596104|0.610965|0.55120355|0.2508893|0.5918372|0.27987587|0.20505515|0.40319887|0.41767502|0.5403403″>great</span> that in the <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”following all others of the same kind in order or time|bottommost| closing| concluding| final| hindmost| lag| latest| latter| rearmost| terminal| terminating| ultimate” data-def1=”serving to put an end to all debate or questioning|absolute| clear| conclusive| deciding| decisive| definitive” data-def2=”of the greatest or highest degree or quantity|consummate| max| maximum| most| nth| outside| paramount| supreme| top| ultimate| utmost| uttermost” data-similarity0=”0.30129626|0.22896709|0.25016823|0.5892545|0.34036502|0.15662327|0.35671252|0.5284853|0.27721205|0.5213991|0.26312977|0.56164443″ data-similarity1=”0.5739681|0.6043051|0.6548682|0.13763209|0.5719341|0.6160517″ data-similarity2=”0.328443|0.13612486|0.5132775|0.22114745|0.424154|0.4642904|0.38633454|0.2299754|0.53162014|0.56164443|0.33119106|0.30257118″>last</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a small number|few| handful| scatter| scattering| smatter| smattering| sprinkle| sprinkling” data-def1=”two things of the same or similar kind that match or are considered together|brace| couplet| duo| dyad| pair| twain| twosome” data-similarity0=”0.4588556|0.53524965|0.4904677|0.5735298|0.59580755|0.48278612|0.43600845|0.51715446″ data-similarity1=”0.5112476|0.44821942|0.37594917|0.18331604|0.60717624|0.5051752|0.54302126″>couple</span> of <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span>, you’re <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to acquire complete knowledge, understanding, or skill in|getting| mastering| picking up” data-def1=”to come to an awareness of|ascertaining| catching on” data-def2=”to commit to memory|conning| memorizing| studying” data-similarity0=”0.67386544|0.84843373|0.6620918″ data-similarity1=”0.77615994|0.6484076″ data-similarity2=”0.7969755|0.8258296|0.7591655″>learning</span> about trauma and <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to acquire complete knowledge, understanding, or skill in|learning| mastering| picking up” data-def1=”to become affected with (a disease or disorder)|catching| coming down | taking” data-def2=”to become the father of|begetting| fathering| siring” data-def3=”to cause (someone) to agree with a belief or course of action by using arguments or earnest requests|arguing| bringing| bringing around| converting| convincing| gaining| inducing| moving| persuading| prevailing” data-def4=”to eventually have as a state or quality|becoming| coming| going| growing| running| turning| waxing” data-def5=”to receive as return for effort|acquiring| attaining| bagging| bringing in| capturing| carrying| coming by| drawing| earning| gaining| garnering| knocking down| landing| making| obtaining| procuring| pulling down| realizing| reaping| securing| winning” data-def6=”to transmit information or requests to|addressing| communicating | contacting| reaching” data-similarity0=”0.67386544|0.6711793|0.64105105″ data-similarity1=”0.64069635|0.67846966|0.72309506″ data-similarity2=”0.7451252|0.5910102|0.66036785″ data-similarity3=”0.71429515|0.68686956|0.6300854|0.7197328|0.3832277|0.6825881|0.77988124|0.77748245|0.7103382|0.74446666″ data-similarity4=”0.7942083|0.6890018|0.7480188|0.77977216|0.7824251|0.7022041|0.72315246″ data-similarity5=”0.75072885|0.6877382|0.66437495|0.64609694|0.6284301|0.72389364|0.5784369|0.7456694|0.6823487|0.6825881|0.4216365|0.67270106|0.6498574|0.7924861|0.71918505|0.47793275|0.7986097|0.73982835|0.6964234|0.6716448|0.7498301″ data-similarity6=”0.67156553|0.7135848|0.83881164|0.8114541″>getting</span> better at <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”the set of qualities that makes a person, a group of people, or a thing different from others|character| clay| colors| complexion| constitution| genius| nature| personality| tone” data-similarity0=”0.5843525|0.47229698|0.3980347|0.5557953|0.5000806|0.5893004|0.5653395|0.467402|0.6245224″>tone</span>- <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”strict attentiveness to what one is doing|carefulness| closeness| conscientiousness| heed| heedfulness| meticulosity| meticulousness| pains| scrupulousness” data-def1=”attention accompanied by protectiveness and responsibility|carefulness| lovingness| solicitousness| solicitude” data-def2=”a close attentiveness to avoiding danger|alertness| carefulness| caution| cautiousness| chariness| circumspection| gingerliness| guardedness| heedfulness| prudence| wariness” data-def3=”responsibility for the safety and well-being of someone or something|custodianship| custody| guardianship| keeping| safekeeping| trust| ward” data-def4=”an uneasy state of mind usually over the possibility of an anticipated misfortune or trouble|agita| agitation| anxiety| anxiousness| apprehension| apprehensiveness| concern| concernment| disquiet| disquietude| fear| nervosity| nervousness| perturbation| solicitude| sweat| unease| uneasiness| worry” data-def5=”the duty or function of watching or guarding for the sake of proper direction or control|charge| guidance| headship| oversight| regulation| stewardship| superintendence| superintendency| supervision| surveillance” data-def6=”the act or activity of looking after and making decisions about something|administration| charge| conduct| control| direction| governance| government| guidance| handling| intendance| management| operation| oversight| presidency| regulation| running| stewardship| superintendence| superintendency| supervision” data-similarity0=”0.34752604|0.24118038|0.26999995|0.51473665|0.16375737|0.3357963|0.21670479|0.45452163|0.18834229″ data-similarity1=”0.34752604|0.3316296|0.3913921|0.18189402″ data-similarity2=”0.26786426|0.34752604|0.47219402|0.25245222|0.13754044|0.50546676|0.15747222|0.21824312|0.16375737|0.4521722|0.3996307″ data-similarity3=”0.6271912|0.21105938|0.35130748|0.38464278|0.47962934|0.66332275|0.27784055″ data-similarity4=”0.40500712|0.43167606|0.45295435|0.29705888|0.27672124|0.2896339|0.3648362|0.4879175|0.38441193|0.21835215|0.48720145|0.42561808|0.14242361|0.39509025|0.18189402|0.39044014|0.25318986|0.36808822|0.5481245″ data-similarity5=”0.5750556|0.3722646|0.47239676|0.38273734|0.31336182|0.58923584|0.38093883|0.57249427|0.32487223|0.5332207″ data-similarity6=”0.36179182|0.5750556|0.60729647|0.38706627|0.3822115|0.42832777|0.43062416|0.3722646|0.4049109|0.45123476|0.4370918|0.3222365|0.38273734|0.5281424|0.31336182|0.3093267|0.58923584|0.38093883|0.57249427|0.32487223″>care</span>. And that you ’ve <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to bring into being by combining, shaping, or transforming materials|fabricated| fashioned| formed| framed| manufactured| produced” data-def1=”to obtain (as a goal) through effort|achieved| attained| bagged| chalked up| clocked | racked up| rang up| scored| won” data-def2=”to carry through (as a process) to completion|accomplished| achieved| brought off| carried off| carried out| committed| compassed| did| executed| followed through | fulfilled| negotiated| performed| perpetrated| prosecuted| pulled off| put through” data-def3=”to cause (a person) to give in to pressure|blackjacked| coerced| compelled| constrained| dragooned| drove| forced| impelled| impressed| muscled| obligated| obliged| pressed| pressured| sandbagged” data-def4=”to decide the size, amount, number, or distance of (something) without actual measurement|calculated| called| conjectured| estimated| figured| gauged | guessed| judged| placed| put| reckoned| supposed” data-def5=”to form by putting together parts or materials|assembled| built| confected| constructed| erected| fabricated| made up| pieced| put up| raised| reared| set up” data-def6=”to give the impression of being|acted| appeared| came across | felt| looked| seemed| sounded” data-def7=”to go on a specified course or in a certain direction|bore| headed” data-def8=”to put into effect through legislative or authoritative action|constituted| enacted| laid down| legislated| ordained| passed” data-def9=”to receive as return for effort|acquired| attained| bagged| brought in| came by| captured| carried| drew| earned| gained| garnered| got| knocked down| landed| obtained| procured| pulled down| realized| reaped| secured| won” data-def10=”to position (something) so as to prevent passage through an opening|closed| shut| steeked” data-similarity0=”0.5561274|0.53133065|0.63492066|0.7174168|0.5871861|0.6412222″ data-similarity1=”0.61995757|0.6368178|0.6129656|0.5540568|0.69819593|0.5921288|0.47800356|0.64757115|0.5918633″ data-similarity2=”0.44312415|0.61995757|0.5206832|0.5493791|0.5442468|0.5691699|0.60758346|0.4964079|0.6323468|0.6452932|0.67449343|0.653874|0.62880623|0.7142079|0.737848|0.53081954|0.43669435″ data-similarity3=”0.6633151|0.58432895|0.59693414|0.57989615|0.46271285|0.42449054|0.50900006|0.63516635|0.4898639|0.7941705|0.53421545|0.5600452|0.64472973|0.41266784|0.591208″ data-similarity4=”0.68014187|0.5859798|0.55162317|0.673532|0.5084883|0.6080393|0.6402117|0.56861854|0.58057934|0.5768069|0.62008816|0.653281″ data-similarity5=”0.67432237|0.6557765|0.60191405|0.6376104|0.6041414|0.5561274|1.0|0.5379819|0.47506177|0.69541574|0.5925259|0.48656878″ data-similarity6=”0.60367775|0.6296158|0.476826|0.5890222|0.6039612|0.58032554|0.60164183″ data-similarity7=”0.6109211|0.6640262″ data-similarity8=”0.5835731|0.663451|0.60054487|0.66531503|0.61451983|0.6928599″ data-similarity9=”0.66219544|0.6368178|0.6129656|0.54441184|0.50618637|0.6088228|0.61135584|0.6973134|0.7468625|0.7039258|0.6088184|0.59338903|0.58840376|0.5509202|0.685065|0.5163912|0.5199035|0.69866484|0.64905363|0.39981452|0.5918633″ data-similarity10=”0.5356309|0.52697265|0.5609062″>made</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”resulting in an increase in amount or number|added| additional| another| else| farther| fresh| further| other” data-similarity0=”0.39550894|0.25107256|0.2606106|0.13307256|0.47692943|0.27961332|0.5318997|0.34695408″>further</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”forward movement in time or place|advance| advancement| furtherance| going| headway| march| onrush| passage| process| procession| progression” data-def1=”the act or process of going from the simple or basic to the complex or advanced|development| elaboration| evolution| expansion| growth| progression” data-similarity0=”0.40043658|0.43898854|0.47091058|0.28541324|0.4258694|0.4100248|0.4454145|0.5578083|0.6553598|0.44009998|0.63591856″ data-similarity1=”0.49088138|0.5162659|0.533385|0.54579294|0.50862396|0.63591856″>progress</span> in those 2 <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span> than in the 12 <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”as in generations, cycles|cycles|generations|ages|days|epochs|eras|periods|times|bits|spaces|spans|spells|stretches|whiles|dates|vintages” data-similarity0=”0.7038431|0.7007377|0.7001658|0.7357378|0.5376379|0.69864935|0.72351676|0.77915484|0.5709334|0.5808648|0.6673643|0.67674565|0.71751696|0.68365836|0.5848981|0.5736144″>times</span> of <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have life|breathing| existing| living| subsisting” data-def1=”to occupy a place or location|bearing| lying| sitting| standing” data-def2=”to take or have a certain position within a group arranged in vertical classes|grading| placing| ranking| rating| standing” data-def3=”to take place|befalling| betiding| chancing| coming| coming about| coming down| coming off| cooking| doing| going down
    | going on| happening| happing| occurring| passing| transpiring” data-similarity0=”0.65168726|0.6742407|0.721548|0.56284857″ data-similarity1=”0.70304835|0.66532654|0.7724122|0.6815886″ data-similarity2=”0.73914355|0.6711614|0.6936766|0.5131409|0.6815886″ data-similarity3=”0.5213526|0.69058955|0.4710978|0.7118969|0.67638946|0.6797863|0.6379939|0.56195474|0.7680244|0.6848307|0.6739524|0.69488823|0.63441384|0.7507018|0.70241296|0.5718217″>being</span> onanti-depressants. Are you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to go along with in order to provide assistance, protection, or companionship|accompanying| chaperoning| companioning| companying| convoying| escorting| seeing| squiring” data-def1=”to pay attention especially through the act of hearing|harkening| harking| hearing| hearkening | heeding| listening| minding” data-def2=”to take charge of especially on behalf of another|caring | minding| overseeing| superintending| supervising| tending| watching” data-def3=”to occur or exist at the same time|accompanying| coexisting| coinciding| concurring| co-occurring| synchronizing” data-similarity0=”0.68629813|0.59805477|0.71156204|0.57241786|0.73304063|0.6241692|0.7147532|0.67531216″ data-similarity1=”0.7228564|0.58962834|0.57943547|0.6001971|0.71602523|0.75089866|0.6447845″ data-similarity2=”0.6864167|0.6447845|0.66894114|0.7146949|0.7548671|0.80919415|0.6738186″ data-similarity3=”0.68629813|0.67983145|0.7478231|0.70939726|0.14696832|0.6375865″>attending</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”something that corrects or counteracts something undesirable|antidote| corrective| curative| cure| rectifier| remedy| therapeutic” data-similarity0=”0.51975816|0.4719616|0.49352154|0.5979947|0.6233212|0.63370323|0.3205247″>remedy</span>? Because I would <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to take to or upon oneself|accept| bear| shoulder| take over| undertake” data-def1=”to take as true or as a fact without actual proof|hypothecate| hypothesize| postulate| premise| presume| presuppose| say| suppose” data-def2=”to form an opinion from little or no evidence|conjecture| daresay| guess| imagine| presume| speculate| suppose| surmise| suspect| suspicion” data-def3=”to present a false appearance of|act| affect| bluff| counterfeit| dissemble| fake| feign| pass | pretend| profess| put on| sham| simulate” data-def4=”to provide with a paying job|employ| engage| fee
    | pay| place| recruit| retain| sign | take on” data-similarity0=”0.6487802|0.6784007|0.36558563|0.3835536|0.5576126″ data-similarity1=”0.52981484|0.59547156|0.39858162|0.59824294|0.68544024|0.53532565|0.65007883|0.5789228″ data-similarity2=”0.47887722|0.63897985|0.49701992|0.60580814|0.68544024|0.59078884|0.5789228|0.32977098|0.44520232|0.4547385″ data-similarity3=”0.4994278|0.6565675|0.4163776|0.4903368|0.5766359|0.3785469|0.5326107|0.562627|0.50133085|0.3089099|0.34302235|0.32365912|0.6072814″ data-similarity4=”0.4647301|0.5771352|0.52453727|0.6238895|0.53955007|0.50819796|0.57413834|0.59912413|0.3941015″>assume</span> that if one wants to ween off anti-depressants, one would <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have as a requirement|bear| challenge| claim| demand| necessitate| require| take| want| warrant” data-def1=”to be under necessity or obligation to|have | shall| should” data-similarity0=”0.5116928|0.4700283|0.5124143|0.56306344|0.5499504|0.5152131|0.6239764|0.6351295|0.5863454″ data-similarity1=”0.67855746|0.6137058|0.5306317″>need</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”something that corrects or counteracts something undesirable|antidote| corrective| curative| cure| rectifier| remedy| therapeutic” data-similarity0=”0.51975816|0.4719616|0.49352154|0.5979947|0.6233212|0.63370323|0.3205247″>remedy</span> to <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to promote the interests or cause of|advocate| back| champion| endorse” data-def1=”to pay the living expenses of|keep| maintain| provide” data-def2=”to hold up or serve as a foundation for|bear| bolster| brace| buttress| carry| prop | stay| sustain| undergird| underpin| uphold” data-def3=”to provide evidence or information for (as a claim or idea)|back| bolster| buttress| corroborate| reinforce | substantiate” data-def4=”to continue to declare to be true or proper despite opposition or objections|defend| justify| maintain| uphold” data-def5=”to give evidence or testimony to the truth or factualness of|argue| attest| authenticate| bear out| certify| confirm| corroborate| substantiate| validate| verify| vindicate” data-def6=”to provide (someone) with what is useful or necessary to achieve an end|abet| aid| assist| back| backstop| help| prop” data-def7=”to put up with (something painful or difficult)|abide| absorb| accept| bear| bide” data-similarity0=”0.473746|0.29049087|0.534038|0.44799864″ data-similarity1=”0.3145593|0.45127907|0.41440976″ data-similarity2=”0.5375596|0.4827395|0.71427274|0.6198862|0.48446405|0.590312|0.35000807|0.6303577|0.30539575|0.40699175|0.39718562″ data-similarity3=”0.29049087|0.4827395|0.6198862|0.50400275|0.56544095|0.3515233″ data-similarity4=”0.58381796|0.43798736|0.45127907|0.39718562″ data-similarity5=”0.5038984|0.3690828|0.43565112|0.40100288|0.5738698|0.29347804|0.50400275|0.3515233|0.48966384|0.43421575|0.47926486″ data-similarity6=”0.29334956|0.6056891|0.51386136|0.29049087|0.54679215|0.67694163|0.590312″ data-similarity7=”0.5720978|0.59589654|0.46025628|0.5375596|0.29731137″>support</span> that <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a usually fixed or ordered series of actions or events leading to a result|course| operation| procedure| proceeding” data-def1=”forward movement in time or place|advance| advancement| furtherance| going| headway| march| onrush| passage| procession| progress| progression” data-def2=”a written notice ordering a person to appear in court|subpoena| summons” data-similarity0=”0.616886|0.67225915|0.6533389|0.46602646″ data-similarity1=”0.6084198|0.6099639|0.5878907|0.25455937|0.5421614|0.45742485|0.47463834|0.6375242|0.6000842|0.6553598|0.6731441″ data-similarity2=”0.53797334|0.22037181″>process</span>

    You <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to express (a thought or emotion) in words|articulated| brought out| enunciated| passed| spoke| stated| talked| told| uttered| verbalized| vocalized” data-def1=”to convey in appropriate or telling terms|articulated| clothed | couched| expressed| formulated| phrased| put| stated| worded” data-def2=”to give from memory|recited| reeled off| repeated” data-def3=”to take as true or as a fact without actual proof|assumed| hypothecated| hypothesized| postulated| premised| presumed| presupposed| supposed” data-similarity0=”0.569156|0.59231925|0.75088525|0.7510508|0.8112213|0.6975039|0.7777804|0.79340786|0.5340515|0.71597123|0.6574412″ data-similarity1=”0.569156|0.6915704|0.59268796|0.7484846|0.67204994|0.6456024|0.5023265|0.6975039|0.6663738″ data-similarity2=”0.69730145|0.646796|0.66385764″ data-similarity3=”0.7068819|0.7282207|0.72316533|0.6012269|0.6984302|0.6425286|0.714443|0.62264407″>said</span> that once you <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to move suddenly and sharply (as in surprise)|bolted| jumped| startled” data-def1=”to be responsible for the creation and early operation or use of|began| constituted| established| founded| inaugurated| initiated| innovated| instituted| introduced| launched| pioneered| planted| set up” data-def2=”to cause to function|activated| actuated| cranked | set off| sparked| touched off| triggered| turned on” data-def3=”to come into existence|actualized| appeared| arose| began| broke| commenced| dawned| engendered| formed| materialized| originated| set in| sprang” data-def4=”to extend outward beyond a usual point|bagged| ballooned| beetled| bellied| billowed| bulged| bunched| jutted| overhung| poked| pooched
    | pouched| pouted| projected| protruded| stood out| stuck out| swelled” data-def5=”to take the first step in (a process or course of action)|began| commenced| embarked” data-similarity0=”0.6147024|0.77103555|0.5886647″ data-similarity1=”0.7814009|0.6552808|0.49027464|0.715717|0.5818599|0.6754306|0.7326913|0.6618042|0.64597744|0.63163537|0.7470724|0.7724625|0.44535422″ data-similarity2=”0.6269256|0.6000929|0.55810964|0.4683472|0.67364085|0.63574415|0.6221466|0.63403153″ data-similarity3=”0.6787193|0.7693409|0.69995904|0.7814009|0.6538637|0.6146014|0.62388295|0.68186975|0.6516914|0.72206527|0.60328805|0.47695714|0.6752016″ data-similarity4=”0.64643735|0.6569801|0.7165783|0.54187363|0.70570856|0.6127576|0.6291301|0.57202554|0.5763712|0.69555384|0.681742|0.683219|0.75285816|0.7232033|0.67648566|0.70901704|0.5267852|0.81645626″ data-similarity5=”0.7814009|0.6146014|0.6917763″>started</span> weening off, you ’ve <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”having or showing exceptional knowledge, experience, or skill in a field of endeavor|accomplished| ace| adept| compleat| complete| consummate| crack| crackerjack| educated| expert| good| great| master| masterful| masterly| practiced | professed| proficient| skilled| skillful| versed| veteran| virtuoso” data-similarity0=”0.62301064|0.36052167|0.5814485|0.26688725|0.46233884|0.3938309|0.28081018|0.3407781|0.7815783|0.3231351|0.38576376|0.39121926|0.22268023|0.42974445|0.22447069|0.690378|0.70111334|0.53114456|0.6710544|0.31260258|0.63087136|0.24161361|0.46327442″>educated</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”the act or an instance of not having or being able to find|mislaying| misplacement” data-def1=”a person or thing harmed, lost, or destroyed|casualty| fatality| prey| victim” data-def2=”failure to win a contest|beating| defeat| drubbing| licking| lump| overthrow| plastering| rout| shellacking| trimming| trouncing| whipping” data-def3=”the amount by which something is lessened|abatement| decline| decrease| decrement| dent| depletion| depression| diminishment| diminution| drop| drop-off| fall| falloff| reduction| shrinkage| step-down” data-def4=”the state of being robbed of something normally enjoyed|deprivation| privation” data-def5=”the state or fact of being rendered nonexistent, physically unsound, or useless|annihilation| decimation| demolishment| demolition| desolation| destruction| devastation| extermination| extinction| havoc| mincemeat| obliteration| ruin| ruination| wastage| wreckage” data-similarity0=”0.5865997|0.4397502″ data-similarity1=”0.6200964|0.4141848|0.6276497|0.42690507″ data-similarity2=”0.5259672|0.54168767|0.5488711|0.38211358|0.50481534|0.46675706|0.5836324|0.46908894|0.48655823|0.46942538|0.64179075|0.52273834″ data-similarity3=”0.47371268|0.507334|0.4779822|0.37777105|0.49149922|0.5385071|0.5606478|0.44843805|0.42336965|0.5544525|0.37701315|0.6037202|0.35602126|0.5209754|0.4632173|0.36609644″ data-similarity4=”0.43996286|0.3911234″ data-similarity5=”0.6036112|0.4774325|0.46759197|0.43072447|0.53442293|0.50050646|0.48479748|0.52943945|0.4883998|0.4282087|0.50903|0.44948712|0.5363161|0.44130188|0.465092|0.4423266″>loss</span> of <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a subjective response to a person, thing, or situation|chords| feelings| passions| sentiments” data-similarity0=”0.5334276|0.797048|0.68561256|0.68406045″>feelings</span> – you couldn’t <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have a vague awareness of|perceive| scent| see| sense| smell| taste” data-def1=”to come into bodily contact with (something) so as to perceive a slight pressure on the skin|touch” data-def2=”to come to a knowledge of (something) by living through it|endure| experience| have| know| pass| see| suffer| sustain| taste| undergo| witness” data-def3=”to have as an opinion|allow
    | suppose| think” data-def4=”to search for something blindly or uncertainly|fish| fumble| grope| scrabble” data-def5=”to give the impression of being|act| appear| come across | look| make| seem| sound” data-similarity0=”0.39226034|0.20077631|0.4395999|0.42348745|0.24373348|0.26331496″ data-similarity1=”0.4534431″ data-similarity2=”0.58983386|0.3492471|0.5109205|0.54957783|0.46671292|0.4395999|0.5006732|0.53707093|0.26331496|0.48390222|0.24367726″ data-similarity3=”0.5323315|0.59271103|0.5880623″ data-similarity4=”0.30215886|0.2801043|0.35543332|0.33669582″ data-similarity5=”0.4597203|0.63469076|0.42263883|0.54204696|0.62348217|0.5387457|0.44665143″>feel</span> anything for anyone. <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”it is possible|conceivably| mayhap| perchance| perhaps| possibly” data-similarity0=”0.6957971|0.57626873|0.47585502|0.75716|0.75153035″>perhaps</span> this <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have life|breathed| existed| lived| subsisted” data-def1=”to occupy a place or location|bore| lay| sat| stood” data-def2=”to take or have a certain position within a group arranged in vertical classes|graded| placed| ranked| rated| stood” data-def3=”to take place|befell| betided| came| came about| came down| came off| chanced| cooked| did| happed| happened| occurred| passed| transpired| went down
    | went on” data-similarity0=”0.36249793|0.56263775|0.54863095|0.4190646″ data-similarity1=”0.23626614|0.433993|0.54233944|0.62862855″ data-similarity2=”0.39996707|0.41806817|0.44425812|0.27272227|0.62862855″ data-similarity3=”0.0032901785|0.32021984|0.7850408|0.6043434|0.6574187|0.64205456|0.2642914|0.30823937|0.6478426|0.36817783|0.6255005|0.59570575|0.39917982|0.5096835|0.589506|0.57212913″>was</span> a <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”intended to resist or prevent attack or aggression|defensive| self-protective” data-similarity0=”0.77896446|0.2376375″>defensive</span> <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a series of actions used to achieve an end|course|operation|procedure|process|drill|routine|fashion|form|manner|method|mode|system|technique|way|determinant|expedient|factor|influence|ingredient|tool|agency|agent|instrument|instrumentality|machinery|means|medium|ministry|organ|vehicle” data-similarity0=”0.5070205|0.65647966|0.53484607|0.6502336|0.5566078|0.5564422|0.59579444|0.61374557|0.5068362|0.67975384|0.58881813|0.5034729|0.40965843|0.49337086|0.57351094|0.5494285|0.61522734|0.6845629|0.49728176|0.5737724|0.51522064|0.4909501|0.712944|0.5849333|0.566446|0.28199515|0.7268771|0.40861422|0.47205168|0.6256766″>medium</span> – to <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to penetrate with a sharp edge (as a knife)|gash| incise| rip| shear| slash| slice| slit” data-def1=”to fail to attend|blow off| miss| skip” data-def2=”to deliberately ignore or treat rudely|cold-shoulder| high-hat| slight| snub| stiff| stiff-arm” data-def3=”to make (something) shorter or smaller with the use of a cutting instrument|bob| clip| crop| cut back| dock| lop | nip| pare| poll| prune| shave| shear| snip| trim” data-def4=”to shorten the standing leafy plant cover of|mow” data-def5=”to alter (something) for the worse with the addition of foreign or lower-grade substances|adulterate| dilute| extend| lace| sophisticate| thin| water down| weaken” data-def6=”to depart abruptly from a straight line or course|break| sheer| swerve| veer| yaw| zag| zig” data-def7=”to divide by passing through or across|bisect| cross| intersect” data-def8=”to identify and examine the basic elements or parts of (something) especially for discovering interrelationships|analyze| anatomize| assay| break down| deconstruct| dissect” data-similarity0=”0.46070945|0.23795399|0.37633678|0.3122211|0.6251626|0.3854658|0.28258753″ data-similarity1=”0.39634958|0.33219534|0.384424″ data-similarity2=”0.19132522|0.114665|0.15090029|0.27574247|0.27505952|0.23775968″ data-similarity3=”0.28168273|0.40563944|0.36829758|0.5780316|0.44015753|0.4027853|0.19579978|0.34499475|0.15604804|0.3074331|0.3705221|0.3122211|0.35662684|0.43484685″ data-similarity4=”0.38553047″ data-similarity5=”0.22507317|0.29550794|0.3845791|0.14519778|0.32458642|0.25705674|0.33115187|0.28313684″ data-similarity6=”0.40138522|0.2877847|0.39412782|0.40560427|0.42932674|0.4085562|0.35494697″ data-similarity7=”0.30493516|0.42791215|0.36661956″ data-similarity8=”0.27480286|0.255734|0.33555385|0.38623837|0.4336874|0.2779933″>cut</span> off all <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a subjective response to a person, thing, or situation|chords| feelings| passions| sentiments” data-similarity0=”0.5334276|0.797048|0.68561256|0.68406045″>feelings</span>, <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”for this or that reason|accordingly| consequently| ergo| hence| therefore| thereupon| thus| wherefore” data-def1=”in like manner|alike| also| correspondingly| ditto| likewise| similarly” data-similarity0=”0.5227524|0.56753814|0.19003975|0.5596427|0.4193968|0.541756|0.47389334|0.2547647″ data-similarity1=”0.4149025|0.46640915|0.40297717|0.3117766|0.41421068|0.4890144″>so</span> they wouldn’t <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to subject to incapacitating emotional or mental stress|crush| devastate| floor| grind | oppress| overcome| overmaster| overpower| prostrate| snow under| swamp| whelm” data-def1=”to cover with a flood|deluge| drown| engulf| flood| gulf| inundate| overflow| submerge| submerse| swamp” data-similarity0=”0.3624062|0.62575984|0.50888056|0.5203295|0.30493957|0.18286777|0.51465666|0.54541564|0.47017312|0.14929117|0.42417544|0.5070454″ data-similarity1=”0.43868014|0.36513028|0.38964573|0.4016998|0.45159048|0.34674636|0.52638793|0.500156|0.44986758|0.42417544″>overwhelm</span> you?
    Since you ’ve <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to move suddenly and sharply (as in surprise)|bolted| jumped| startled” data-def1=”to be responsible for the creation and early operation or use of|began| constituted| established| founded| inaugurated| initiated| innovated| instituted| introduced| launched| pioneered| planted| set up” data-def2=”to cause to function|activated| actuated| cranked | set off| sparked| touched off| triggered| turned on” data-def3=”to come into existence|actualized| appeared| arose| began| broke| commenced| dawned| engendered| formed| materialized| originated| set in| sprang” data-def4=”to extend outward beyond a usual point|bagged| ballooned| beetled| bellied| billowed| bulged| bunched| jutted| overhung| poked| pooched
    | pouched| pouted| projected| protruded| stood out| stuck out| swelled” data-def5=”to take the first step in (a process or course of action)|began| commenced| embarked” data-similarity0=”0.6147024|0.77103555|0.5886647″ data-similarity1=”0.7814009|0.6552808|0.49027464|0.715717|0.5818599|0.6754306|0.7326913|0.6618042|0.64597744|0.63163537|0.7470724|0.7724625|0.44535422″ data-similarity2=”0.6269256|0.6000929|0.55810964|0.4683472|0.67364085|0.63574415|0.6221466|0.63403153″ data-similarity3=”0.6787193|0.7693409|0.69995904|0.7814009|0.6538637|0.6146014|0.62388295|0.68186975|0.6516914|0.72206527|0.60328805|0.47695714|0.6752016″ data-similarity4=”0.64643735|0.6569801|0.7165783|0.54187363|0.70570856|0.6127576|0.6291301|0.57202554|0.5763712|0.69555384|0.681742|0.683219|0.75285816|0.7232033|0.67648566|0.70901704|0.5267852|0.81645626″ data-similarity5=”0.7814009|0.6146014|0.6917763″>started</span> this <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a thin, flexible structure that resembles a hair|bristle| fiber| filament| hair” data-def1=”covering for the human body|apparel| attire| clobber
    | rags| raiment| rig| rigging| toggery| togs| vestiary| vestments| vesture| wear| wearables| weeds” data-similarity0=”0.6678252|0.7347398|0.62589836|0.61708415″ data-similarity1=”0.82133365|0.7989214|0.66528296|0.1393583|0.46046543|0.59188265|0.14244255|0.68777025|0.48672867|0.54544866|0.30062768|0.6809054|0.4064592|0.2634002|0.44067296″>thread</span> due to an <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a condition or occurrence traceable to a cause|aftereffect| aftermath| backwash| child| conclusion| consequence| corollary| development| effect| fate| fruit| outcome| outgrowth| precipitate| product| result| resultant| sequel| sequence| upshot” data-def1=”a place or means of going out|egress| exit| outlet” data-def2=”the descendants of a person, animal, or plant|fruit| get| offspring| posterity| progeny| seed| spawn” data-similarity0=”0.61005086|0.49158573|0.33433795|0.568084|0.7447784|0.6384175|0.36408368|0.59501904|0.6711203|0.5861931|0.58641607|0.56128824|0.62941873|0.57959783|0.5463914|0.6450795|0.44825462|0.5529543|0.7113572|0.39415798″ data-similarity1=”0.56330836|0.6290076|0.5366569″ data-similarity2=”0.58641607|0.36683998|0.376421|0.60508674|0.5555167|0.48383266|0.4066288″>issue</span> with your <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”a male partner in a marriage|hubby| man| mister| old man” data-similarity0=”0.65088105|0.54494566|0.6439746|0.25885692″>hubby</span>, I’m wondering about the dynamic between the two of you. From what you ’ve <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to take a share or part|participated| partook” data-similarity0=”0.6713975|0.2590303″>participated</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”for this or that reason|accordingly| consequently| ergo| hence| therefore| thereupon| thus| wherefore” data-def1=”in like manner|alike| also| correspondingly| ditto| likewise| similarly” data-similarity0=”0.5227524|0.56753814|0.19003975|0.5596427|0.4193968|0.541756|0.47389334|0.2547647″ data-similarity1=”0.4149025|0.46640915|0.40297717|0.3117766|0.41421068|0.4890144″>so</span> far, he’s a <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”conforming to a high standard of morality or virtue|all right| ethical| good| honest| honorable| just| moral| nice| right| right-minded| righteous| straight| true| upright| virtuous” data-def1=”following the accepted rules of moral conduct|ethical| honest| honorable| just| noble| principled| respectable| righteous| stand-up| upright| upstanding” data-def2=”following the established traditions of refined society and good taste|befitting| correct| de rigueur| decorous| genteel| nice| polite| proper| respectable| seemly” data-def3=”free from any trace of the coarse or indecent|chaste| clean| G-rated| immaculate| modest| pure| vestal| virgin| virginal” data-def4=”of a level of quality that meets one’s needs or standards|acceptable| adequate| all right| fairish| fine| good| OK | passable| respectable| satisfactory| serviceable| tolerable” data-similarity0=”0.20637533|0.7077646|0.6323644|0.7275678|0.6184104|0.41367263|0.6938935|0.7137877|0.61485016|0.4865506|0.67419565|0.6197913|0.69651675|0.54800195|0.7069791″ data-similarity1=”0.7077646|0.7275678|0.6184104|0.41367263|0.73724836|0.21067426|0.7016123|0.67419565|0.20285021|0.54800195|0.59301275″ data-similarity2=”0.6118627|0.721882|0.24579966|0.5792627|0.5068672|0.7137877|0.7386603|0.6945721|0.7016123|0.53476924″ data-similarity3=”0.6445776|0.66957873|0.30858666|0.6665989|0.70694816|0.71644497|0.5915628|0.6790379|0.5734702″ data-similarity4=”0.6729199|0.5740168|0.20637533|0.51013154|0.6979507|0.6323644|0.50083137|0.7280611|0.7016123|0.68570894|0.6238671|0.7187886″>decent</span> <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”an adult male human being|bastard| bloke
    | gent| gentleman| guy| hombre| jack| joe| joker| lad| male” data-def1=”a male romantic companion|beau| boy| boyfriend| fellow| old man| swain” data-def2=”the human race|Homo sapiens| humanity| humankind| mankind” data-def3=”the male partner in a marriage|hubby| husband| mister| old man” data-def4=”a body of officers of the law|constabulary| finest| force| fuzz| heat
    | police| police force” data-similarity0=”0.38671896|0.47925436|0.44219807|0.40766358|0.5335714|0.53929263|0.4022775|0.6005928|0.52937794|0.51733017|0.34027138″ data-similarity1=”0.43108654|0.68835247|0.44956195|0.27257293|0.11713607|0.57842404″ data-similarity2=”0.4129365|0.4802658|0.5714333|0.49049738″ data-similarity3=”0.433021|0.419711|0.46053395|0.11713607″ data-similarity4=”0.30818543|0.3552497|0.42878163|0.4973922|0.4332081|0.469628|0.28623557″>man</span> who has <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to manage the actions of (oneself) in a particular way|acquitted| bore| carried| comported| conducted| demeaned| deported| quit” data-similarity0=”0.68970674|0.5830413|0.651773|0.66150445|0.74559283|0.6605654|0.70546794|0.5894946″>conducted</span> “ <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”in or into the open air|alfresco| outdoors| outside” data-def1=”with one’s normal voice speaking the words|aloud| audibly| out loud” data-def2=”from this or that place|away| down| fro| hence| off” data-similarity0=”0.38529098|0.45853183|0.5729232″ data-similarity1=”0.41041473|0.4243504|1.0″ data-similarity2=”0.5988455|0.7768947|0.33485556|0.41773638|0.8432984″>out</span> of <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a written or printed mark that is meant to convey information to the reader|glyph| icon | sign| symbol” data-def1=”a person of odd or whimsical habits|codger| crack| crackbrain| crackpot| crank| eccentric| flake| fruitcake| head case| kook| nut| nutcase| nutter
    | oddball| oddity| original| quiz| screwball| weirdo| zany” data-def2=”overall quality as seen or judged by people in general|fame| mark| name| note| odor| rep
    | report| reputation| repute” data-def3=”the set of qualities that make a person different from other people|identity| individualism| individuality| personality| self-identity| selfhood” data-def4=”conduct that conforms to an accepted standard of right and wrong|decency| goodness| honesty| integrity| morality| probity| rectitude| righteousness| rightness| uprightness| virtue| virtuousness” data-def5=”something that sets apart an individual from others of the same kind|affection| attribute| attribution| characteristic| criterion| diagnostic| differentia| feature| fingerprint| hallmark| mark| marker| note| particularity| peculiarity| point| property| quality| specific| stamp| touch| trait” data-def6=”the set of qualities that makes a person, a group of people, or a thing different from others|clay| colors| complexion| constitution| genius| nature| personality| self| tone” data-similarity0=”0.5175933|0.6960493|0.49682063|0.6497459″ data-similarity1=”0.6304742|0.570648|0.5830894|0.6238034|0.46776652|0.45187753|0.6202013|0.44582748|0.48607227|0.5157916|0.5220501|0.5173829|0.6382351|0.37044126|0.66423166|0.39519456|0.6000814|0.5731488|0.43561664|0.44335735″ data-similarity2=”0.61611784|0.59662515|0.6461912|0.54809177|0.42653272|0.33473292|0.5472938|0.58589786|0.66059256″ data-similarity3=”0.59464896|0.5665809|0.55149645|0.6035936|0.44012293|0.5522826″ data-similarity4=”0.6480117|0.48010954|0.6040272|0.54374796|0.6809936|0.6655735|0.5736931|0.6581089|0.63252616|0.3565681|0.62695205|0.6292416″ data-similarity5=”0.6630854|0.5961298|0.6278021|0.5340726|0.611254|0.45955214|0.6397047|0.44327256|0.56578356|0.60634315|0.59662515|0.6416573|0.54809177|0.65263504|0.57428604|0.51516765|0.63516885|0.5802806|0.479542|0.49629194|0.5812066|0.56856513″ data-similarity6=”0.57601553|0.43761533|0.63103014|0.69859535|0.74979323|0.6137461|0.6035936|0.5843525|0.5508135″>character</span> ” <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”not long ago|freshly| just| late| lately| new| newly| now| only” data-similarity0=”0.7239363|0.70044225|0.52267474|0.8469847|0.4298562|0.76655805|0.61407816|0.71711135″>lately</span>. You’re <span class=”single_syn” data-def0=”to have as an opinion|allowing|supposing” data-similarity0=”0.7195947|0.65894526″>allowing</span> that it <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”to have life|breathed| existed| lived| subsisted” data-def1=”to occupy a place or location|bore| lay| sat| stood” data-def2=”to take or have a certain position within a group arranged in vertical classes|graded| placed| ranked| rated| stood” data-def3=”to take place|befell| betided| came| came about| came down| came off| chanced| cooked| did| happed| happened| occurred| passed| transpired| went down
    | went on” data-similarity0=”0.36249793|0.56263775|0.54863095|0.4190646″ data-similarity1=”0.23626614|0.433993|0.54233944|0.62862855″ data-similarity2=”0.39996707|0.41806817|0.44425812|0.27272227|0.62862855″ data-similarity3=”0.0032901785|0.32021984|0.7850408|0.6043434|0.6574187|0.64205456|0.2642914|0.30823937|0.6478426|0.36817783|0.6255005|0.59570575|0.39917982|0.5096835|0.589506|0.57212913″>was</span> because he’d a <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a strong but often short-lived liking for another person|infatuation| mash| passion” data-def1=”a great number of persons or creatures massed together|army| bike
    | cram| crowd| drove| flock| herd| horde| host| legion| mass| mob| multitude| press| rout| scrum| swarm| throng” data-similarity0=”0.501568|0.6247781|0.61076355″ data-similarity1=”0.5745732|0.68779695|0.63442606|0.6239413|0.2639292|0.6013201|0.5892211|0.5640685|0.62239134|0.49133503|0.4280907|0.59071517|0.39559305|0.6397729|0.46898466|0.4573505|0.49783722|0.13072845″>crush</span> on some <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”a young unmarried woman|damsel| demoiselle| maid| maiden| miss” data-def1=”a female person who has not yet reached adulthood|filly| lass| lassie| miss| missy| nymph| sheila” data-def2=”a female romantic companion|gal| gill| girlfriend| inamorata| lady| ladylove| old lady| woman” data-similarity0=”0.35587558|0.36814496|0.4397203|0.43341297|0.38427958″ data-similarity1=”0.40862507|0.50427395|0.4093844|0.38427958|0.44730383|0.43712923|0.4109498″ data-similarity2=”0.5455254|0.4939398|0.59172285|0.5547436|0.53174096|0.46261835|0.27345982|0.68545765″>girl</span> online, since you weren’t emotionally <span class=”multi_syn” data-def0=”possible to get|accessible| acquirable| attainable| obtainable| procurable” data-def1=”capable of or suitable for being used for a particular purpose|employable| exploitable| fit| functional| operable| practicable| serviceable| usable | useful” data-similarity0=”0.8350625|0.7354196|0.7823278|0.710429|0.5572649″ data-similarity1=”0.64949185|0.7460202|0.5616187|0.54889137|0.68479216|0.7348559|0.74230534|0.6877935|0.6653794″>available</span>.

    #407922
    Sadlyconfused
    Participant

    Hi Tee, thank you for your comments. I’ve spent some time answering your questions below.

    I would imagine that as a people pleaser, you weren’t actually easy-going, but that you pretended that you were happy to accommodate them and do whatever they asked of you, even if it went against your wishes. So you might have worn a mask of “kindness”, saying things like “sure, no problem, I’ll do it”, but underneath you felt miserable and probably resentful too?

    Yeah, it was the way my mother acted around everyone and I learned from a young age that this was how you got people to love you and treat you well. I think I believed that kindness from other people had to be earned and that it wasn’t something that I was just automatically worthy of. It was only when I entered the workplace and was working full-time that I recognised that other people didn’t behave the same way, and I started to see see how much it was limiting me. It was a shock to find that people actually respected me less for being a doormat. I don’t think I’d ever fully allowed myself to even feel anger until I was in my late twenties. I had been miserable and resentful for many years but I’d suppressed these emotions so much that I had never even known it until I started to stand up to my father as an adult.

    If I am counting right, you started taking anti-depressants about 14 years ago (one year into your relationship with your husband), and you have been taking them for 12 years. In the last couple of years you have been weening off anti-depressants. This has caused problems in your marriage, since you couldn’t feel anything for anyone, including your husband. You also had heightened anxiety. You now can feel again and the communication with your husband has improved in the last 3-4 months.

    You haven’t told your husband that you were weening off anti-depressants, which you now see as a big mistake because it would have explained your poor behavior. Does your husband now know that you’re no longer taking anti-depressants? Does he support you in that decision?

    I think that timeline is about right, yes. The lack of feeling was chronic and such an odd thing, because logically I knew that I loved him and couldn’t imagine wanting to be with anyone else, but my emotions were so flat. I never really made a big thing about taking anti-depressants in the first place, so I don’t think he’s aware that I no longer take them. I think generally he trusts me to do what’s right for me and would be supportive of it. I think I didn’t tell him a couple of years ago that I was weaning off them because I knew that it was potentially going to be a bumpy ride for a while in terms of side-effects but I’d hoped that it wouldn’t last as long as it did.

    You still cry when thinking about your mother, even if she died 20 years ago. This tells me that the wound is still raw. I think it’s because a part of you (the child and teenager that you were) still feels helpless and horrified at the thought of living without your mother’s protection, alone with your father, in an environment full of hatred and cruelty. A part of you is still stuck in the past, and this is probably the part that needs healing the most.

    It’s great that in the last couple of years, you are learning about trauma and getting better at self-care. And that you’ve made more progress in those 2 years than in the 12 years of being on anti-depressants. Are you attending therapy? Because I would assume that if one wants to ween off anti-depressants, one would need therapy to support that process…

    It’s very raw still, yes. As a teenager I didn’t have a safe place to express my emotions after she passed and for years after I suppressed a lot of emotion, so there’s a lot there to process. I made sure that I was confident enough in my coping skills before I stopped taking anti-depressants (yoga, meditation, journalling, etc.) but I hadn’t been prepared for how intense the emotions would be. Therapy is something I’m aware that I’m very much in need of, but unfortunately it’s too expensive for me right now. I think the relational aspect of it would be really healing for me and it’s definitely something I’m working towards doing, hopefully next year if I can get together a more stable income.

    You said that once you started weening off, you’ve experienced loss of emotions – you couldn’t feel anything for anyone. Maybe this was a protective mechanism – to cut off all emotions, so they wouldn’t overwhelm you?

    Since you’ve started this thread due to an issue with your husband, I am wondering about the dynamic between the two of you. From what you’ve shared so far, he is a decent man who has behaved “out of character” recently. You are thinking that it was because he had a crush on some girl online, since you weren’t emotionally available. May I ask – is he in general a good husband? Does he respect you? How was your relationship while you were on anti-depressants? Please answer only if you feel comfortable talking about it.

    This would make sense as the emotions were intense. It was only after getting comfortable with little acts of self-care that I started to feel able to express any emotion other than irritability.

    I think in general he’s a good husband and recently I’ve started to feel more confident that he does respect me. For a while I didn’t feel that he did. When he was frequently playing his online game it felt like it dominated both our lives as when he wasn’t playing it he was using Discord on his mobile, chatting about it and socialising with the other gamers, which I wouldn’t have minded now and again but it seemed to be every spare moment. I have the app too so could see that he was logging in regularly, even at work, plus he would take his phone to the bathroom and be chatting in there. It’s this kind of thing which made me paranoid and it was what triggered our last discussion about it. I found myself getting frustrated often because it seemed like he was more interested in the game/his Discord social life than he was with spending time with me. I also felt like I was taking too much responsibility for household chores and being taken for granted in that respect.

    Our relationship was fine while I was on anti-depressants, but I wasn’t feeling fully and was going through the motions with day to day life. I didn’t think I had any resentments at the time because I was largely so tired and work focused that it didn’t seem to matter. I just wanted to sleep! I think all the things which did matter to me and needed to be addressed became more apparent when I stopped taking anti-depressants.

    Something has just occurred to me – you asked who you are (since you are not and shouldn’t be a people pleaser!) Well, your true self is a compassionate self, having the voice of a gentle, kind and loving parent. If you can find such a voice within yourself, this is the voice of your True Self. If you get anchored in self-compassion, the pieces of the puzzle will start coming together, and you’ll be discovering more and more of your authentic self.

    Thank you, that’s reassuring! I’m doing the work but the concept of self-compassion is still so new to me and not easy. I do have faith that I can get better at it though.

    #407910
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Janel:

    You are welcome and thank you for expressing your appreciation and for being here!

    My anxiety has been extremely heightened by the way, however, which means I’m spending A LOT of time thinking about the perils of being a human“- your experience of life, all of it-  takes place in the distance between your ears. This is where you think and this is where your experience of emotions is made possible, including anxiety.  There are ways to make this distance in-between-the-ears way more peaceful than it is regardless of current global troubles beginning with the intent to make it so.

    When you can’t change what happens in the vast distances of the globe, all that’s left for you to change is what happens in that very short distance between the ears: to no longer suffer unnecessarily, when your suffering benefits no one.

    Most of my friends and colleagues were absolutely freaking out when COVID emerged“- looking back, at least for those not directly affected by Covid deaths, looking back the Covid years almost looks, in retrospect, like the good old years, does it.. in your experience?

    And the war has been going on for months. Why aren’t more people terrified??? I genuinely don’t understand“- you know how terrifying feeling terrified feels like… no wonder people don’t want to be terrified! Back to the option of peace in between the ears regardless of global events and threats… think about it, will you?

    anita

    #407909
    Janel
    Participant

    Thank you for responding, Anita…as usual, most of what you said resonates. I’ve been reading your insightful and supportive comments for years (I used to have an old account but have lost the login info, hence the new one), and I’m so glad to see you sharing more of your personal bio. The layers of wisdom and empathy make sense to me now.

    I agree with what you said about denial and being human, am of course quite adept at it myself lol. I need to be able to work and thinking about the billions of possible ways to die every single second of every day won’t allow me to do that. My anxiety has been extremely heightened by the way, however, which means I’m spending A LOT of time thinking about the perils of being a human and all the ghoulish ways I and my loved ones could perish. Trauma kids gonna trauma. I guess what is so unsettling is that literally nobody I know is talking about the nuclear brinkmanship we are now seeing play out. And most of my friends and colleagues were absolutely freaking out when COVID emerged. And the war has been going on for months. Why aren’t more people terrified??? I genuinely don’t understand and am tired of finding “support” in musty conspiratorial subreddits.

    #407907
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Janel:

    As you can see, I took way more than 10 hours to reply. As a matter of fact, I postpone replying to your thread all morning and it is only after I ran out of threads to respond to, that I am back to your thread. The reason: the topic scares the h*** out of me and it is never far from my mind for long: global warming (expanding global drought and extreme weather events that are getting worse and more frequent while there is no reality-based reason for optimism) as well as nuclear disaster.

    The fact that people aren’t talking about the grimness of our current situation adds to the dystopian Twilight Zone feel and makes me feel so incredibly lonely“- people are not talking because they too are scared. I see it in real-life. Denying danger lowers anxiety. In cases where there is nothing for an individual to do about a clear-and-present danger… denial has a positive value.

    In regard to the two topics, it’s all in the hands of people in positions of power and not at all in the hands of most people, people like me. Therefore, I see a positive value to denial. I can’t muster full denial, but partial denial as in not thinking about it all the time and accommodating others’ denials by not bringing these two topics up… it’s the kind thing to do.

    I’m a late 40-something woman who endured severe trauma and abuse at the hands of my father until I was 17. As a result I’ve struggled with anxiety, OCD tendencies and dissociative episodes for most of my adult life. My anxiety has been an amorphous presence in my life for decades“- similarly here, add 10 years and substitute father with mother.

    While thinking in the last few years about massive human annihilation as a result of droughts and/ or more recently,  as a result a global nuclear disaster, it became clear to me that my fear of my mother when living with her, and the amorphous presence of my fear of her (I like your phrasing) long after she’s no longer been a clear-and-present danger in my life- has  been more powerful than my fear of the clear and present dangers that currently threaten humanity and all of life on earth.

    Since February 24th when Russia invaded Ukraine, all my childhood nightmares about nuclear Holocaust have resurrected and I’ve had trouble functioning in many areas of my life because of it“- your use of the word holocaust reminds me that when I was a teenager, decades before I was concerned with global warming, and while not having nuclear disaster on my mind, I referred to my childhood as my private holocaust and thought of my mother as my private SS guard.

    I feel a similar sense of rage of powerlessness, now, at this moment, as I watch our government escalate this war to the brink of global annihilation. Billions for war while the unhoused people I help in my city live on sidewalks and have no access to mental health resources, food, healthcare etc.“- I agree. The war industry is an industry like many other industries: its concern is nothing other than financial profit. It is greed (the desire for power in terms of money and otherwise) that is and has been destroying our world, and how scary it is when individuals in very powerful positions are … the most greedy.

    I feel a similar sense of rage…  I’m just so sad and scared and not sure what to do“- rage is closely associated with fear. This is one of the reasons I personally don’t talk about the clear and present dangers to our world with people who cannot make a difference (all the people I know belong to this group): it will make them sad and scared… and angry at me for bringing it up, rageful perhaps.

    This fear though, the fear of the clear and present dangers to us all… it makes me feel more alive: I look out through the window right now, the sun is shining pleasantly, trees, still green… and I think: how lovely, how interesting to have yet another day.

    anita

    #407899
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Caroline:

    You are welcome.  “I know it is possible that he will ridicule me saying for example ‘Can I talk for 15 seconds more or are you bored already?‘”- this would be a passive-aggressive comment where he accuses you of being easily bored and unkind to him, while it is he who is unkind to you by burdening you with his long monologues-which is abusive, by demanding that you continue to take his abuse, and by accusing and ridiculing you for not taking his abuse silently and submissively.

    If this is the kind of comments he has made to you in the past, then he’s been passive-aggressive with you, which is about being aggressive while appearing passive.

    I know it did not happen yet, but I have a strange feeling, knowing his being passive aggressive in the past, that probably it will be his response in a long run“- amazing: I wrote the above before I read this sentence (I read posts part by part, responding to one part before reading the next). So indeed, he has been passive-aggressive.

    I am trying to prepare for it. He can surprise me with something worse, though..”- what something worse can it be?

    It has been overwhelmed at work lately. Since I thought my coworkers may think I am dishonest. I get anxiety every day and feel like a fraud“- the guy we’ve been discussing is dishonest and a fraud, including when he misrepresented his “friendship” (with you) to the other colleagues.

    Today I had the opportunity to briefly explain we are not friends anymore“- well done!!!

    One of the coworker said something about us 3 (Me, the guy who works here and a girl ) changing department“-  if it means no longer working with the guy we’ve been discussing, changing department is a very good idea the sooner, the better!

    last year one girl decided to leave and he acted very rude…  He also repeatedly ‘threatened me’ that I cannot leave either. I say this in .. because he says it like a joke but … it is not“- he is passive-aggressive: aggressive with the appearance of passivity and humor. (The more I read about him, the more I dislike him).

    I still feel dishonest and do not like myself lately“- can you elaborate on this: what did you say or do that is dishonest? What is it that you don’t like about yourself lately?

    anita

    #407894
    Caroline
    Participant

    Anita,

    Thank you for being excited for me. And for reminding me that there is a possibility he might not respect my boundaries in the future after all. I though about it and I know it is possible that he will ridicule me saying for example “Can I talk for 15 seconds more or are you bored already?” I know it did not happen yet, but I have a strange feeling, knowing his being passive aggressive in the past, that probably it will be his response in a long run. I am trying to prepare for it. He can surprise me with something worse, though.

    I read the article on the blog, thank you for sharing, I also found some other websites and trying to find out more. I started experimenting with tapping method.

    I will be trying to be more brave with standing up for myself. Feels scary but also liberating.

    It has been overwhelmed at work lately. Since I thought my coworkers may think I am dishonest, I get anxiety every day and feel like a fraud. Today I had the opportunity to briefly explain we are not friends anymore. One of the coworker said something about us 3 (Me, the guy who works here and a girl ) changing department (work is good here but we are not entirely happy about it so sometimes we talk about opportunities to move) and he said that it will be the most difficult for me because my friend will go crazy when he hears I want to leave (last year one girl decided to leave and he acted very rude, did not congratulate her in front of management, said he is not happy, nothing to be happy about – generally he acted really bad. It happened twice – also with the other girl earlier in 2021. He was friends with her but they do not speak anymore because of it. He also repeatedly “threatened me” that I cannot leave either. I say this in ” ” because he says it like a joke but … it is not). So I replied to them that my relationship with him is not friendly anymore and I do not think he would act this way if I leave and that I told him already I will probably change jobs in 2022. I know I should say more but I got nervous.

    I still feel dishonest and do not like myself lately. Practicing long walks as well, sometimes it helps.

     

    #407893
    lindsey
    Participant

    Dear Anita,

    I still think you need to get a beagle puppy!

    Yes I agree with you.  My job is very stressful and busy right now- definitely bigger fish to fry so to speak. Best to let that go- my anxiety is fueling the fire b/c of my own traumatic past and being uncomfortable with my feelings… and myself.

    My unhappiness with work is another struggle.  Will send a more detail when I can later…work is crazy.

    Lindsey

    #407892
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Lindsey:

    The conversation last night reads fine to me: good, honest sharing on your part, and his response brief but fine. You wrote about last night:” I felt things were a little off but possibly b/c of the anxiety of the situation“- anxiety always feels off, so when you feel off, ask yourself: am I anxious? If you are, you have your reason for feeling off.

    He responded with ‘I do.’ and sent a joking emoji“- so the question he answered was (paraphrased, Lindsey asking Jason): do you understand that the song means that I like you, not that I love you?

    I’m sitting here still confused as to the entire situation“- reads to me that Jason is not a  man with many words, at least not when it comes to talking about romantic emotions. Therefore  his “I do” and joking emoji was his quickest way to dodge the awkwardness it would have taken to give you an elaborate response.

    So I sent him a message this morning… I wanted to make sure it was clear that the song was in reference to liking him- not more… I want him to be clear about the meaning of sending the song“-

    -this is your anxiety driving your thinking and your thinking fueling your anxiety. Instead of obsessing about this, do  NPAR: Notice  that you are anxious and obsessing, Pause: stop the obsessing, Address the situation: what happened/ what is really happening which requires further response? (the answer is: nothing, really), and then Respond-or-not (not in this case), and Redirect your attention to something else.

    It’s a difficult practice but it gets easier the more you practice.

    anita

    #407889
    lindsey
    Participant

    Dear Anita,

    I can try the sauna approach but I don’t think he will thaw LOL.

    Here is an example of how completely confused I am.  So yesterday I came across and really good song about liking how someone makes you feel etc.  Then I got anxiety about sending it. First I thought a song was a bit cheesy but most importantly he would take it as an indicator love is being said (well, singing actually) versus really what the lyrics say.  I spoke with him later about it when I went to his house. I felt things were a little off but possibly b/c of the anxiety of the situation. We spoke briefly about it but I woke up this morning thinking I never told this guy that the song meant I really like him and do like how he makes me feel (per the lyrics of the song).

    So I sent him a message this morning about it saying the song meant like and not more. Was more than like his impression?  He responded with “I do” and a joking emoji.  His unclear responses are annoying. I’m not bringing it up again since I feel like i have already and I do have anxiety. I’m sitting here still confused as to the entire situation.

    Lindsey

    #407886
    Jess
    Participant

     “I will  not die a failure… just as I wasn’t born a failure.” How do you know that? when everything that I tried hard to do or accomplish seems never good enough.. and this anxiety haunts me for so long, that I can get into panic attack  over the smallest thing or mistake

    #407880
    Janel
    Participant

    First, a little backstory: I’m a late 40-sonething woman who endured severe trauma and abuse at the hands of my father until I was 17. As a result I’ve struggled with anxiety, OCD tendencies and dissociative episodes for most of my adult life.

    My anxiety has been an amorphous presence in my life for decades, but many times my mind has fixated on particular fears to the point that I’ve needed inpatient hospitalizations. Since February 24th when Russia invaded Ukraine, all my childhood nightmares about nuclear Holocaust have resurrected and I’ve had trouble functioning in many areas of my life because of it.

    I guess I should add that I’m extremely involved with leftist politics and activism and that I’m very critical of U.S./NATO’s history of imperialism and oppression under the guise of “democracy.” I nearly had a nervous breakdown when we invaded Afghanistan and Iraq. I feel a similar sense of rage of powerlessness, now, at this moment, as I watch our government escalate this war to the brink of global annihilation. Billions for war while the unhoused people I help in my city live on sidewalks and have no access to mental health resources, food, healthcare etc.

    I’m not sure there’s a question here. I’m just so sad and scared and not sure what to do. The fact that people aren’t talking about the grimness of our current situation adds to the dystopian Twilight Zone feel and makes me feel so incredibly lonely. Any feedback appreciated.

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