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Hello dear friends,
I often struggle with feeling anxious and overwhelmed and am trying to establish morning/evening routines to help me feel more hopeful, productive, at peace, and healthier (journaling, exercising, praying, meditating, etc). What do you as your morning/evening routine?
Topic: Lost My Direction
Hello,
I’m new to this forum, but I’ve been a huge fan of Tiny Buddha for at least a few years now.
Anyway, I’ve been in a very good relationship for the past two years. It’s been good, with its bumps in the road – of course.
We have recently run into some deep struggles, and mostly of my doing.
I’m not sure I love him anymore, and I’m not sure ”he’s the one”.
There’s been more and more arguments lately, none are violent, but very emotionally draining and stressful.
We’re definitely out of the ”honeymoon” stage, and I feel like there’s definitely things I don’t like about him anymore, but am very confused about what’s the normal amount to not like in a partner, and if these things are bad enough to mean he’s not the person I want to continue a life building my precious life with.
It’s been very confusing for me, because of these questions that are still left unanswered.We have a very strong connection and many things in common – sometimes it is jaw-dropping how alike we see on many, diverse subjects. I’m wondering if the complaints I have are me being too much of a perfectionist, or genuinely realizing that I don’t work well with him. They are factors such as him not being creatively expressive, whereas I take pride in that (little handmade cards that say “I love you” mean so much). Sexual expressions has been more and more unsatisfying and awkward, but I genuinely don’t know if it’s because I’m removing myself from the relationship or is it a true hunch. Our lives together just don’t quite seem to match up anymore, mostly because his life isn’t the life I want at the moment; it feels like our paths are diverging, and we’ve brought into question the notion of taking a break for awhile and checking back in with eachother, which does seem like a very good idea and huge possibility.
I have fears, like people saying, “I told you it wouldn’t last.” or the fear of me not being able to do it on my own.
The biggest fear is making the wrong choice; being three months out of the relationship, him with another partner and me regretting it completely because then I would say to myself quite honestly I’ve made a horrible decision. The thought of us leaving one another drives me out of my mind and parks me over the highest cliff, hanging there in utter desperation, helpless. I don’t know if I could do it without him, or want to. It’s been back and forth over this past month. Numerous occasions I will do journaling or meditation exercises asking myself questions about the relationship, and I’ll leave saying, “I just don’t know. I don’t know.” There’s also much guilt and fear within me about it not lasting as we expected, and feeling completely ashamed about that; not to mention the guilt and fear of how much it’ll hurt him. I’m very, very scared that I won’t be able to find someone like him again.Right now, in this moment, I feel very lost and dizzy, as well as quite frightened of the possibilities and outcomes.
I also feel like my mind is one big mess of yarn from all of this going on. I can’t make sense of what to do at all.Please help.
Very appreciated,
🙂